1 00:00:01,000 --> 00:00:02,899 Previously on "You"... 2 00:00:02,900 --> 00:00:04,357 I love our little routine. 3 00:00:04,358 --> 00:00:06,569 Always the same, but never stale. 4 00:00:06,570 --> 00:00:08,236 Your father was never consistent, 5 00:00:08,237 --> 00:00:10,139 and you're still healing from that with my help. 6 00:00:10,140 --> 00:00:12,037 And guess what. 7 00:00:12,038 --> 00:00:13,563 Now that I've made our morning sacred, 8 00:00:13,564 --> 00:00:15,383 you're actually writing. 9 00:00:15,384 --> 00:00:17,709 One day, I'll tell you about Candace. 10 00:00:17,710 --> 00:00:19,084 She broke my heart. 11 00:00:19,085 --> 00:00:21,046 But you are good. 12 00:00:21,047 --> 00:00:23,631 You make cheating a distant memory. 13 00:00:23,632 --> 00:00:25,643 Peach is taking you out of town. 14 00:00:25,644 --> 00:00:27,335 I need to save you. 15 00:00:31,974 --> 00:00:33,892 License and registration. 16 00:00:33,893 --> 00:00:35,142 Sorry, Spencer Hewitt. 17 00:00:35,143 --> 00:00:36,602 Dispatch to Nico, 18 00:00:36,603 --> 00:00:38,980 car's registered to an Ivan Mooney. 19 00:00:38,981 --> 00:00:40,190 Kicked Ron out. 20 00:00:40,191 --> 00:00:41,858 You're right, people don't change. 21 00:00:41,859 --> 00:00:43,609 Peach has it out for me. 22 00:00:43,610 --> 00:00:45,402 If I just keep being the perfect boyfriend, 23 00:00:45,403 --> 00:00:47,404 you'll realize that life is so much healthier 24 00:00:47,405 --> 00:00:49,240 away from this toxicity. 25 00:00:49,241 --> 00:00:51,117 You have issues, okay? 26 00:00:51,118 --> 00:00:52,410 Don't make your desperate, 27 00:00:52,411 --> 00:00:54,621 unending need for attention about me. 28 00:00:54,622 --> 00:00:56,789 It's freeing in a way to know for certain 29 00:00:56,790 --> 00:00:58,457 what I have to do to protect you. 30 00:00:58,458 --> 00:01:01,785 - Anyone here? - I would do anything for you. 31 00:01:09,387 --> 00:01:10,887 I'm not a bad person. 32 00:01:10,888 --> 00:01:12,429 She was going to ruin you. 33 00:01:12,430 --> 00:01:15,257 You're safe now, next to me. 34 00:01:22,233 --> 00:01:24,550 That first perfect month... 35 00:01:25,444 --> 00:01:28,221 we'd been to hell and back, we'd done the hard work, 36 00:01:28,530 --> 00:01:31,442 and we were closer than ever, >we were living the dream. 37 00:01:32,809 --> 00:01:34,652 Couldn't keep our hands off each other, 38 00:01:34,653 --> 00:01:36,546 couldn't keep anything off each other. 39 00:01:36,547 --> 00:01:39,556 I was ready to wait it out during the grief period, 40 00:01:39,557 --> 00:01:41,183 no matter what that looked like. 41 00:01:42,962 --> 00:01:45,238 But it only brought us closer together. 42 00:01:47,257 --> 00:01:51,468 That month after the funeral was... 43 00:01:51,469 --> 00:01:53,429 it was intimate. 44 00:01:53,430 --> 00:01:54,840 Real. 45 00:01:57,143 --> 00:02:00,895 Just made us more. 46 00:02:00,896 --> 00:02:03,605 No doubt, awash with champagne... 47 00:02:03,606 --> 00:02:05,474 But then, over the next few weeks... 48 00:02:06,652 --> 00:02:08,686 Something happened. 49 00:02:15,035 --> 00:02:16,694 Falafel. 