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I'm Denise. I'm a survivor
of domestic violence.
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Hi, Denise.
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Hi, Denise.
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Does anyone want to share anything today
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before we start with
our special activity?
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Okay. Then I'll turn this over to Alex.
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Let's give her a warm welcome.
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Thanks, guys.
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I'm Alex and I am a survivor
of domestic violence.
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Hi, Alex.
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I asked Denise if I could
do some volunteer work and...
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I meant cleaning the toilets, but...
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Denise said that I
should do this instead
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and I said "no," and she
said "yes," and here we are.
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Show them your serial-killer notebook.
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She says my writing looks
like a serial killer's, so...
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Damn, you wrote all that?
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I did. Yes. I wrote this just
since I've been at McMullen House.
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Do any of you guys write for fun?
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Brandi, you do not
need to raise your hand.
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I had a diary in 5th grade.
It was furry and pink.
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It had a little lock on it.
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- Yeah. Me too. I had one of those.
- Mm.
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Here's the hard question.
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Who were you writing to when you wrote?
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Nobody. Just myself.
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Yeah, same.
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Writing is where I go to
be honest about how I feel.
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Sometimes it's really
the only way for me
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to know what it is that I'm feeling.
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Like I have to write in order
to see what I'm gonna write.
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If that makes any sense.
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But...
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I find that it's a lot easier
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to write the truth than
it is to say it out loud.
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Nobody can take writing away from you.
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Nobody can tell you that you're
wrong, or your words are wrong.
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Because they're not.
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You're right, and your
words are fucking right.
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Because they're yours.
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Anyway, we all have notebooks and pens.
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Are we gonna read this out loud?
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You can if you want
to, but you definitely
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don't have to if you don't want to.
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Okay, so I brought some writing prompts
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that I got from a real
professor from the Internet
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that is qualified to be teaching things.
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Okay. Describe a day in your
life that you were really happy.
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It can be a real day
that actually happened.
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Or an imagined day that
you wish would happen.
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I'm gonna put ten minutes on...
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the clock.
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There's no pressure, we're just
writing for the sake of writing.
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That was great.
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- Can I ask something? You have a minute?
- Of course.
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I know the answer to this already,
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but we're not allowed to have any
visitors at the shelter, are we?
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No. I'm sorry, baby girl.
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We can only have individual victims
and their children in shelter.
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- Figured.
- Why?
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Um, I just found out that
my mom's living in a car.
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Sorry to hear that.
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Thanks.
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Is she a victim of DV?
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She's a chronic victim of DV,
but she's also in complete denial
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and delusional and unmedicated, so...
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Is she over 55?
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Mm-hm.
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They have a program called SHARE
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that puts homeless
folks at senior centers,
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but she has to enroll.
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Yeah. Ah...
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She really hates everything
government-oriented
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and she's on the lam from a psych
ward, so that's not gonna work out.
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Thank you.
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Is there anyone else that
can look after your mom?
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No, I've been taking
care of her since I was 6.
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What would happen if you didn't?
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I think I'll do something, I don't know,
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something spectacular when I walk in.
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They come in really strong.
Yeah, that's a good idea, so...
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Oh, shit, man.
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- Hey, Mom.
- Alex, hey.
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I thought that was
you, I was just driving
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home from a clean and I saw your car.
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She's hard to miss.
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- What are you up to out here?
- Oh, well, look at Her Majesty.
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Spring has sprung.
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It's gonna be a cotton-candy sunset,
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and I'm gonna watch every
sugar-coated moment of her.
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Looks like you were
talking to the birds.
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Oh, no, honey.
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I downloaded that
dictation app onto my phone.
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Because I'm giving a lecture
on the Neolithic concept
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of the solar barge to the collective.
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And, um, I would write
this one, but I can't.
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Because my fucking arm's killing me.
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Oh, where's your cast, Mom?
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Where did your cast go?
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Oh.
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It was plastered to your
wrist. Where did it go?
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Uh...
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I had a terrible itch,
so I had Micah saw it off.
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I have to say, it was oddly erotic.
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Are you kidding me? The cast
has to be on for six more weeks.
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- It's fine.
- No, that's not fine.
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You have a severed tendon and
now your tendon is not gonna heal.
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If you're gonna ruin the cotton
candy, you're gonna have to go.
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I'm, um...
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I'm glad that I ran into you.
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I know that you have a great
living situation in your loft
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with your collective, but, um...
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I told you I'm moving to Montana.
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What if you came with me?
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I've got a place on campus.
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You could hang with Maddy
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and you could go on walks
and you could paint all day.
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Watch Maddy start kindergarten.
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Oh, babe, that's not me.
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Why not?
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Because I'm not boring.
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I've got a big life.
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I can't be galloping off
behind you, being a tag along.
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No, Mom. I'm really
serious. I'm inviting you.
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My blood's here, honey.
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My mama's buried here.
Her mama's buried here.
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The Langley women are here.
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I am a Langley woman and I am going.
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I know, baby, and that's you.
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But, uh...
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I can't leave.
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Okay.
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Go to some appointments before I leave.
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- Like the wrist doctor.
- Hard pass.
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I'm making you an appointment
for tomorrow, okay?
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You're gonna meet me
there. Nod that you hear me.
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I don't wanna have to worry
about you when I'm gone, Mom.
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Look at that. Cotton candy.
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We're starting here, and then
we're gonna go over some mountains.
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We're gonna go to Spokane,
which is a really big city.
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Then we're gonna go over more mountains.
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Then over some more mountains.
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All the way to Missoula.
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- Mm-hm.
- Right there.
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Missoula.
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Missoula.
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It's gonna take us this many hours.
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Two. Three. Four. Five.
Six. Seven. Eight. Nine.
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Nine hours.
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- And "Shoop."
- Exactly.
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No!
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Hi, I'd like to place an order
for English 102, Block 5, textbook.
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For books?
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Do you have any used copies?
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Great, um, would you mind
setting one of those aside?
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I can be there on Tuesday.
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Thank you.
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- Hey, Tara.
- Oh, good, hi.
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Just a quick update for you.
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I just got back from the clerk's office.
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- Uh-oh.
- No, it's fine.
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They objected to the notice
of relocation, which we knew,
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but the motion for the ex
parte emergency custody order
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has been filed and I also slapped him
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with a temporary no-contact order,
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so that ought to make a point.
