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Wes Keeler, 49,

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pricked in the upper right arm
by a cactus four days ago.

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Temp 102.5.

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Wound is seriously infected.

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He was leading a camping trip
on Mount Thayer.

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We couldn't leave 'em up there alone.

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BP's 86/51. Tachycardic.

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Rapid, shallow breathing.

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Signs of sepsis.

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You gonna have to cut his arm off?

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I'll be fine!

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We need to debride the wound stat!

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Shaun, I've been
looking all over for you.

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Hey, uh, h-how about
getting some breakfast?

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Some pancakes?

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No. I'm not hungry.

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Okay.

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Um... how about coming over
for dinner tonight?

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Is Debbie making lasagne?

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She could.

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No, thank you.

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Okay, Shaun.

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Um, can we just stop and...
and talk for just a minute?

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Why are... aren't you, uh,
responding to my texts?

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Are you upset?

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- Are you sad because of Lea?
- Yes. Yes.

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I am very sad.

28
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But it will be okay.

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Yeah, of course it'll be okay.

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I'm still going to be with Lea.

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Wait. What?

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She said she loves me.

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She also gave you a hundred reasons

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- why she can't be with you, Shaun.
- Yes. Yes.

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She gave me very specific reasons

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why we can't be together,

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but I've overcome other challenges...

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- No, Shaun, it's not...
- ...to become a good doctor,

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a good friend.

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It's not about overcoming challenges.

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It's not about you.

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It's about Lea.

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I can't take two steps
without falling down.

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Is the issue balance or weakness?

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All of the above.

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Fatigue, dizziness,
light-headedness, headaches,

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occasional bouts of nausea.

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And when d...

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Five years ago, just after
the birth of my daughter.

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And there's no discernible fluctuation

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based on time of day
or time of the month.

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Temp 98.2. BP 111/78.

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That'll drop to 80/50 when I'm upright.

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I don't drink, smoke, or take drugs.

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I haven't traveled outside of the country

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in the last 10 years.

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And there's no family history
of a similar condition.

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You've been through this before.

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17 times. 18 if you count
the naturopath in Seattle.

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Which I don't.

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No one has been able
to give me a diagnosis.

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We need to do an EKG and stress test,

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get a CT of your chest,
abdomen, and pelvis.

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Let me save you some time.

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Five years' worth of tests,
labs, scans, reports...

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...my entire medical odyssey.

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Fun.

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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
www.addic7ed.com

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Set up in the lounge

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and get me copies of each of those...

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Claire!

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Dash. Oh, my God!

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Why are you here?

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Uh, you changed your number.

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Right. Um, it's a long story.

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Uh, Dash, you remember
Dr. Melendez, Dr. Murphy?

77
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Yeah, of course.

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Uh, you gave my wife
six more good months.

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We considered renaming our cat after you.

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That would have been foolish.
Cats remember their names.

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Sorry for your loss.
Wish we could've done more.

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Let you two catch up.

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Hi.

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I think the infection spread quickly

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because of the underlying damage
to your liver and kidney.

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We'll need to keep you on a
prolonged course of IV antibiotics.

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Hey, you hear that, guys?

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Hep C and heroin aren't
as much fun as they sound.

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Although one was more fun
than the other...

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for a while.

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Don't they have somewhere else to go?

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Not likely.

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Most of them haven't seen
their parents in years,

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so they're with me...

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survivalist training program
for at-risk youth.

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We prefer "young adults
with unrealized potential."

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I'm supposed to be teaching
these yahoos responsibility

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and... good decision-making.

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Hell of an example.

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Oof.

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He's got a new murmur.

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BP's dropping.

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Wes, we need to take a look
at your heart.

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Wes, the infection's spread.

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It's damaged your aortic valve.

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You need emergency surgery.

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Mm...

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What about vasculitis?

109
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Or dysautonomia?

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Both are consistent
with weakness and fatigue.

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Her temporal artery biopsy was negative.

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- That rules out vasculitis.
- Mm.

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And I thought I saw something
about dysautonomia in here.

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There are 15 different causes
of dysautonomia.

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Seven have been ruled out.

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The rest are inconsistent
with Alice's symptoms

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or have no definitive diagnostic test.

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How did you make Dr. Lim
fall in love with you

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after you had been friends for so long?

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I assume that's directed at <i>you.</i>

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I don't think you <i>make</i> anyone
fall in love with you, Shaun.

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It unfolds naturally over time.

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That's not true.

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Everyone starts off <i>not</i> loving you.

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Then you say and do things
that make them love you.

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Or not. That's the point of romance.

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But romance is harder

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if you're already friends
with the person.

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You can't hide the less
attractive parts of yourself.

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It <i>can</i> be an advantage.

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You already know what pisses them off.

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That's very true.

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Shaun...

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did Carly tell you
she just wants to be friends?

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Or are you talking about someone else?

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Hey, sorry to interrupt.

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I'm... I'm looking for my dad. Mm.

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I just... I'm here visiting,
and I locked mys...

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Yes. Okay. Dr. Park is not here,

140
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and we're discussing something important.

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Right. Sorry.

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Kellan, your dad's in surgery.

143
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It could be a couple hours.

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Thanks.

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Shaun.

146
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That was a little harsh. We're
talking about your love life.

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Talking about my love life <i>is</i> important.

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It helps clear my head
so I can focus on the medicine.

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Intracranial hypotension.

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It is consistent with Alice's headaches

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and dizziness getting worse
when she's upright.

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And a leak in spinal fluid
can be triggered

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by severe intracranial pressure
during childbirth.

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To confirm I'm right,

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we need to insert a lumbar drain
into Alice's spine,

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infuse her with fluid,
and see if her symptoms improve.

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But if you're wrong, she'll have
an excruciating headache,

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massive brain pressure,
temporary vision loss...

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She'll give her consent.

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It's a reasonable diagnosis,

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and the patient's desperate
for an answer.

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Can you do the procedure alone?

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Only one doctor is needed
to insert a lumbar drain,

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and I have a time-sensitive
matter to take care of.

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Sure.