50 00:02:18,581 --> 00:02:20,081 Couldn't tell you the exact moment 51 00:02:20,082 --> 00:02:21,665 things went wrong between us. 52 00:02:21,666 --> 00:02:23,141 But, uh, 53 00:02:23,142 --> 00:02:25,621 wrong they have gone. 54 00:02:27,672 --> 00:02:30,508 So that's why you're here in therapy, to... 55 00:02:30,509 --> 00:02:32,719 find out why your relationship went south? 56 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:34,720 Oh, it didn't just go south. 57 00:02:35,055 --> 00:02:36,382 It's over. 58 00:02:37,516 --> 00:02:39,258 And I wanna know why. 59 00:02:50,487 --> 00:02:52,529 Listen, here's the deal. 60 00:02:52,530 --> 00:02:55,742 Don't think of this as an office or me as a shrink. 61 00:02:55,743 --> 00:02:58,736 We're just two dudes, you know, shooting the shit. 62 00:02:59,747 --> 00:03:01,615 Why don't we start... 63 00:03:02,031 --> 00:03:04,375 When things were good with you two? 64 00:03:04,376 --> 00:03:07,670 Hmm, my first kiss? Good question. 65 00:03:07,671 --> 00:03:10,155 I was 14, and I was going out 66 00:03:10,156 --> 00:03:13,843 with this, um, boy Matt. 67 00:03:13,844 --> 00:03:16,136 You know, we told each other all the good stuff. 68 00:03:16,137 --> 00:03:19,015 He was so sweet, and we went to see, um, 69 00:03:19,016 --> 00:03:22,559 "Hitch" together... 70 00:03:22,560 --> 00:03:24,729 And I was waiting for him to make the move. 71 00:03:24,730 --> 00:03:27,606 Waiting... so, what, that was your first kiss? 72 00:03:27,607 --> 00:03:31,653 No, it was two nights later on a school camping trip, 73 00:03:31,654 --> 00:03:34,013 in a tent in the rain, 74 00:03:34,364 --> 00:03:35,949 with his best friend, Chad. 75 00:03:35,950 --> 00:03:38,909 - Oh, Chad. - I know. 76 00:03:38,910 --> 00:03:40,452 - Chad. - I know. 77 00:03:40,453 --> 00:03:44,164 I mean, but Chad, he just... he went for it, 78 00:03:44,165 --> 00:03:46,283 and I've always had trouble with that kind of thing, 79 00:03:46,284 --> 00:03:49,368 the whole good guy versus bad boy bit. 80 00:03:50,047 --> 00:03:51,630 Don't look at me that way. 81 00:03:51,631 --> 00:03:54,342 Trust me, I wish I could have a redo. 82 00:03:54,343 --> 00:03:57,010 I still feel like a hootsie for it. 83 00:03:57,011 --> 00:03:58,427 A hootsie? 84 00:03:59,079 --> 00:04:00,757 That should totally be a word. 85 00:04:02,642 --> 00:04:04,143 No real words? 86 00:04:04,144 --> 00:04:06,104 Only fake ones. 87 00:04:06,105 --> 00:04:07,647 - Punklassical. - Photobomb. 88 00:04:07,648 --> 00:04:10,441 - Ravey. - We connected on every level. 89 00:04:10,442 --> 00:04:11,543 It doesn't get any better. 90 00:04:11,544 --> 00:04:14,028 Everythingship. 91 00:04:14,029 --> 00:04:15,988 I love that. 92 00:04:15,989 --> 00:04:18,432 It's like our word. 93 00:04:18,617 --> 00:04:20,284 Everythingship. 94 00:04:20,285 --> 00:04:22,286 And now... 95 00:04:22,287 --> 00:04:24,313 A meeting of the minds, 96 00:04:24,622 --> 00:04:27,991 bodies, and souls. 97 00:04:30,336 --> 00:04:32,162 Okay, Beck, ready? 98 00:04:34,799 --> 00:04:36,501 Wha... 99 00:04:38,179 --> 00:04:39,995 It can't be. 100 00:04:40,972 --> 00:04:43,433 Are we redoing my first kiss? 101 00:04:43,434 --> 00:04:45,810 We're redoing your first kiss. 102 00:04:45,811 --> 00:04:47,854 Wow. 103 00:04:47,855 --> 00:04:51,024 I'm finally gonna kiss the right guy. 104 00:04:51,025 --> 00:04:55,027 It was an everythingship, it really was. 105 00:04:55,028 --> 00:04:57,404 We were in a really healthy place. 