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- So he can't contact me?
- Correct.
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The sheriff should be serving
him with the restraining order
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and the ex parte motion this morning.
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Okay. Uh...
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- So, what happens now?
- We wait.
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I left word for Sean's attorney.
We should know more soon.
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Okay, thank you so much.
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Yeah, no problem, bye.
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Brandi, I think you were next, right?
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I don't know if this
is my happiest day ever,
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but it's what came to
my mind during then.
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Perfect.
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"I used to go on these
walks with my dad as a kid.
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We'd go in June before the
sticky late-summer heat.
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I'd get one of those Flintstone
orange popsicles from 7-Eleven.
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The kind you have to use
all your might to push up.
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We'd walk along the ocean looking
at the Virgo constellations,
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since my birthday is
four days before his.
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My dad would point
to the sky and tell me
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he was the Big Dipper and
I was the Little Dipper.
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We stopped going on our
walks when my dad got sick.
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But I went back recently with my son.
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Got him a Flintstone orange popsicle.
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They're much easier to push up now.
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I looked up at the night
sky, and there it was...
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as if zero time had passed.
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The Big and Little Dipper."
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That's it.
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So of course we wanna keep
everything that we say positive,
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but I was hoping that we
could say some of the images
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that are gonna stay with
us from Brandi's story.
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"Sticky late-summer heat."
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"They're much easier to push up now."
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"Zero time had passed."
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"Big and Little Dipper."
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Does anybody else wanna share?
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Please leave a message after the tone.
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Mom.
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Mom!
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Hey, honey.
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Don't. We're going to the doctor.
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- What doctor?
- The doctor that you just stood up.
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She can see you at 4:00, but
we have to leave right now.
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It's Thursday. I didn't say I was going.
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We have the booth on Tuesdays,
Thursdays and Saturdays.
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And I'm not abandoning Micah.
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- Come meet my daughter.
- We met the other day.
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- Oh.
- Mom. Please, can we go?
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Uh, why have you got glitter
all over? Did you go to a rave?
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- I cleaned a playroom.
- You know what glitter is?
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- It is the lice of the art room.
- You gave me your word. Come on.
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- You spread it wherever you go.
- Would you grow up?
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- We gotta go.
- You're the one with glitter.
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Get in my car and I'm gonna
drive you to the doctor.
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You're not the boss of me. Okay?
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It's my arm that hurts.
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I'll take CBD or go to the
doctor or I'll cut the fucker off.
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Just because you're on some
timer because you're leaving,
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doesn't mean I am. I am fantastic.
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For God's sake, just worry
about somebody else. Please.
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- Babe.
- Oh, sorry, honey.
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I'm working. I've got a job here, okay?
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Hi there.
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You got a nice smile.
Look at your smile.
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- Tara?
- Uh, change of plans.
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Do you think you could meet
me near my office on Whitby?
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Is everything okay?
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I spoke to Sean's attorney.
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They are moving to reject the
ex parte motion altogether,
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citing lack of evidence of abuse.
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And Sean is unwilling to
revise the parenting plan
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or give up any of his custodial rights.
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Okay.
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Thanks.
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I'm sorry. So, what does that mean?
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It means that he says you're
lying about being abused.
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So there will be an
adequate-cause hearing in 14 days
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to determine the validity of your
claims and appropriate custody.
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And it's gonna be what
we call a win-loss case.
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If you lose, you can't
take Maddy anywhere.
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Uh, ever?
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Washington makes it very
hard for victims of DV.
250
00:16:51,635 --> 00:16:53,295
Particularly in cases of emotional...
251
00:16:53,387 --> 00:16:54,850
I'm aware, I've been through this
252
00:16:54,851 --> 00:16:56,887
and lost because I
didn't have any bruises.
253
00:16:56,974 --> 00:16:58,564
You're not gonna lose.
254
00:16:58,642 --> 00:17:00,942
We have 14 days to make a solid case.
255
00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:03,730
Someone must have seen this
guy emotionally abuse you.
256
00:17:03,814 --> 00:17:06,234
I don't have 14 days. I
leave for Montana on Monday.
257
00:17:06,316 --> 00:17:09,026
Legally, you can't go
anywhere with Maddy.
258
00:17:09,111 --> 00:17:10,491
Not before the hearing.
259
00:17:14,783 --> 00:17:20,293
I am gonna lose my family housing
and my spot in school. I'm...
260
00:17:20,372 --> 00:17:22,542
- Yes.
- Another one.
261
00:17:23,417 --> 00:17:25,997
I have to leave the
shelter this weekend.
262
00:17:26,086 --> 00:17:29,626
What do you think that I should
do? I don't have a backup plan here.
263
00:17:29,715 --> 00:17:31,125
We're gonna fight this.
264
00:17:31,216 --> 00:17:33,836
I'm gonna get you
there by fall semester.
265
00:17:33,927 --> 00:17:37,557
I just took out a $9000
student loan, $9000.
266
00:17:37,639 --> 00:17:40,179
I don't know if you realize,
but this is my fucking life.
267
00:17:40,267 --> 00:17:42,687
I'm not rich like you and
Regina. I can't repay this.
268
00:17:42,770 --> 00:17:43,900
There's more.
269
00:17:43,979 --> 00:17:46,569
Sean is demanding visitation with Maddy.
270
00:17:48,150 --> 00:17:51,070
No. We have a restraining order, so, no.
271
00:17:51,153 --> 00:17:53,033
It only applies to you, not to Maddy.
272
00:17:53,113 --> 00:17:55,783
The court has approved
a four-hour visitation.
273
00:17:57,534 --> 00:17:58,664
When?
274
00:17:58,744 --> 00:17:59,744
Tomorrow.
275
00:18:00,245 --> 00:18:03,285
They will appoint a third
party, neutral supervisor,
276
00:18:03,373 --> 00:18:05,633
unless you have someone you could use?
277
00:18:05,709 --> 00:18:07,209
- A grandparent?
- Not doing that.
278
00:18:07,294 --> 00:18:08,674
I can't do that to her.
279
00:18:08,754 --> 00:18:11,924
If you don't comply, you will be
in violation of your parenting plan,
280
00:18:12,007 --> 00:18:16,347
which will not look good
for the hearing in 14 days.