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You okay? You look okay.

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I'm fine.

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Your text said it was urgent, a...

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My text said it was "time sensitive."

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I have to get back to work
before my lunch break is over.

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I was at work, too, Shaun.

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I know we left things in a weird place,

173
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but now is not a good time.

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The pinto beans are next to the tomatoes.

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That is not in alphabetical order.

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There's more.

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The toilet paper
is in the wrong direction.

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The way you like it.

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You got angry when we were roommates

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because I sometimes couldn't
accept your way of doing things.

181
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But I <i>can</i> learn to accept things

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I'm not comfortable with.

183
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This is not bothering me at all.

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I can deal with your messiness
and neediness...

185
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and selfishness...

186
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Stop.

187
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Your way of proving

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that you're flexible
and attentive to my needs

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is to pull me away from work...
with no notice...

190
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make me drive all the way across town,

191
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just so you can show me
you un-alphabetized your beans?

192
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Doesn't that seem a little...

193
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inconsistent?

194
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Oh.

195
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That is a good point.

196
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I should have waited until evening,

197
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when you are done with work.

198
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We can discuss this later.

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I have to get back to the hospital.

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Resecting necrotic tissue
around the annulus.

201
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Dr. Reznick, trim down the patch
from the pericardium.

202
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The infection caused a fistula,
and we need to remove it.

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Repair the annular defect
with a pericardial patch.

204
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He's gonna have permanent heart damage.

205
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The guy survives IV drugs,
Hep C, hard time

206
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and gets taken down by a cactus spike

207
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on his road to redemption.

208
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That's... ironic.

209
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Predictable.

210
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He ignored dangerous symptoms

211
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because he wanted to be
a tough guy for those kids.

212
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He's trying to keep them
from repeating his mistakes.

213
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It's admirable.

214
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Narcissistic waste of time.

215
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You can't undo a lifetime of abandonment

216
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with a couple weeks in the woods.

217
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The kids are all still here, aren't they?

218
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Finish the closure of the fistula tract

219
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with pledgeted sutures.

220
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Park.

221
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I need you to come with me.

222
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Now?

223
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Go. We got this.

224
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Security agreed to let us
keep this between us.

225
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No need to call the cops.

226
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Everyone needs to chill.

227
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We weren't cooking meth in the dumpster.

228
00:10:55,917 --> 00:10:57,661
You have any idea

229
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how many people die from vaping pot?

230
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What were you thinking?

231
00:11:03,996 --> 00:11:05,815
We'll give you two some space.

232
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You. With me.

233
00:11:15,736 --> 00:11:18,849
You have asthma, Kellan.

234
00:11:18,873 --> 00:11:20,918
I know you're not this stupid.

235
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Heart rate's tachy at 148.
Systolic's in the 200s.

236
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I removed the drain a half-hour ago.

237
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I was wrong. My idea made things worse.

238
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We need to do a lumbar puncture
to relieve the built-up fluid.

239
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But it didn't make her worse

240
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the way it should have made her worse.

241
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She should have a headache
or upward brain herniation.

242
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Heart rate should be low.

243
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Something is causing her heart
to beat too hard, too fast.

244
00:11:49,126 --> 00:11:50,725
Mm. I missed something...

245
00:11:50,750 --> 00:11:51,983
Shaun, you need to give her

246
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a 10-milligram bolus of labetalol now,

247
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or she is going to die.

248
00:11:54,917 --> 00:11:56,341
I missed something.

249
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Shaun!

250
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Mommy?

251
00:12:01,512 --> 00:12:02,911
Alice?

252
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There was significant tissue
damage from the infection,

253
00:12:09,058 --> 00:12:10,808
but it should be manageable
with medication

254
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and some modifications to your diet.

255
00:12:14,484 --> 00:12:17,339
So... no more Flamin' Hot Cheetos?

256
00:12:17,363 --> 00:12:20,515
That's not a thing any
self-respecting adult should eat.

257
00:12:21,499 --> 00:12:23,812
You'll need long-term follow-up
with a cardiologist,

258
00:12:23,836 --> 00:12:26,312
beta-blockers, ACE inhibitors...

259
00:12:28,979 --> 00:12:30,012
What'd you do?

260
00:12:31,643 --> 00:12:35,403
Mr. Reed was found vaping THC
on hospital grounds.

261
00:12:35,427 --> 00:12:38,195
I'm emancipated,
so I'm basically an adult.

262
00:12:38,220 --> 00:12:39,664
You're only emancipated

263
00:12:39,688 --> 00:12:43,026
'cause your parents do
even dumber stuff than <i>you</i> do.

264
00:12:43,050 --> 00:12:44,969
Thanks for letting me know.

265
00:12:44,993 --> 00:12:47,038
There'll be consequences
for his behavior.

266
00:12:47,062 --> 00:12:48,973
Starting with an apology.

267
00:12:48,997 --> 00:12:50,708
And not some smartass one, either.

268
00:12:50,732 --> 00:12:53,311
Uh, Mr. Keeler, your hand is swollen.

269
00:12:53,335 --> 00:12:54,966
I need to take a look at your feet.

270
00:12:56,103 --> 00:12:57,281
Less than a hundred milliliters.

271
00:12:57,305 --> 00:12:58,616
What's wrong with his piss?

272
00:12:58,640 --> 00:12:59,817
Max.

273
00:12:59,841 --> 00:13:01,352
What's going on?

274
00:13:01,376 --> 00:13:03,454
We're gonna need to run
some additional tests.

275
00:13:03,478 --> 00:13:06,624
We've done a lumbar puncture
to remove the excess fluid

276
00:13:06,648 --> 00:13:08,359
and bring your spinal pressure
back to normal.

277
00:13:08,383 --> 00:13:09,983
When will she be able to go home?

278
00:13:10,612 --> 00:13:12,645
I'm not going home.

279
00:13:15,422 --> 00:13:18,135
Honey, their test just about killed you.

280
00:13:18,159 --> 00:13:20,104
In front of your daughter.

281
00:13:20,128 --> 00:13:22,340
She wasn't supposed to be here.