106 00:04:57,405 --> 00:04:59,364 I mean, I'd even stopped 107 00:04:59,365 --> 00:05:02,702 relying on the, you know, like, these certain crutches. 108 00:05:02,703 --> 00:05:04,704 - Crutches? - Yeah. 109 00:05:04,705 --> 00:05:06,455 Checking social media, 110 00:05:06,456 --> 00:05:08,582 sneaking a peek at a locked screen and... 111 00:05:08,583 --> 00:05:11,835 it was time to stop 'cause we were real. 112 00:05:11,836 --> 00:05:14,372 - I just needed to... - Trust? 113 00:05:15,799 --> 00:05:17,592 Sure. 114 00:05:17,593 --> 00:05:19,426 I'll see you after work. 115 00:05:19,427 --> 00:05:21,053 Yeah, about that. 116 00:05:21,054 --> 00:05:25,050 I may have gotten fired from the yoga studio. 117 00:05:26,309 --> 00:05:27,601 - May have? - Oh... 118 00:05:27,602 --> 00:05:31,022 I got fired. 119 00:05:31,023 --> 00:05:33,974 Apparently I fell asleep leading Savasana. 120 00:05:35,194 --> 00:05:37,277 It's fine. I can find another job. 121 00:05:37,278 --> 00:05:39,238 - I can... - Come work at Mooney's. 122 00:05:39,239 --> 00:05:40,864 I know, I know. Big step. 123 00:05:40,865 --> 00:05:41,907 Joe. 124 00:05:41,908 --> 00:05:43,534 Come on, it's perfect. 125 00:05:43,535 --> 00:05:45,786 Flexible hours, you have time to write. 126 00:05:45,787 --> 00:05:47,037 I wanna help. 127 00:05:47,038 --> 00:05:49,373 I can't ask that of you. 128 00:05:49,374 --> 00:05:51,709 Well, you're not asking, I'm offering. 129 00:05:51,710 --> 00:05:55,337 But big steps feel right in an everythingship. 130 00:05:55,338 --> 00:05:57,249 Yeah, yeah, I get that. 131 00:06:01,427 --> 00:06:03,221 Oh, don't worry about this. 132 00:06:03,222 --> 00:06:05,306 I'm in early stages of asymptomatic glaucoma, 133 00:06:05,307 --> 00:06:06,933 so I got a prescription. 134 00:06:06,934 --> 00:06:09,519 I swear, this makes me such a better listener. 135 00:06:09,520 --> 00:06:12,095 They should do a study. 136 00:06:21,114 --> 00:06:23,616 So what happened next? 137 00:06:23,617 --> 00:06:25,075 Ooh, hey, Ethan? 138 00:06:25,076 --> 00:06:27,904 Do you mind taking a picture of us? 139 00:06:31,917 --> 00:06:33,750 Uh, I'm sorry, 140 00:06:33,751 --> 00:06:35,085 I think I just need to sit down. 141 00:06:35,086 --> 00:06:37,755 I, um, pre-gamed the new Safran Foer 142 00:06:37,756 --> 00:06:39,214 by reading "Eating Animals", 143 00:06:39,215 --> 00:06:40,967 and I'm test driving veganism now, 144 00:06:40,968 --> 00:06:42,760 and I'm just feeling a little faint. 145 00:06:42,761 --> 00:06:43,844 Oh. 146 00:06:43,845 --> 00:06:46,713 Of course. 147 00:06:48,225 --> 00:06:50,685 You two are absolutely adorable, 148 00:06:50,686 --> 00:06:55,139 and I am a lonely vegan island. 149 00:06:55,982 --> 00:06:57,358 Someone needs a burger. 150 00:06:57,359 --> 00:07:00,010 Or somewhere to put his meat. 151 00:07:00,528 --> 00:07:03,113 - Oh. - Okay, that was bad. 152 00:07:03,114 --> 00:07:05,398 I meant it sympathetically. 153 00:07:07,201 --> 00:07:08,452 We have a hashtag now? 154 00:07:08,453 --> 00:07:10,455 - Too much? - It's perfect. 155 00:07:10,456 --> 00:07:12,832 What happened next was we were doing great. 