281
00:18:16,428 --> 00:18:18,718
Alex, I'm sorry that
this is happening, but...
282
00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:21,179
it's not over.
283
00:18:21,266 --> 00:18:22,636
It's just a speed bump.
284
00:19:09,106 --> 00:19:11,226
- Oh.
- It's just me.
285
00:19:11,316 --> 00:19:14,026
Alex. Shit. Good God.
286
00:19:16,738 --> 00:19:18,528
You scared the shit out of me.
287
00:19:18,615 --> 00:19:20,235
What are you doing here?
288
00:19:21,285 --> 00:19:23,075
I need your help.
289
00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:24,412
What are you doing here?
290
00:19:24,496 --> 00:19:30,086
Oh, I had one too many margaritas
and I just pulled over here to...
291
00:19:31,253 --> 00:19:33,173
sleep it off on the way home.
292
00:19:34,089 --> 00:19:36,879
- Mom.
- I know this doesn't look good.
293
00:19:36,967 --> 00:19:37,967
It's just, um...
294
00:19:39,011 --> 00:19:43,101
the collective gets
noisy and I come here...
295
00:19:43,932 --> 00:19:44,932
to nap.
296
00:19:46,101 --> 00:19:48,691
I know you sleep here, you
spend all day in the park alone,
297
00:19:48,770 --> 00:19:50,690
and that there's no collective.
298
00:19:56,320 --> 00:19:57,320
Well...
299
00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:03,040
maybe "collective" isn't the right word.
300
00:20:04,828 --> 00:20:10,328
You know, we've really got
a nice group of people here.
301
00:20:10,417 --> 00:20:11,457
Honestly...
302
00:20:12,085 --> 00:20:15,415
We've got the Flores family
over here, in the van.
303
00:20:15,505 --> 00:20:17,965
Billy and Anna. I just love them.
304
00:20:18,050 --> 00:20:21,850
You know, we look out for
each other and it's like a...
305
00:20:21,929 --> 00:20:26,349
I don't know, a big sleep-out
or a drive-in movie theater.
306
00:20:26,433 --> 00:20:27,943
We just need popcorn.
307
00:20:29,603 --> 00:20:31,273
Why can't you take care of yourself?
308
00:20:32,022 --> 00:20:35,362
What do you mean? You know,
I've got my cooler in here.
309
00:20:35,442 --> 00:20:37,822
I've got my vitamins, baby.
310
00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:40,203
Cozy blanket and my fucking good weed.
311
00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:42,070
- I'm fine.
- You're homeless.
312
00:20:42,157 --> 00:20:43,697
You're living in your car.
313
00:20:43,784 --> 00:20:46,044
- Would you just stop?
- No. Please.
314
00:20:47,204 --> 00:20:48,624
I love my car!
315
00:20:49,456 --> 00:20:51,376
She's my cobalt bitch.
316
00:20:51,458 --> 00:20:53,458
- We're like family.
- You're homeless, Mom.
317
00:20:53,543 --> 00:20:56,593
- Would you please just stop!
- You're homeless.
318
00:20:56,672 --> 00:20:58,882
I'm under the stars. I'm independent.
319
00:21:01,510 --> 00:21:03,680
And it's not all the time. I mean...
320
00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:06,271
sometimes I stay with Micah.
321
00:21:07,641 --> 00:21:09,311
When Alaina-May's not there.
322
00:21:09,393 --> 00:21:13,983
- Who the fuck is Alaina-May?
- I told you. His wife.
323
00:21:14,064 --> 00:21:16,830
They broke up, but she still stays there
324
00:21:16,831 --> 00:21:19,824
because she's a feral dumpster fire.
325
00:21:19,903 --> 00:21:21,823
The point is, honey, I...
326
00:21:23,240 --> 00:21:28,370
You know, I like being a gypsy.
I like being mobile. Okay?
327
00:21:28,453 --> 00:21:29,963
You know me. I'm scrappy.
328
00:21:30,038 --> 00:21:32,365
I don't know. I can't afford to put you
329
00:21:32,366 --> 00:21:33,918
in a motel or bring you to the shelter.
330
00:21:34,001 --> 00:21:35,171
I don't know.
331
00:21:35,252 --> 00:21:37,842
I am not your problem, Alexandra.
332
00:21:37,921 --> 00:21:40,261
- Yes, you are.
- No, I am not.
333
00:21:40,340 --> 00:21:42,090
- I'm your mother.
- You're not.
334
00:21:42,175 --> 00:21:43,255
Yes, I am!
335
00:21:44,219 --> 00:21:45,719
I am!
336
00:21:45,804 --> 00:21:49,849
- You said you needed my help.
- I do.
337
00:21:49,850 --> 00:21:51,890
So how can I help you, madam?
338
00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:54,982
Can you supervise a playdate
between Sean and Maddy?
339
00:21:55,063 --> 00:21:58,153
He gets visitation and a third
party needs to be present.
340
00:21:58,233 --> 00:21:59,533
Can you do that?
341
00:21:59,609 --> 00:22:01,279
Yes, I can.
342
00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:05,237
- At what time should I be there?
- 12:30.
343
00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:06,784
Don't you worry.
344
00:22:07,409 --> 00:22:09,199
I will take care of your girl.
345
00:22:12,998 --> 00:22:15,788
- You're going to the doctor.
- Over my dead body.
346
00:22:15,876 --> 00:22:17,746
You're going. Everything
isn't all right.
347
00:22:17,836 --> 00:22:21,206
Everything is fucking shit and
you need to be a goddamn adult.
348
00:22:21,298 --> 00:22:23,678
Your hand looks terrible. You're going!
349
00:22:26,261 --> 00:22:27,891
Do I get a lollipop?
350
00:22:38,356 --> 00:22:40,776
Jesus Christ!
351
00:22:41,443 --> 00:22:43,823
What's that smell coming from your car?
352
00:22:43,904 --> 00:22:46,494
- It smells like burnt turds.
- You went to the doctor.
353
00:22:46,573 --> 00:22:49,283
Yeah, look. My finger still works.
354
00:22:49,367 --> 00:22:50,447
Hey, pumpkin pie.