282
00:13:22,364 --> 00:13:25,398
That's because you told me
you were visiting your sister.

283
00:13:26,867 --> 00:13:29,168
Since when do we
lie to each other, Alice?

284
00:13:34,208 --> 00:13:36,654
You have to stop doing this to yourself.

285
00:13:36,678 --> 00:13:38,689
They're only gonna confirm
the same diagnosis

286
00:13:38,713 --> 00:13:40,345
you've already been given.

287
00:13:41,401 --> 00:13:43,536
You said you don't have a diagnosis.

288
00:13:47,789 --> 00:13:50,067
They told her
she has idiopathic dysautonomia

289
00:13:50,091 --> 00:13:51,836
six months ago.

290
00:13:51,860 --> 00:13:54,205
It was confirmed by two other doctors.

291
00:13:54,229 --> 00:13:55,773
You left it out of your medical records?

292
00:13:55,797 --> 00:13:57,308
"Idiopathic" is just a doctor's fancy way

293
00:13:57,332 --> 00:13:59,477
of saying that they don't know
why I'm sick or how to fix it.

294
00:13:59,501 --> 00:14:01,712
You haven't
given the treatments a chance.

295
00:14:01,736 --> 00:14:05,316
Because even on them, I can
barely sit up most of the time.

296
00:14:08,176 --> 00:14:09,587
Ruby deserves a mother

297
00:14:09,611 --> 00:14:12,210
who can teach her
how to do a cartwheel...

298
00:14:13,447 --> 00:14:15,493
...and scoop her up
when she's having a nightmare.

299
00:14:15,517 --> 00:14:17,595
She deserves a mother who's around.

300
00:14:25,560 --> 00:14:26,837
Ruby...

301
00:14:28,830 --> 00:14:31,551
...doesn't need to learn
how to do a cartwheel.

302
00:14:31,575 --> 00:14:34,278
She needs you to watch her, cheer her on.

303
00:14:34,302 --> 00:14:37,915
And lay down next to her
when she's scared.

304
00:14:37,939 --> 00:14:41,152
And eat the cookies she bakes
and pretend to be enjoying them.

305
00:14:43,678 --> 00:14:46,090
You're a great mother.

306
00:14:46,114 --> 00:14:47,704
And...

307
00:14:48,683 --> 00:14:52,029
there's good in the life we have.

308
00:14:52,053 --> 00:14:53,668
And you're missing it

309
00:14:54,122 --> 00:14:56,534
by constantly searching
for something better.

310
00:14:56,558 --> 00:14:58,336
Something that may not exist.

311
00:15:07,035 --> 00:15:09,080
Are you feeling overheated?

312
00:15:10,605 --> 00:15:11,804
No.

313
00:15:14,441 --> 00:15:15,648
Scared?

314
00:15:16,810 --> 00:15:19,423
No, I'm feeling sad that my
husband thinks there's no hope.

315
00:15:19,447 --> 00:15:20,725
You are sweating.

316
00:15:20,749 --> 00:15:23,694
Sweat is a response to fear, not sadness.

317
00:15:24,986 --> 00:15:27,387
Your temperature is normal.

318
00:15:29,123 --> 00:15:32,248
You may have an adrenal tumor.

319
00:15:33,227 --> 00:15:34,805
- Is that good?
- Yes.

320
00:15:34,829 --> 00:15:36,796
Tumors can be removed.

321
00:15:49,344 --> 00:15:50,554
I'm not mad.

322
00:15:51,793 --> 00:15:52,957
I'm a <i>little</i> mad.

323
00:15:52,981 --> 00:15:55,159
But I want to understand what's going on.

324
00:15:55,183 --> 00:15:56,327
Dad, not now.

325
00:15:56,351 --> 00:15:58,362
I mean, it's not like you
to be this reckless

326
00:15:58,386 --> 00:16:00,464
with your health, your future.

327
00:16:01,856 --> 00:16:03,154
I can't...

328
00:16:04,224 --> 00:16:05,836
Kel, are you having an asthma attack?

329
00:16:05,860 --> 00:16:06,837
Where's your inhaler?

330
00:16:06,861 --> 00:16:08,272
I don't... It's...

331
00:16:08,296 --> 00:16:09,807
It's not the asthma.

332
00:16:09,831 --> 00:16:10,708
What is it?

333
00:16:12,434 --> 00:16:13,677
Tell me what you're feeling.

334
00:16:13,701 --> 00:16:15,835
My heart's... beating fast.

335
00:16:17,939 --> 00:16:19,150
Do you feel dizzy?

336
00:16:19,174 --> 00:16:21,719
Like the walls are closing in?

337
00:16:21,743 --> 00:16:24,355
I think you're having a panic attack.

338
00:16:24,379 --> 00:16:25,423
Take a deep breath.

339
00:16:25,447 --> 00:16:28,392
1, 2, 3...

340
00:16:28,416 --> 00:16:30,550
Now out.

341
00:16:31,585 --> 00:16:33,431
Keep breathing.

342
00:16:38,692 --> 00:16:40,004
Good.

343
00:16:42,864 --> 00:16:45,009
Does this happen a lot?

344
00:16:50,038 --> 00:16:53,217
I know vaping is stupid, but...

345
00:16:56,911 --> 00:16:58,689
It helps this feeling go away.

346
00:17:06,780 --> 00:17:08,599
Hey, give it back, asshat!

347
00:17:08,623 --> 00:17:09,800
Victor, Max!

348
00:17:09,824 --> 00:17:11,128
Cut it out.

349
00:17:11,152 --> 00:17:12,369
Mr. Keeler.

350
00:17:12,393 --> 00:17:14,605
We have some test results
we need to discuss.

351
00:17:14,629 --> 00:17:16,107
In private.

352
00:17:16,131 --> 00:17:18,142
Whatever you have to say to him,
you can say to <i>us.</i>

353
00:17:18,166 --> 00:17:19,543
Oh, wish you could.

354
00:17:19,567 --> 00:17:21,612
Would love your input.