156 00:07:12,833 --> 00:07:16,294 It was safe to open up about the very hardest things. 157 00:07:16,295 --> 00:07:18,046 You know, uh, 158 00:07:18,047 --> 00:07:20,990 Peach went on a date with JSF in high school. 159 00:07:21,299 --> 00:07:24,135 I thought that grief was really the last frontier. 160 00:07:24,136 --> 00:07:26,094 Apparently, he ate pork belly. 161 00:07:26,095 --> 00:07:27,930 Very scandalous. 162 00:07:27,931 --> 00:07:30,416 And Peach always said th... 163 00:07:30,559 --> 00:07:32,935 um... 164 00:07:32,936 --> 00:07:35,313 You can talk about her, you know. 165 00:07:35,314 --> 00:07:36,813 Yeah, I know. 166 00:07:36,814 --> 00:07:38,899 You haven't mentioned her since the funeral. 167 00:07:38,900 --> 00:07:40,198 It's been over a month. 168 00:07:40,199 --> 00:07:42,445 And we were at that frontier together. 169 00:07:42,446 --> 00:07:44,404 Actually, I think I... 170 00:07:44,405 --> 00:07:47,232 I'd rather save it for therapy, if that's okay. 171 00:07:49,203 --> 00:07:50,399 Therapy? 172 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:52,496 Except, it turns out, we weren't. 173 00:07:52,497 --> 00:07:56,041 Yeah, I... I used to go about a year ago, 174 00:07:56,042 --> 00:07:57,502 but I stopped, but then after Peach, 175 00:07:57,503 --> 00:07:59,837 I thought it was worth it 176 00:07:59,838 --> 00:08:03,115 to go for a bit. 177 00:08:03,549 --> 00:08:06,219 I mean, honestly, Dr. Nicky's been really helpful 178 00:08:06,220 --> 00:08:07,745 dealing with my grief. 179 00:08:08,847 --> 00:08:10,263 I think we need more stars. 180 00:08:10,264 --> 00:08:12,549 - They're in your office, right? - Yeah. 181 00:08:13,552 --> 00:08:15,386 Don't get me wrong... 182 00:08:15,387 --> 00:08:17,145 There's nothing wrong with going to therapy, 183 00:08:17,146 --> 00:08:18,897 it's just, it's a bit troubling 184 00:08:18,898 --> 00:08:20,892 when your partner hides something from you. 185 00:08:21,554 --> 00:08:23,927 Don't you agree, Dr. Nicky? 186 00:08:24,405 --> 00:08:25,697 I hear you, Paul. 187 00:08:25,698 --> 00:08:27,532 Not cool. 188 00:08:27,533 --> 00:08:29,450 Forgive me, Beck, but for the purposes 189 00:08:29,451 --> 00:08:31,202 of this session with your therapist, 190 00:08:31,203 --> 00:08:33,204 you are Renaldo... 191 00:08:33,205 --> 00:08:35,956 Tall, dark, and man-bunned backup dancer for Beyoncé, 192 00:08:35,957 --> 00:08:37,834 and I, Paul, well, I manage a bar. 193 00:08:37,835 --> 00:08:39,377 Every asshole in this city 194 00:08:39,378 --> 00:08:41,128 has the same not-so-special problems. 195 00:08:41,129 --> 00:08:43,781 It won't be hard to hide who I am. 196 00:08:44,215 --> 00:08:46,300 You two seem pretty copacetic, 197 00:08:46,301 --> 00:08:48,051 sort of, uh... 198 00:08:48,052 --> 00:08:50,829 things were Ross and Rachel with you and Renaldo. 199 00:08:51,223 --> 00:08:52,974 Yeah. 200 00:08:52,975 --> 00:08:55,042 I guess they... they were, 201 00:08:56,018 --> 00:08:57,478 until they weren't. 202 00:08:57,479 --> 00:08:59,312 See, I thought I'd eliminated all 203 00:08:59,313 --> 00:09:02,441 the obstacles between us... Beck, Benji, Peach... 