355
00:22:50,535 --> 00:22:53,535
You ready for a playdate
with me and your daddy?
356
00:22:54,247 --> 00:22:55,457
We're gonna have fun.
357
00:22:55,540 --> 00:22:57,506
I've packed a snack
and a change of clothes
358
00:22:57,507 --> 00:22:58,840
and she's had lunch already.
359
00:22:58,919 --> 00:23:01,549
We've got this. Hi, pumpkin.
360
00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:05,679
Oh, I know.
361
00:23:05,759 --> 00:23:08,639
I guess I'll wait
here, because I have to.
362
00:23:09,513 --> 00:23:12,103
Okay, Maddy. So you're gonna
be with Dad for four hours.
363
00:23:12,182 --> 00:23:14,182
Thanks for sending the cops!
364
00:23:14,267 --> 00:23:15,267
Very classy!
365
00:23:15,811 --> 00:23:16,811
And then...
366
00:23:17,521 --> 00:23:19,470
we'll go and get an ice cream together.
367
00:23:19,471 --> 00:23:21,111
Does that sound good?
368
00:23:21,191 --> 00:23:23,321
Do you want to get ice cream? Okay.
369
00:23:25,529 --> 00:23:27,409
- I love you so much.
- Oh!
370
00:23:28,073 --> 00:23:30,583
- Thanks, Mom.
- Yeah, we're gonna have fun.
371
00:23:34,746 --> 00:23:39,206
Get your Mad-dog. You're
about to see your daddy.
372
00:23:39,210 --> 00:23:40,210
Hey!
373
00:23:40,211 --> 00:23:44,130
Sean-y, you've got
your Mad-dog girl here.
374
00:23:44,214 --> 00:23:46,174
- Oh!
- Hey, Sean-y boy.
375
00:23:46,341 --> 00:23:48,551
- She's heavy.
- You're getting big.
376
00:23:48,635 --> 00:23:50,135
She's getting so big.
377
00:23:51,596 --> 00:23:55,016
We've been swinging
and she can go so high.
378
00:23:55,100 --> 00:23:56,100
Mad-dog!
379
00:24:02,023 --> 00:24:03,323
Thank you for coming.
380
00:24:03,942 --> 00:24:04,942
Of course.
381
00:24:06,236 --> 00:24:10,366
I was worried about you falling off
the face of the earth like you did.
382
00:24:12,117 --> 00:24:13,117
You look okay.
383
00:24:14,995 --> 00:24:16,195
I am okay.
384
00:24:17,205 --> 00:24:20,535
Good. Where's Maddy?
385
00:24:20,625 --> 00:24:22,745
I thought maybe I'd get to see her.
386
00:24:24,838 --> 00:24:29,258
She is at the domestic violence
shelter where I'm living.
387
00:24:30,468 --> 00:24:32,638
They have a daycare
for their victims, so...
388
00:24:32,721 --> 00:24:33,931
Oh, okay.
389
00:24:34,014 --> 00:24:38,024
Well, did you, um... ?
Did you order anything yet?
390
00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:42,654
This is my second time
at an emergency shelter
391
00:24:42,655 --> 00:24:44,520
for abused women this year.
392
00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:51,033
It's the second time
that Sean sent me there.
393
00:24:59,289 --> 00:25:01,499
Do you hear the words
coming out of my mouth?
394
00:25:02,125 --> 00:25:03,455
Yes, I hear them.
395
00:25:06,755 --> 00:25:07,755
And?
396
00:25:10,967 --> 00:25:13,387
I wish you would have reached out to me.
397
00:25:14,304 --> 00:25:17,314
Before taking my granddaughter
to a place like that.
398
00:25:17,390 --> 00:25:19,180
You guys have a place to live.
399
00:25:21,144 --> 00:25:23,104
I would do anything
to help, you know that.
400
00:25:23,188 --> 00:25:26,188
I'd give you the shirt
off my back, all right?
401
00:25:26,274 --> 00:25:27,694
But instead you make me worry.
402
00:25:29,236 --> 00:25:30,606
You make Sean worry.
403
00:25:32,113 --> 00:25:34,873
I've been searching
the ferry station floor
404
00:25:34,950 --> 00:25:36,120
for you guys, Alex.
405
00:25:36,952 --> 00:25:37,952
Okay.
406
00:25:39,329 --> 00:25:40,579
Maybe you can help me now.
407
00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,080
Because I do. I need your help.
408
00:25:45,335 --> 00:25:46,335
Okay.
409
00:25:48,755 --> 00:25:51,585
I filed for full custody of Maddy
410
00:25:51,675 --> 00:25:53,885
so that I can take her
to Missoula with me.
411
00:25:53,969 --> 00:25:55,929
And Sean is objecting to it.
412
00:25:56,429 --> 00:25:57,809
Yeah, I know.
413
00:25:58,765 --> 00:25:59,845
Sean told me.
414
00:26:00,767 --> 00:26:01,767
You know...
415
00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:04,941
Sean's not doing too good right now.
416
00:26:05,021 --> 00:26:06,821
I don't care how Sean's doing, Dad.
417
00:26:07,607 --> 00:26:12,067
My lawyer is building a case to
prove that Sean emotionally abused me.
418
00:26:13,822 --> 00:26:15,635
And I have to provide evidence,
419
00:26:15,636 --> 00:26:18,452
testimony from people that have seen it.
420
00:26:21,329 --> 00:26:22,329
Dad...
421
00:26:23,999 --> 00:26:27,209
will you testify that you
saw Sean emotionally abuse me?
422
00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:31,010
- When would I have seen that?
- At the trailer.
423
00:26:31,715 --> 00:26:34,545
- No. That's not what I saw.
- I saw you see it.
424
00:26:34,634 --> 00:26:37,854
- No, Alex, that's not what I saw.
- You sat there and didn't do a thing.
425
00:26:37,929 --> 00:26:40,849
If I saw anything, what
I saw was a young couple
426
00:26:40,932 --> 00:26:42,682
going through a rough patch.
427
00:26:43,852 --> 00:26:46,692
Sean is struggling with
his sobriety right now,
428
00:26:46,771 --> 00:26:49,191
and what he needs is empathy.
429
00:26:49,983 --> 00:26:52,443
You're walking away from him
at the exact wrong moment.