355
00:17:21,636 --> 00:17:24,315
But, clearly,
you're far too busy watching...

356
00:17:24,339 --> 00:17:26,405
pimple-popping videos.

357
00:17:28,182 --> 00:17:29,382
Go away.

358
00:17:40,821 --> 00:17:42,166
The damage to your heart

359
00:17:42,190 --> 00:17:44,702
temporarily cut off blood flow
to your kidneys.

360
00:17:44,726 --> 00:17:47,860
They were already weak
and couldn't handle the stress.

361
00:17:48,862 --> 00:17:51,175
You've progressed
to complete renal failure.

362
00:17:51,199 --> 00:17:52,610
I'm sorry.

363
00:17:52,634 --> 00:17:54,278
You'll need a transplant.

364
00:17:54,302 --> 00:17:57,770
But dialysis can keep you going
until a matching donor is found.

365
00:17:59,106 --> 00:18:02,453
I'm guessing a guy with a bad heart

366
00:18:02,477 --> 00:18:06,279
and damaged liver, history of hepatitis

367
00:18:06,714 --> 00:18:08,247
isn't first up.

368
00:18:09,750 --> 00:18:12,614
Your best bet
is to find a living donor...

369
00:18:12,638 --> 00:18:14,331
most likely, a family member.

370
00:18:15,490 --> 00:18:17,330
I'm an addict...

371
00:18:18,293 --> 00:18:22,001
who stole and lied like one
and then went to prison.

372
00:18:23,002 --> 00:18:25,598
My Christmas card list is pretty short.

373
00:18:27,100 --> 00:18:29,480
We'll connect you with
our transplant coordinator.

374
00:18:29,504 --> 00:18:31,482
She'll help you reach out to family

375
00:18:31,506 --> 00:18:33,651
and answer any questions they may have.

376
00:18:37,178 --> 00:18:39,810
Should've taken those twerps sailing.

377
00:18:49,189 --> 00:18:51,824
Her husband's not wrong, Shaun.

378
00:18:52,156 --> 00:18:54,004
Sometimes, people need to accept

379
00:18:54,028 --> 00:18:55,906
that things are
as good as they're gonna get

380
00:18:55,930 --> 00:18:57,745
and make peace with it.

381
00:18:58,399 --> 00:19:03,280
Wanting more can only lead to
disappointment and heartbreak.

382
00:19:08,309 --> 00:19:10,688
What good does it do to give up

383
00:19:10,712 --> 00:19:13,970
if you're already heartbroken?

384
00:19:20,476 --> 00:19:21,532
Hmm.

385
00:19:21,556 --> 00:19:23,734
You were right. No tumor.

386
00:19:26,828 --> 00:19:28,872
Well, you were also right.

387
00:19:31,332 --> 00:19:32,509
The bright color.

388
00:19:32,533 --> 00:19:34,778
It means there is an increase
in the uptake

389
00:19:34,802 --> 00:19:37,214
of radioactive material
in the medullary space.

390
00:19:37,238 --> 00:19:39,950
Which is enlarged
and overproducing adrenaline,

391
00:19:39,974 --> 00:19:42,519
so the gland itself
is acting like a tumor.

392
00:19:44,512 --> 00:19:47,211
We have a new diagnosis.

393
00:19:54,588 --> 00:19:56,856
The quiet is a nice change of pace.

394
00:19:58,025 --> 00:19:59,903
I told the boys to get some air,

395
00:19:59,927 --> 00:20:02,439
try to avoid committing
more criminal offenses

396
00:20:02,463 --> 00:20:03,929
on hospital grounds.

397
00:20:05,699 --> 00:20:08,007
I know they can be annoying and loud

398
00:20:08,031 --> 00:20:09,413
and constantly in the way,

399
00:20:09,437 --> 00:20:11,915
but I can't make them leave.

400
00:20:11,939 --> 00:20:13,250
Want <i>me to give it a shot?</i>

401
00:20:14,275 --> 00:20:15,653
I'd like to see that, actually.

402
00:20:16,911 --> 00:20:18,922
Nah, they just scared.

403
00:20:18,946 --> 00:20:22,026
They think if they leave, then...

404
00:20:22,050 --> 00:20:24,028
I'll be the latest
in a long line of people

405
00:20:24,052 --> 00:20:26,118
they didn't have a chance
to say goodbye to.

406
00:20:28,955 --> 00:20:30,367
Wes?

407
00:20:31,459 --> 00:20:32,636
Code blue!

408
00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:42,166
You do not have idiopathic dysautonomia.

409
00:20:42,191 --> 00:20:43,357
You have a rare condition

410
00:20:43,382 --> 00:20:45,582
called bilateral adrenal
medullary hyperplasia.

411
00:20:45,607 --> 00:20:46,869
Unfortunately, Alice,

412
00:20:46,894 --> 00:20:49,072
there's only one cure for this condition,

413
00:20:49,096 --> 00:20:50,840
and that's to remove your adrenal glands.

414
00:20:50,864 --> 00:20:52,976
You would need to be
on steroid replacement therapy

415
00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:54,211
for the rest of your life.

416
00:20:54,235 --> 00:20:56,179
And that comes with
a whole new set of symptoms.

417
00:20:56,203 --> 00:20:58,114
Fragile bones, high blood pressure,

418
00:20:58,138 --> 00:21:00,096
G.I. issues, mood disorders,

419
00:21:00,120 --> 00:21:03,008
increased chance of diabetes,
serious infections.

420
00:21:04,043 --> 00:21:06,389
I-I understand. I want to do it.

421
00:21:06,413 --> 00:21:09,960
Medullary hyperplasia
is not terminal or progressive.

422
00:21:09,984 --> 00:21:12,696
You could have a normal life expectancy

423
00:21:12,720 --> 00:21:13,897
in your current condition.

424
00:21:13,921 --> 00:21:16,099
My "current condition" is pathetic.

425
00:21:16,123 --> 00:21:17,500
I'm having the surgery.

426
00:21:17,524 --> 00:21:18,802
Alice.

427
00:21:18,826 --> 00:21:20,604
This could kill you.

428
00:21:23,931 --> 00:21:25,434
I love you.

429
00:21:26,227 --> 00:21:28,267
I won't risk your life.

430
00:21:30,937 --> 00:21:33,605
If you insist on
going through with this...

431
00:21:36,442 --> 00:21:38,288
...Ruby and I are leaving.

432
00:21:44,785 --> 00:21:48,765
If you love her, you shouldn't leave her.

433
00:21:48,789 --> 00:21:50,967
It's not her fault she's sick.

434
00:21:50,991 --> 00:21:53,370
And she just wants to make things better.

435
00:21:53,394 --> 00:21:54,878
- It isn't fair.
- Shaun.

436
00:21:54,902 --> 00:21:57,774
There is nothing worse
than losing the person you love.

437
00:21:59,199 --> 00:22:01,811
I'm sorry. This isn't Dr. Murphy's call.

438
00:22:01,835 --> 00:22:03,464
Nor is it mine.

439
00:22:03,488 --> 00:22:05,099
We'll give you two some time.

440
00:22:10,511 --> 00:22:12,010
He's right.

441
00:22:14,113 --> 00:22:16,860
I-I can't lose you and Ruby.

442
00:22:16,884 --> 00:22:19,129
I won't do it. I won't...
I won't do the surgery.

443
00:22:30,009 --> 00:22:32,243
Wes suffered major cardiac damage.

444
00:22:32,668 --> 00:22:34,377
We can't solve one problem with this guy

445
00:22:34,401 --> 00:22:35,912
before the next one hits.

446
00:22:35,936 --> 00:22:38,415
He's stable now,
but his heart can't handle

447
00:22:38,439 --> 00:22:40,417
the fluid volume shifts
of standard dialysis.

448
00:22:40,441 --> 00:22:42,752
So the only thing keeping
him alive will also kill him.

449
00:22:42,776 --> 00:22:44,487
We could put him on low-flow dialysis.

450
00:22:44,511 --> 00:22:46,089
Keep him in the ICU 'round the clock.

451
00:22:46,113 --> 00:22:47,620
That'll buy him a little time.

452
00:22:47,644 --> 00:22:49,259
Very little.

453
00:22:49,283 --> 00:22:51,628
Call UNOS. See if
they'll move him up the list.

454
00:22:51,652 --> 00:22:52,962
Where are we with family members?

455
00:22:52,986 --> 00:22:54,764
Two of Wes' cousins agreed to be tested.

456
00:22:54,788 --> 00:22:56,533
- We're waiting on the results.
- Good.

457
00:22:56,557 --> 00:22:59,069
Get on the phone with
any other family you can find.

458
00:22:59,093 --> 00:23:01,838
Tell them if their man doesn't get
a kidney in the next couple days,

459
00:23:01,862 --> 00:23:04,507
they should make arrangements
to say their goodbyes.

460
00:23:17,777 --> 00:23:19,952
New kicks won't help you outrun me.

461
00:23:21,582 --> 00:23:24,761
Um... they're recipes.

462
00:23:24,785 --> 00:23:25,862
From Dash.

463
00:23:25,886 --> 00:23:27,831
Well, from Kayla.

464
00:23:27,855 --> 00:23:29,733
Kayla by way of Dash.

465
00:23:29,757 --> 00:23:30,934
It's complicated.

466
00:23:35,895 --> 00:23:37,863
He asked me on a date.

467
00:23:46,439 --> 00:23:47,650
What did you say?

468
00:23:47,674 --> 00:23:50,153
Nothing. I stammered, and then I fled.

469
00:23:56,382 --> 00:23:57,727
What did you <i>want</i> to say?

470
00:23:57,751 --> 00:24:00,029
Ohhh. I don't know.

471
00:24:03,924 --> 00:24:05,719
Shaun was right.

472
00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:09,439
Coming home to
an empty apartment really sucks.

473
00:24:13,066 --> 00:24:14,687
I...

474
00:24:15,102 --> 00:24:17,747
used men to make me feel better.

475
00:24:17,771 --> 00:24:19,949
Most of them didn't mind.

476
00:24:19,973 --> 00:24:21,318
But...

477
00:24:21,775 --> 00:24:23,153
I...

478
00:24:24,411 --> 00:24:27,891
don't trust myself not to hurt
someone I care about.

479
00:24:32,419 --> 00:24:35,454
Claire, it's not that complicated.

480
00:24:36,489 --> 00:24:39,658
You lit up this morning when you saw him.

481
00:24:40,927 --> 00:24:43,239
He seems to make you happy.

482
00:24:46,600 --> 00:24:48,545
You deserve to be happy.

483
00:25:08,421 --> 00:25:09,454
Mmm.

484
00:25:11,491 --> 00:25:13,158
How you feeling?

485
00:25:14,494 --> 00:25:16,539
I'm not high,
if that's what you're asking.

486
00:25:16,563 --> 00:25:17,762
It's not.

487
00:25:20,032 --> 00:25:23,079
You know, earlier in the car,

488
00:25:23,103 --> 00:25:25,437
I pushed too hard,

489
00:25:25,925 --> 00:25:28,177
made you feel cornered.

490
00:25:28,467 --> 00:25:29,633
I'm sorry.

491
00:25:31,210 --> 00:25:32,806
You didn't know.

492
00:25:36,582 --> 00:25:37,916
I, uh...

493
00:25:38,437 --> 00:25:40,151
I talked to your mom.

494
00:25:41,187 --> 00:25:42,899
Is she totally freaking out?

495
00:25:42,923 --> 00:25:44,133
She's concerned.

496
00:25:44,157 --> 00:25:48,571
And we talked about
finding a therapist in Phoenix

497
00:25:48,595 --> 00:25:52,993
who specializes in treating anxiety.

498
00:25:53,333 --> 00:25:56,346
So you're pawning me off
on a total stranger?

499
00:25:56,370 --> 00:25:58,403
No. No. I...

500
00:26:00,806 --> 00:26:02,685
I thought you'd be more comfortable

501
00:26:02,709 --> 00:26:05,021
talking to someone who's not...