430
00:26:52,527 --> 00:26:54,567
I can't be responsible
for Sean any more, Dad.
431
00:26:56,281 --> 00:26:57,725
I have to do what's best for me,
432
00:26:57,726 --> 00:26:59,531
and I have to do what's best for Maddy.
433
00:27:00,618 --> 00:27:01,788
He's an alcoholic.
434
00:27:02,912 --> 00:27:04,252
Okay? He's...
435
00:27:04,748 --> 00:27:08,878
He's got a disease that
turns him into a monster.
436
00:27:09,502 --> 00:27:12,052
It's the booze that's
the enemy, not him.
437
00:27:12,130 --> 00:27:14,090
Okay, is it the booze
that hit Mom, then?
438
00:27:19,054 --> 00:27:20,064
- Okay.
- Don't walk out.
439
00:27:20,138 --> 00:27:21,558
Are you fucking kidding me? No!
440
00:27:21,639 --> 00:27:23,599
Alex, what do you want me to say?
441
00:27:23,683 --> 00:27:25,193
I want you to say, "Yes."
442
00:27:25,268 --> 00:27:28,358
I want you to say, "Yes,
I did hit Mom. I'm sorry."
443
00:27:29,898 --> 00:27:31,318
I don't remember that.
444
00:27:35,028 --> 00:27:37,738
You've never been here for
me once in my entire life.
445
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:42,200
But I'm asking for you to be, right now.
446
00:27:49,918 --> 00:27:52,708
I'm always there for
you. For you and Maddy.
447
00:27:52,796 --> 00:27:53,796
It's just it's...
448
00:27:54,923 --> 00:27:56,133
Then do this for me.
449
00:27:57,300 --> 00:27:58,510
Stand up for me.
450
00:28:00,053 --> 00:28:01,473
Help me protect Maddy.
451
00:28:05,350 --> 00:28:06,850
Write a testimonial.
452
00:28:15,151 --> 00:28:16,571
I can't do that.
453
00:28:33,294 --> 00:28:35,674
Then I guess we don't have
much to say to each other.
454
00:28:39,175 --> 00:28:40,175
Can you just... ?
455
00:28:47,100 --> 00:28:50,291
"My happiest day is the day my daughter
456
00:28:50,292 --> 00:28:52,110
touched me for the first time.
457
00:28:52,814 --> 00:28:54,944
I remember it like it was yesterday.
458
00:28:55,608 --> 00:28:57,238
She was nine weeks old.
459
00:28:57,902 --> 00:28:59,862
She didn't know I was in hell,
460
00:28:59,946 --> 00:29:02,946
terrorized day and night by her father.
461
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:08,500
To her, I was just the
warm, nice milk lady.
462
00:29:09,581 --> 00:29:13,041
But this one morning, when
she was nine weeks old,
463
00:29:13,543 --> 00:29:17,173
we were napping on
the floor and I woke up
464
00:29:17,255 --> 00:29:19,255
because someone was touching me.
465
00:29:19,799 --> 00:29:20,969
It was her.
466
00:29:22,260 --> 00:29:26,390
This tiny baby hand
was holding onto my arm.
467
00:29:26,931 --> 00:29:28,981
She was looking at me,
468
00:29:29,726 --> 00:29:33,396
expressing unfiltered affection for me.
469
00:29:33,938 --> 00:29:36,728
This look of trust on her face...
470
00:29:38,359 --> 00:29:41,949
she saw me and loved me.
471
00:29:44,449 --> 00:29:46,909
It was the happiest moment of my life.
472
00:29:47,952 --> 00:29:51,462
That I could be that for someone."
473
00:30:10,558 --> 00:30:11,728
Thank you, Denise.
474
00:30:13,186 --> 00:30:16,186
You guys want to say what
images stood out to you?
475
00:30:16,731 --> 00:30:18,111
"Unfiltered affection."
476
00:30:18,817 --> 00:30:20,857
"Warm, nice milk lady."
477
00:30:23,571 --> 00:30:25,281
"Terrorized day and night."
478
00:30:30,286 --> 00:30:31,786
"Tiny hands."
479
00:30:35,875 --> 00:30:37,995
Does anybody else want to share?
480
00:30:40,905 --> 00:30:41,922
Trina.
481
00:30:41,923 --> 00:30:44,973
Mine's about a girl's
night out. Is that weird?
482
00:30:45,051 --> 00:30:47,301
It's... No.
483
00:30:47,387 --> 00:30:50,217
I didn't write about my
kids like you guys did.
484
00:30:50,306 --> 00:30:53,056
It's your happy day. You can
write about whatever you want.
485
00:30:53,685 --> 00:30:54,685
Okay.
486
00:30:57,230 --> 00:30:59,940
"I was at the bar with
my usual wrecking crew.
487
00:31:01,901 --> 00:31:04,071
Liv, Amanda and Davina.
488
00:31:04,153 --> 00:31:07,413
We were slamming drinks,
celebrating something,
489
00:31:07,490 --> 00:31:08,950
I can't remember what.
490
00:31:10,201 --> 00:31:14,121
But I'll admit it, I wasn't mad
about how I was looking that night.
491
00:31:14,998 --> 00:31:19,588
Then this incredibly hot man
came up from behind. His... "
492
00:31:19,669 --> 00:31:21,919
I'm sorry, I just have
to step out for a second.
493
00:31:22,005 --> 00:31:23,875
- Keep reading. Thank you so much.
- Okay.
494
00:31:24,632 --> 00:31:27,142
"His name was Neil. He
was dressed very nice... "
495
00:31:27,218 --> 00:31:29,888
It's okay. It's okay.
496
00:31:29,971 --> 00:31:31,931
Are you okay? What's going on?
497
00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:34,385
She just got a little upset, that's all.
498
00:31:34,475 --> 00:31:38,305
She had a little meltdown
and couldn't recover.
499
00:31:38,396 --> 00:31:39,936
Isn't that right, pumpkin?
500
00:31:40,023 --> 00:31:42,283
She just really wanted her mommy.
501
00:31:43,276 --> 00:31:48,276
Um, Alex, Sean-y dropped us
off, and he wants to talk to you.
502
00:31:53,161 --> 00:31:54,501
I'm in the middle of class.
503
00:31:54,579 --> 00:31:57,329
Honey, you need to go talk to him.