502
00:26:05,045 --> 00:26:09,347
She said you've been
pretty withdrawn lately.

503
00:26:13,386 --> 00:26:17,267
I know things between
your mom and I are a little...

504
00:26:17,291 --> 00:26:18,301
Screwed up?

505
00:26:21,995 --> 00:26:23,524
Unsettled.

506
00:26:24,197 --> 00:26:26,368
Is that making you feel anxious?

507
00:26:26,392 --> 00:26:27,945
No.

508
00:26:28,735 --> 00:26:30,068
It's not you.

509
00:26:32,271 --> 00:26:33,917
It's nothing. It's... It's okay.

510
00:26:33,941 --> 00:26:35,919
No, it's obviously not.

511
00:26:37,578 --> 00:26:39,856
Some of this is on <i>you.</i>

512
00:26:39,880 --> 00:26:41,658
You know, every time we talk,

513
00:26:41,682 --> 00:26:43,760
you don't tell me anything
about your life.

514
00:26:43,784 --> 00:26:45,261
That's because you don't want
to know anything.

515
00:26:45,285 --> 00:26:46,663
That's not true!

516
00:26:48,722 --> 00:26:51,590
You're busy saving patients
a hundred hours a week.

517
00:26:52,925 --> 00:26:55,405
You don't want to feel guilty
about being a thousand miles away.

518
00:26:55,429 --> 00:26:58,392
You just want to know that I'm okay.

519
00:26:58,699 --> 00:27:00,510
So I say I'm okay.

520
00:27:10,042 --> 00:27:12,288
Ewwww!

521
00:27:12,312 --> 00:27:13,699
That's annoying.

522
00:27:14,914 --> 00:27:16,559
Can you do that some place else?

523
00:27:16,583 --> 00:27:20,161
I'm trying to find a better
solution for my patient.

524
00:27:20,185 --> 00:27:21,965
Your patient is being discharged.

525
00:27:21,989 --> 00:27:23,900
I'm trying to get a kidney
for a dying guy.

526
00:27:23,924 --> 00:27:25,568
You're watching gross videos.

527
00:27:25,592 --> 00:27:27,755
I'm waiting to hear back from UNOS.

528
00:27:29,095 --> 00:27:30,528
Ewww!

529
00:27:35,735 --> 00:27:38,047
Do you prefer being called or texted?

530
00:27:38,071 --> 00:27:39,616
Neither.

531
00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:42,785
Do you like surprises
or do you find them irritating?

532
00:27:42,809 --> 00:27:44,854
I find <i>this</i> irritating.

533
00:27:44,878 --> 00:27:45,955
It's research.

534
00:27:45,979 --> 00:27:47,657
Lea said we can't be together

535
00:27:47,681 --> 00:27:49,359
because she is too needy and selfish

536
00:27:49,383 --> 00:27:50,460
to deal with my issues.

537
00:27:50,484 --> 00:27:52,161
You are the most selfish person I know,

538
00:27:52,185 --> 00:27:54,564
so you are a good subject.

539
00:27:58,958 --> 00:28:01,838
Lea's right. She <i>is</i> needy and selfish.

540
00:28:01,862 --> 00:28:04,173
Find someone who loves you
the way you are.

541
00:28:05,866 --> 00:28:09,379
People always say that,
but shouldn't we be with someone

542
00:28:09,403 --> 00:28:12,148
who makes us
a better version of ourselves?

543
00:28:16,743 --> 00:28:17,787
Maybe.

544
00:28:20,213 --> 00:28:22,992
But trying not to be autistic
won't make you better.

545
00:28:38,899 --> 00:28:41,310
I'm sorry you still don't
feel good, Mommy.

546
00:28:41,334 --> 00:28:43,212
Well, I'll feel better when I'm home.

547
00:28:43,236 --> 00:28:45,715
Eating those delicious cookies
that you make for me.

548
00:28:45,739 --> 00:28:48,001
You don't have to go home.

549
00:28:48,475 --> 00:28:50,420
I invented a better surgery.

550
00:28:50,444 --> 00:28:52,989
Instead of removing
both your adrenal glands,

551
00:28:53,013 --> 00:28:56,392
we can just squeeze out the
hyperplastic medullary part...

552
00:28:56,416 --> 00:28:58,220
like popping a pimple.

553
00:28:59,051 --> 00:29:00,863
You "invented" a surgery?

554
00:29:00,887 --> 00:29:02,665
Dr. Murphy's come up with a surgical plan

555
00:29:02,689 --> 00:29:05,168
that could curb overproduction
of your hormones

556
00:29:05,192 --> 00:29:06,869
while leaving you some adrenal function.

557
00:29:06,893 --> 00:29:08,304
What are the chances it'll work?

558
00:29:08,328 --> 00:29:10,473
Oh, we don't know.

559
00:29:10,497 --> 00:29:11,941
Since it's never been done before,

560
00:29:11,965 --> 00:29:13,476
it's difficult to predict the outcome,

561
00:29:13,500 --> 00:29:16,579
but it is a safe
and viable treatment option.

562
00:29:31,284 --> 00:29:33,184
Is Wes dying?

563
00:29:41,927 --> 00:29:44,006
We're doing everything we can
to help him.

564
00:29:44,030 --> 00:29:46,409
I snuck a look at his chart
when no one was around.

565
00:29:46,433 --> 00:29:48,177
You know that's a crime, right?

566
00:29:48,201 --> 00:29:49,367
Only a misdemeanor.

567
00:29:52,772 --> 00:29:54,217
You should talk to Wes.

568
00:29:59,246 --> 00:30:00,945
We all got tested.

569
00:30:02,448 --> 00:30:03,581
I'm a match.

570
00:30:05,451 --> 00:30:07,327
I'm gonna give Wes my kidney.

571
00:30:18,650 --> 00:30:20,996
We've discussed your offer
at length, Max.

572
00:30:21,020 --> 00:30:25,401
It's incredibly admirable and generous.

573
00:30:25,425 --> 00:30:26,669
But you're 16.

574
00:30:26,693 --> 00:30:29,572
Living donors have to be 18 years old.

575
00:30:29,596 --> 00:30:31,173
I'm emancipated.

576
00:30:31,197 --> 00:30:32,975
I can give consent for myself.

577
00:30:32,999 --> 00:30:34,743
But it's still up to the hospital

578
00:30:34,767 --> 00:30:36,512
to decide if this is a good idea.

579
00:30:36,536 --> 00:30:39,821
We don't feel this is
in your best interest.

580
00:30:41,240 --> 00:30:42,918
Max.

581
00:30:42,942 --> 00:30:46,689
The surgery's much harder
on the donor than the recipient.

582
00:30:46,713 --> 00:30:49,325
You could have postoperative
bleeding or infection.

583
00:30:49,349 --> 00:30:50,993
And it's incredibly painful.

584
00:30:51,017 --> 00:30:53,729
I've been through more crap
than any of you.

585
00:30:53,753 --> 00:30:54,864
I can handle it.

586
00:30:54,888 --> 00:30:56,832
There are also long-term consequences...

587
00:30:56,856 --> 00:30:58,534
high blood pressure, renal failure.

588
00:30:58,558 --> 00:31:00,870
If something happens to your
other kidney, you don't have a spare.

589
00:31:00,894 --> 00:31:02,404
I know how to subtract.

590
00:31:02,428 --> 00:31:03,506
I'm cool with it.

591
00:31:03,530 --> 00:31:05,341
And the recovery is long and hard.

592
00:31:05,365 --> 00:31:08,177
You would need someone to
help you get dressed and bathe

593
00:31:08,201 --> 00:31:10,179
and make sure you take
all your medications.

594
00:31:10,203 --> 00:31:13,438
I've been taking care of myself
just fine for a long time.

595
00:31:16,576 --> 00:31:18,754
Actually, Max...

596
00:31:18,778 --> 00:31:22,124
you've been in juvie and on drugs.

597
00:31:22,148 --> 00:31:24,660
You're not taking care of yourself.

598
00:31:28,021 --> 00:31:29,621
Okay, I get it.

599
00:31:30,576 --> 00:31:32,509
I'm a screw-up.

600
00:31:32,711 --> 00:31:34,611
But Wes isn't.

601
00:31:34,727 --> 00:31:38,173
He's bailed me out of jail.

602
00:31:38,197 --> 00:31:39,842
He's picked me up
in the middle of the night

603
00:31:39,866 --> 00:31:41,844
when I was too messed up to drive.

604
00:31:41,868 --> 00:31:44,179
He's cleaned me up after fights.

605
00:31:46,706 --> 00:31:50,642
He came with me to my sister's funeral.

606
00:31:51,444 --> 00:31:54,256
If I manage to stay out of jail,

607
00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:55,991
it's because of Wes.

608
00:31:56,015 --> 00:32:00,652
If I'm a halfway decent father someday...

609
00:32:01,373 --> 00:32:03,405
if I'm not a lost cause...

610
00:32:04,810 --> 00:32:07,367
it's because Wes never gave up on me.

611
00:32:11,430 --> 00:32:12,641
He shouldn't die

612
00:32:12,666 --> 00:32:16,226
because I made dumb-ass decisions.

613
00:32:35,264 --> 00:32:36,813
It's your surgery.

614
00:32:37,115 --> 00:32:40,330
And we have the exact same
amount of experience with this.

615
00:32:46,846 --> 00:32:49,826
Free up the medulla along
the inner cortical surface.

616
00:32:50,570 --> 00:32:52,648
Careful not to penetrate the cortex.

617
00:32:57,183 --> 00:32:58,668
Mm.

618
00:32:59,345 --> 00:33:00,791
Nothing's coming out.

619
00:33:00,816 --> 00:33:03,524
Try using your fingers
to pinch the gland.

620
00:33:03,549 --> 00:33:05,561
Use a circular motion to coax it out.

621
00:33:08,521 --> 00:33:10,466
I've popped my share of pimples.

622
00:33:37,350 --> 00:33:39,418
That's cool.

623
00:33:41,387 --> 00:33:43,255
One down, one to go.

624
00:33:46,559 --> 00:33:48,604
Wes is like a father to Max.

625
00:33:48,628 --> 00:33:49,838
If he were his actual father,

626
00:33:49,862 --> 00:33:51,483
we wouldn't hesitate to let him do it.

627
00:33:51,507 --> 00:33:52,997
I think we should.

628
00:33:54,366 --> 00:33:55,725
Me, too.

629
00:33:56,202 --> 00:33:58,447
The little punk got to me.

630
00:34:00,473 --> 00:34:02,524
We've explained all the risks.

631
00:34:02,549 --> 00:34:04,683
Max was unwavering.

632
00:34:06,671 --> 00:34:08,624
I vote yes.

633
00:34:13,653 --> 00:34:15,297
One admirable decision

634
00:34:15,321 --> 00:34:18,081
doesn't wipe away a lifetime of bad ones.

635
00:34:21,394 --> 00:34:23,405
It's three against one.

636
00:34:27,533 --> 00:34:29,478
This isn't a democracy.

637
00:34:33,973 --> 00:34:35,718
I'll tell the patient.

638
00:34:49,305 --> 00:34:51,117
One of the boys get into trouble again?

639
00:34:51,141 --> 00:34:52,785
No.

640
00:34:52,809 --> 00:34:55,176
No, they've given you
a reason to be proud.

641
00:34:56,512 --> 00:34:59,392
They all got tested
to see if they were a match.

642
00:34:59,416 --> 00:35:00,748
Max is.

643
00:35:01,096 --> 00:35:02,796
He wants to give you his kidney.

644
00:35:06,388 --> 00:35:08,401
That little turd is full of surprises.

645
00:35:24,940 --> 00:35:28,220
I can't approve the transplant, Wes.

646
00:35:29,946 --> 00:35:31,257
I'm sorry.

647
00:35:34,117 --> 00:35:36,829
Max is a good kid.