504
00:31:57,415 --> 00:31:59,125
Things did not go well.
505
00:32:04,714 --> 00:32:05,714
What happened?
506
00:32:06,966 --> 00:32:08,204
When I told her to get off the swing,
507
00:32:08,205 --> 00:32:10,466
she had a tantrum. She was screaming.
508
00:32:12,889 --> 00:32:14,655
She never wants to get off the swings.
509
00:32:14,656 --> 00:32:16,559
I know, but I fucking
couldn't handle it.
510
00:32:17,310 --> 00:32:19,940
I... I lost my temper,
and I yelled at her.
511
00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:30,487
I haven't had a drink in 24 hours.
512
00:32:30,573 --> 00:32:33,833
I was trying to be straight
for Maddy, and, uh...
513
00:32:37,997 --> 00:32:39,327
I'm irritable.
514
00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:42,086
My skin fucking crawls.
515
00:32:43,419 --> 00:32:44,589
The sun hurts.
516
00:32:45,088 --> 00:32:46,548
I'm just rubbed raw.
517
00:32:49,717 --> 00:32:51,270
I was pushing Maddy on the swings.
518
00:32:51,271 --> 00:32:53,637
She kept saying,
"Higher, Daddy, higher."
519
00:32:56,015 --> 00:32:57,225
And it was nice.
520
00:32:58,768 --> 00:32:59,978
She was giggling.
521
00:33:01,896 --> 00:33:04,516
But even then, I was still
planning my next fucking drink.
522
00:33:04,607 --> 00:33:08,187
I was trying to find some... relief.
523
00:33:08,903 --> 00:33:12,623
And she had the tantrum, and I
knew that if Paula wasn't there,
524
00:33:12,699 --> 00:33:15,199
I'd have found a drink
with Maddy in tow.
525
00:33:18,913 --> 00:33:20,423
Just like my fucking mom.
526
00:33:26,254 --> 00:33:28,094
I don't wanna do that to Maddy.
527
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:34,970
I'm signing over full custody to you.
528
00:33:37,223 --> 00:33:38,643
I just called my lawyer.
529
00:33:46,607 --> 00:33:48,567
Sorry I'm such a piece of shit.
530
00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:53,236
You're doing right by her.
531
00:33:56,576 --> 00:33:58,470
You can come whenever you want,
532
00:33:58,471 --> 00:34:00,246
and get her stuff.
I'll box it up for you.
533
00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:05,042
Thanks.
534
00:34:18,222 --> 00:34:20,482
Do I have the DTs, or are you sparkly?
535
00:34:24,729 --> 00:34:25,729
I'm sparkly.
536
00:34:49,962 --> 00:34:52,222
Nice. Thanks for sharing.
537
00:34:57,762 --> 00:34:59,312
That was so awesome.
538
00:34:59,388 --> 00:35:02,178
"Fuck Murphy's Law." I like that line.
539
00:35:03,518 --> 00:35:06,688
"Punched him like a boxer."
That stood out to me.
540
00:35:06,771 --> 00:35:08,361
"The cracked nightlight."
541
00:35:09,357 --> 00:35:10,977
Black, not blue.
542
00:35:11,067 --> 00:35:12,897
I just loved the whole thing.
543
00:35:12,985 --> 00:35:15,355
You're a great writer, Edith.
544
00:35:15,446 --> 00:35:17,026
- Esther.
- Oh. Yeah.
545
00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,445
Well, I'm next, right?
546
00:35:19,534 --> 00:35:21,374
Mom, you didn't write anything.
547
00:35:21,452 --> 00:35:22,952
Well, I can recite it.
548
00:35:23,037 --> 00:35:25,707
I'm a great... I'm
just great at oration.
549
00:35:25,790 --> 00:35:26,790
Mother.
550
00:35:28,376 --> 00:35:29,376
Aww...
551
00:35:29,961 --> 00:35:31,631
Oh, well. Okay.
552
00:35:33,714 --> 00:35:36,514
- Will you wait outside? I'm almost done.
- Okay.
553
00:35:36,592 --> 00:35:39,142
- Bye, ladies.
- Bye.
554
00:35:39,220 --> 00:35:42,180
- Peace out.
- You're welcome back any time, Paula.
555
00:35:42,265 --> 00:35:43,765
Oh, thank you so much.
556
00:35:45,059 --> 00:35:46,389
Oh!
557
00:35:46,477 --> 00:35:47,477
Yeah.
558
00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:50,730
Oh, man.
559
00:35:51,274 --> 00:35:53,154
Here's to getting out of Dodge.
560
00:35:55,945 --> 00:35:58,065
My man Sean-y looked like shit.
561
00:36:00,825 --> 00:36:02,865
Your dad shook a lot like that.
562
00:36:06,831 --> 00:36:08,881
Do you want to tell
me your happiest day?
563
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:11,960
What?
564
00:36:12,753 --> 00:36:14,263
The thing we were doing in group.
565
00:36:14,922 --> 00:36:17,802
You have a day you remember
where you were happy?
566
00:36:18,759 --> 00:36:19,759
Oh.
567
00:36:21,971 --> 00:36:25,771
Hands down, our first morning in Alaska.
568
00:36:27,226 --> 00:36:29,436
We got into Anchorage in
the middle of the night,
569
00:36:29,520 --> 00:36:33,570
and you were freezing
because I forgot your coat.
570
00:36:35,109 --> 00:36:37,739
We left your dad's in such a panic.
571
00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:44,120
I had this cabin for us, and
it didn't have any furniture.
572
00:36:44,869 --> 00:36:46,079
So, uh...
573
00:36:47,079 --> 00:36:50,329
I just dumped all the
clothes from the suitcase
574
00:36:50,416 --> 00:36:53,376
in the middle of the
floor and made us a bed.
575
00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:56,672
And we slept there, snuggled up.
576
00:36:59,342 --> 00:37:02,762
The next morning, while
you were still sleeping,
577
00:37:02,845 --> 00:37:04,715
I tiptoed outside,
578
00:37:04,805 --> 00:37:07,015
and I just dove into the snow.
579
00:37:08,226 --> 00:37:09,386
And I lay there,
580
00:37:10,269 --> 00:37:13,149
and made a snow angel.