648
00:35:36,853 --> 00:35:40,766
He's gonna make a good man
one day, thanks to you.

649
00:35:40,790 --> 00:35:45,205
But, for now, he still needs
grown-ups to have his back.

650
00:35:45,229 --> 00:35:46,416
The risks to his health...

651
00:35:46,440 --> 00:35:47,556
It's okay.

652
00:35:53,303 --> 00:35:54,947
It...

653
00:35:54,971 --> 00:35:56,680
It's the right call.

654
00:36:02,646 --> 00:36:06,225
It's my job to save those kids.

655
00:36:06,249 --> 00:36:08,060
Not the other way around.

656
00:36:11,087 --> 00:36:13,287
You're still on the UNOS list.

657
00:36:14,490 --> 00:36:16,636
We'll keep reaching out to your family.

658
00:36:16,660 --> 00:36:18,104
We're not giving up.

659
00:36:25,101 --> 00:36:29,882
I need you to do one other thing for me.

660
00:36:47,856 --> 00:36:49,402
Sorry to interrupt.

661
00:36:49,426 --> 00:36:50,803
It's okay.

662
00:36:50,827 --> 00:36:53,272
No one's probably listening anyway.

663
00:37:05,241 --> 00:37:07,153
Your kidney's not a match.

664
00:37:09,179 --> 00:37:11,390
They said I <i>was.</i>

665
00:37:11,414 --> 00:37:13,915
Your blood and tissue type were good.

666
00:37:14,549 --> 00:37:16,062
But the serum crossmatch showed

667
00:37:16,086 --> 00:37:20,354
that Wes produces antibodies
in reaction to your cells.

668
00:37:20,805 --> 00:37:23,091
His body would reject your kidney.

669
00:37:24,760 --> 00:37:26,572
I'm sorry.

670
00:37:29,766 --> 00:37:31,977
Figures.

671
00:37:32,001 --> 00:37:33,879
I can't do one stupid thing right.

672
00:37:33,903 --> 00:37:35,536
That's not true.

673
00:37:36,905 --> 00:37:39,107
You did everything you could.

674
00:37:41,176 --> 00:37:42,688
Wes is so proud of you.

675
00:38:13,243 --> 00:38:15,020
Any dizziness or nausea?

676
00:38:15,044 --> 00:38:17,223
No. No headaches, either.

677
00:38:17,247 --> 00:38:19,058
You need to try getting out of bed

678
00:38:19,082 --> 00:38:20,793
to see if your symptoms return.

679
00:38:20,817 --> 00:38:22,120
She ready for that?

680
00:38:22,144 --> 00:38:24,096
No cartwheels yet, but hopefully.

681
00:38:43,206 --> 00:38:44,483
How's it feel?

682
00:38:47,977 --> 00:38:49,217
Room's not spinning.

683
00:38:49,241 --> 00:38:50,856
Mommy! You're all better!

684
00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:53,259
Whoa! Careful, sweet pea.

685
00:38:53,283 --> 00:38:55,361
Mama's still recovering.

686
00:38:57,887 --> 00:38:59,532
I'm okay.

687
00:39:01,991 --> 00:39:03,035
Ooh!

688
00:39:16,271 --> 00:39:18,317
Here's the Big Dipper.

689
00:39:18,341 --> 00:39:20,859
If you extend a straight line
through these two,

690
00:39:20,883 --> 00:39:23,622
this bright star is Polaris.

691
00:39:23,646 --> 00:39:25,536
All of our phones have compass apps.

692
00:39:25,560 --> 00:39:27,381
Hey, just shut up and listen.

693
00:39:27,803 --> 00:39:29,436
This crap's important.

694
00:39:30,392 --> 00:39:33,160
Polaris is your true north.

695
00:39:34,423 --> 00:39:37,570
You keep your eye on that,
you're gonna find your way out

696
00:39:37,594 --> 00:39:39,305
of whatever mess you've gotten into.

697
00:40:07,790 --> 00:40:09,268
O... kay.

698
00:40:09,292 --> 00:40:10,870
- All right.
- Mm.

699
00:40:17,967 --> 00:40:19,712
That's, uh...

700
00:40:19,736 --> 00:40:21,247
Even worse than it looks.

701
00:40:22,972 --> 00:40:24,884
It's so bad. It's so bad!

702
00:40:26,376 --> 00:40:28,287
- Mm.
- Cooks, we are not.

703
00:40:37,453 --> 00:40:39,098
I think we should go on a date.

704
00:40:39,122 --> 00:40:40,288
A real date.

705
00:40:41,323 --> 00:40:43,769
Shaun, I already said no.

706
00:40:43,793 --> 00:40:45,471
Yes, because you think

707
00:40:45,495 --> 00:40:47,473
there are problems that can't be fixed.

708
00:40:47,497 --> 00:40:49,308
But I am very good at solving problems.

709
00:40:49,332 --> 00:40:52,211
I saved a woman today
who nobody thought I could save.

710
00:40:52,235 --> 00:40:53,979
I don't need saving, Shaun.

711
00:40:54,003 --> 00:40:55,814
Okay. I understand.

712
00:40:55,838 --> 00:40:57,583
I can fix this.

713
00:40:57,607 --> 00:41:00,719
Yes. You have to give me a chance.

714
00:41:00,743 --> 00:41:02,254
You need to let me try.

715
00:41:02,278 --> 00:41:04,990
No. I don't need to do anything.
You need to listen to me.

716
00:41:05,014 --> 00:41:06,592
- No. No...
- This is only proving my point.

717
00:41:06,616 --> 00:41:08,260
I have... I have a plan.

718
00:41:08,284 --> 00:41:09,795
I can fix it!

719
00:41:09,819 --> 00:41:11,563
I-I will fix it!

720
00:41:11,587 --> 00:41:14,233
Shaun, you're autistic.
You can't fix that.

721
00:41:21,697 --> 00:41:23,909
You are who you are.

722
00:41:23,933 --> 00:41:25,611
And I am who I am.

723
00:41:25,635 --> 00:41:29,281
And the two of us will never work.