581
00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:16,281
Because nobody was there
to tell me I was crazy
582
00:37:17,360 --> 00:37:19,200
or suddenly explode on me.
583
00:37:19,946 --> 00:37:21,656
It was just me...
584
00:37:23,199 --> 00:37:24,779
the sun and the snow.
585
00:37:29,664 --> 00:37:33,004
Anyway, in less than a
year, we were back here,
586
00:37:33,084 --> 00:37:35,424
and I was broke as shit.
587
00:37:35,503 --> 00:37:38,173
The whole trip was just dumb.
588
00:37:39,173 --> 00:37:40,173
No, it wasn't.
589
00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:41,548
It wasn't dumb.
590
00:37:42,260 --> 00:37:45,010
You got me away from Dad, and
you never went back to him.
591
00:38:01,529 --> 00:38:02,529
Uh...
592
00:38:03,864 --> 00:38:04,864
So, uh...
593
00:38:09,453 --> 00:38:11,543
So am I still invited to Montana?
594
00:38:13,249 --> 00:38:14,289
You want to come?
595
00:38:15,918 --> 00:38:16,918
Yeah.
596
00:38:19,714 --> 00:38:21,514
Hell yeah, why not?
597
00:38:22,133 --> 00:38:25,973
I can get a job painting murals,
598
00:38:26,595 --> 00:38:28,505
find me a mountain man.
599
00:38:30,433 --> 00:38:31,933
Plus, Maddy needs me.
600
00:38:32,018 --> 00:38:33,848
She's an artist like me.
601
00:38:33,936 --> 00:38:35,976
Can you be ready by Monday?
602
00:38:36,814 --> 00:38:38,944
I'm ready.
603
00:38:39,025 --> 00:38:40,525
I'm packed, baby.
604
00:38:40,609 --> 00:38:43,399
That's the nice thing about
living in your car, you're packed.
605
00:38:43,487 --> 00:38:45,737
I don't know if she's
going to make it to Montana,
606
00:38:45,823 --> 00:38:48,083
I might have to sell her for parts...
607
00:38:49,952 --> 00:38:52,332
but I could hitch a ride with you, yeah?
608
00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:54,331
Yeah.
609
00:38:54,332 --> 00:38:55,832
- Yeah?
- Yes.
610
00:38:55,916 --> 00:38:57,496
- Really?
- Of course.
611
00:38:57,585 --> 00:38:59,455
Oh, my gosh. Yes?
612
00:39:00,504 --> 00:39:01,504
Maddy!
613
00:39:01,547 --> 00:39:03,217
Maddy girl, guess what.
614
00:39:03,299 --> 00:39:05,299
We're going on a road trip!
615
00:39:05,801 --> 00:39:08,221
Do you want to go on a
road trip with Grammy?
616
00:39:08,804 --> 00:39:10,564
We're going to go on a road trip!
617
00:39:10,639 --> 00:39:14,309
Oh, my goodness, we're
going to go on a road trip!
618
00:40:25,172 --> 00:40:26,632
- Is that it?
- That's it.
619
00:40:38,894 --> 00:40:41,024
You can come see her
as much as you want.
620
00:40:43,023 --> 00:40:44,903
Yeah, I'm going to
get myself cleaned up.
621
00:40:48,863 --> 00:40:51,123
And then I'll come visit all the time.
622
00:41:00,666 --> 00:41:02,416
I'm really going to miss her.
623
00:41:25,441 --> 00:41:26,651
Good luck, Alaska.
624
00:42:01,227 --> 00:42:04,097
- Save the black ones.
- Yes...
625
00:42:04,188 --> 00:42:06,648
Yeah, and black ones are nice.
626
00:42:07,316 --> 00:42:08,316
Come on, Maddy.
627
00:42:35,469 --> 00:42:36,469
This way.
628
00:43:15,926 --> 00:43:17,046
All right, honey...
629
00:43:18,929 --> 00:43:20,059
I'll be right back.
630
00:43:28,939 --> 00:43:31,069
I didn't know you were
coming by. Come on in.
631
00:43:31,150 --> 00:43:32,900
I can't, I've got Maddy back there.
632
00:43:34,028 --> 00:43:35,898
I just wanted to come say goodbye.
633
00:43:36,488 --> 00:43:38,698
I also have been
meaning to give you this.
634
00:43:38,782 --> 00:43:43,162
I'm not sure if I stole it or
what happened, but I had it, so...
635
00:43:44,246 --> 00:43:46,916
I saw you had it on.
Thanksgiving, right?
636
00:43:46,999 --> 00:43:48,129
I'm really sorry.
637
00:43:48,208 --> 00:43:50,788
Nah, can't blame a girl for
putting on a little cashmere.
638
00:43:53,339 --> 00:43:55,759
- So next stop Montana?
- I'm, uh...
639
00:43:56,800 --> 00:44:00,300
going to pick my mom up in Port
Winslow and get on the I-90.
640
00:44:02,514 --> 00:44:05,984
- Thank you for being such a good friend.
- You too.
641
00:44:09,480 --> 00:44:10,611
Keep the sweater.
642
00:44:10,612 --> 00:44:13,190
No, no, I'm going to buy my own one day.
643
00:44:13,734 --> 00:44:15,574
It was $1400.
644
00:44:16,612 --> 00:44:17,612
I'm keeping it.
645
00:44:59,947 --> 00:45:01,777
- Mother?
- Oh!
646
00:45:02,408 --> 00:45:03,988
Hi. Hi, hi.
647
00:45:04,576 --> 00:45:05,576
Oh!
648
00:45:07,871 --> 00:45:10,331
Oh, honey, you must be so excited.
649
00:45:11,250 --> 00:45:13,890
You said you were
going to sell your car.
650
00:45:13,891 --> 00:45:14,960
I was. I mean...
651
00:45:15,045 --> 00:45:17,205
I am. But, baby, honey,
652
00:45:17,297 --> 00:45:21,087
I just have the most incredible news.
653
00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:24,971
What?
654
00:45:25,013 --> 00:45:28,023
Micah threw Alaina-May out.
655
00:45:28,100 --> 00:45:30,810
He threw that feral
bitch to the curb for me.
656
00:45:30,894 --> 00:45:34,234
And I slept in his bed
last night, in his arms.
657
00:45:34,314 --> 00:45:37,034
And I'm telling you, honey,
there's sex and then there's...
658
00:45:37,109 --> 00:45:39,739
Oh, my God, this was
on a whole new level.
659
00:45:39,820 --> 00:45:41,410
Even for me.
660
00:45:43,866 --> 00:45:45,276
Are you not coming?
661
00:45:45,909 --> 00:45:48,659
Sweetie, you know, just not right now.
662
00:45:48,745 --> 00:45:51,535
I mean, I... I can't
leave Micah right now,
663
00:45:51,623 --> 00:45:53,963
I mean, what's going on
between us, you know, baby,
664
00:45:54,042 --> 00:45:56,252
it's just so powerful and...
665
00:45:57,296 --> 00:45:58,296
It's just really...
666
00:46:00,048 --> 00:46:01,718
I can't wait on you, Mom.
667
00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:04,430
No, you're not. Of course
you're not going to wait on me.
668
00:46:04,511 --> 00:46:05,721
This is your moment.
669
00:46:05,804 --> 00:46:10,354
You go, baby doll, and I'll tell
you what, give me the address,
670
00:46:10,434 --> 00:46:13,064
and I'll be right behind.
671
00:46:13,145 --> 00:46:15,185
I just... I'll follow you, okay?
672
00:46:16,273 --> 00:46:19,153
- I don't want to leave you here.
- I know.
673
00:46:19,234 --> 00:46:21,114
Isn't it funny how
these things work out?
674
00:46:21,195 --> 00:46:24,195
I mean, as soon as I
told Micah I was leaving,
675
00:46:24,281 --> 00:46:26,371
he realized he had feelings for me.
676
00:46:26,450 --> 00:46:28,200
I mean, baby, it was, "Boom!"
677
00:46:28,285 --> 00:46:31,495
And he told Alaina-May
about me and everything.
678
00:46:33,123 --> 00:46:34,123
Just...
679
00:46:34,833 --> 00:46:36,133
be happy for me.
680
00:46:40,506 --> 00:46:41,666
I'm gonna go without you.
681
00:46:41,757 --> 00:46:44,217
Yes, you're going to go. Of
course you're going to go.
682
00:46:46,929 --> 00:46:49,849
Sweetheart, this is your
adventure. It's not mine.
683
00:46:54,895 --> 00:46:56,185
You going to be okay?
684
00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,110
- Come on, you know you love me.
- I do love you.
685
00:47:01,193 --> 00:47:04,228
I know you do. Give
me a really good hug.
686
00:47:04,229 --> 00:47:05,818
Okay.
687
00:47:05,906 --> 00:47:07,316
Oh, God.
688
00:47:07,407 --> 00:47:08,737
Oh, sweetie.
689
00:47:08,825 --> 00:47:11,115
- I love you, Mom.
- Yeah, I know, baby.
690
00:48:10,053 --> 00:48:13,103
Do you guys want to do a
round of snaps for everybody?
691
00:48:21,398 --> 00:48:24,278
I just want to thank you guys
so much for doing this with me.
692
00:48:25,027 --> 00:48:26,237
It's been a real honor.
693
00:48:27,779 --> 00:48:29,029
Thank you.
694
00:48:29,114 --> 00:48:30,624
Thank you, Alex.
695
00:48:30,699 --> 00:48:33,409
Wait, we didn't hear your happiest day.
696
00:48:39,666 --> 00:48:42,286
"My happiest day hasn't happened yet.
697
00:48:43,629 --> 00:48:45,299
But it's about to.
698
00:48:47,841 --> 00:48:52,141
On that day, I'm going to get in my car
699
00:48:52,220 --> 00:48:54,390
that smells like old tuna...
700
00:48:55,349 --> 00:48:58,059
which will be packed
with all of my belongings
701
00:48:58,143 --> 00:49:00,313
and my amazing daughter.
702
00:49:00,979 --> 00:49:04,979
And I'm going to drive
the fuck out of this town.
703
00:49:05,067 --> 00:49:07,607
I'm going to drive nine hours,
704
00:49:08,612 --> 00:49:13,832
566 miles to Missoula, Montana...
705
00:49:15,202 --> 00:49:18,502
where I'm going to spend
the next four years...
706
00:49:19,289 --> 00:49:21,039
learning to be a writer.
707
00:49:22,417 --> 00:49:26,507
Hopefully, there will be a lot
of happy days during that time.
708
00:49:28,173 --> 00:49:30,763
And I know there will be some hard ones.
709
00:49:33,637 --> 00:49:35,770
Most people would bet
against a single mom
710
00:49:35,771 --> 00:49:37,930
putting herself through college.
711
00:49:40,185 --> 00:49:42,395
But they don't know
what it took to get here.
712
00:49:45,357 --> 00:49:48,397
Three hundred and
thirty-eight toilets cleaned...
713
00:49:50,987 --> 00:49:53,407
seven types of government assistance...
714
00:49:55,075 --> 00:49:57,035
nine separate moves...
715
00:49:58,995 --> 00:50:01,325
one night on the ferry-station floor...
716
00:50:02,708 --> 00:50:06,838
and the entire third year
of my daughter's life.
717
00:50:09,005 --> 00:50:11,295
But, when we get to Missoula...
718
00:50:12,551 --> 00:50:14,851
I'm going to take Maddy
up Sentinel Mountain...
719
00:50:16,054 --> 00:50:19,524
which looks over the town,
and show her our new home.
720
00:50:23,478 --> 00:50:25,978
I've been telling her
all about the giant M
721
00:50:26,064 --> 00:50:27,904
that's at the tippy-top of the mountain.
722
00:50:33,989 --> 00:50:37,739
That the trail up there
is long and zig-zaggy.
723
00:50:41,204 --> 00:50:42,254
The hike will be hard.
724
00:50:44,958 --> 00:50:46,878
But we're going to make it to the top.
725
00:50:49,254 --> 00:50:50,594
And when we do...
726
00:50:52,799 --> 00:50:55,929
I'm going to tell her that
the M stands for 'Maddy.'
727
00:50:59,097 --> 00:51:01,557
That this whole new world is for her."
728
00:51:08,231 --> 00:51:13,491
Whoo!
729
00:51:24,000 --> 00:51:29,000
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