204 00:09:02,442 --> 00:09:04,944 but now another has reared its head, 205 00:09:04,945 --> 00:09:07,564 and he's sitting right in front of me. 206 00:09:12,297 --> 00:09:14,833 All right, Paul, let's keep digging into this. 207 00:09:14,913 --> 00:09:16,915 All right, tell me, when did you see 208 00:09:16,916 --> 00:09:19,491 the first cracks with Renaldo? 209 00:09:22,587 --> 00:09:25,006 Well, having Renaldo at work was amazing, 210 00:09:25,007 --> 00:09:28,093 but it did force me to confront some slightly 211 00:09:28,094 --> 00:09:31,629 careless aspects of his personality. 212 00:09:38,436 --> 00:09:40,562 I tried to cut him some slack... 213 00:09:40,563 --> 00:09:43,274 you know, new job... and somewhere in there, 214 00:09:43,275 --> 00:09:45,443 he's still grieving, right? 215 00:09:45,444 --> 00:09:47,737 Hey. 216 00:09:47,738 --> 00:09:50,322 - We need to talk. - About what? 217 00:09:50,323 --> 00:09:53,450 Look, this is uncomfortable, she's your girlfriend, 218 00:09:53,451 --> 00:09:55,869 and lord knows I'm not one to criticize, 219 00:09:55,870 --> 00:09:58,580 but Becky's terrible, Joe. 220 00:09:58,581 --> 00:10:00,874 Okay? She's always late, she leaves the register open, 221 00:10:00,875 --> 00:10:03,003 she doesn't know how to organize by genre. 222 00:10:03,004 --> 00:10:04,713 Just this morning, she chewed out 223 00:10:04,714 --> 00:10:06,897 a 14-year-old for buying "American Tragedy" for school 224 00:10:06,898 --> 00:10:08,108 because she hates Dreiser. 225 00:10:08,109 --> 00:10:09,926 Everyone hates Dreiser. 226 00:10:09,927 --> 00:10:12,262 But this is a bookstore, okay? We're trying to sell books. 227 00:10:12,263 --> 00:10:14,013 And I hear you, buddy. 228 00:10:14,014 --> 00:10:16,641 You're caught up hard in the Tilt-A-Whirl of punani, 229 00:10:16,642 --> 00:10:18,600 and that is something I struggle with every day. 230 00:10:18,601 --> 00:10:20,145 But here's the thing, brother. 231 00:10:20,146 --> 00:10:23,480 Shitting where you eat just leads to confusion 232 00:10:23,481 --> 00:10:25,266 and E. Coli. 233 00:10:26,443 --> 00:10:29,438 So I'm gonna let you ruminate on that for a little bit. 234 00:10:30,656 --> 00:10:33,357 Yeah, well, we were a little imperfect. 235 00:10:35,161 --> 00:10:37,203 But I still thought we were in great shape, 236 00:10:37,204 --> 00:10:39,363 if that was the worst of our problems. 237 00:10:46,504 --> 00:10:48,672 Mooney's, rare and used. 238 00:10:48,673 --> 00:10:51,133 This is Officer Nico, Greenwich Sheriff's Department. 239 00:10:51,134 --> 00:10:54,179 I'm looking for a Mr. Ivan Mooney. 240 00:10:54,180 --> 00:10:55,530 Speaking. 241 00:10:55,531 --> 00:10:57,849 Calling about a Buick registered to your name. 242 00:10:57,850 --> 00:11:00,477 Yeah, I gave that car to my nephew, Spencer. 243 00:11:00,478 --> 00:11:02,186 Is he in trouble? 244 00:11:02,187 --> 00:11:04,189 No. 245 00:11:04,190 --> 00:11:06,858 I was just calling about a little fender bender he had. 246 00:11:06,859 --> 00:11:09,434 It was nothing. Have a nice day. 247 00:11:13,157 --> 00:11:14,732 That was too close. 248 00:11:17,536 --> 00:11:20,872 I just saw my job as keeping the outside world away 249 00:11:20,873 --> 00:11:22,373 so Renaldo could heal. 250 00:11:22,374 --> 00:11:25,709 Hey, Ethan said you were late again today. 251 00:11:25,710 --> 00:11:28,379 Yeah, I know. Sorry. 252 00:11:28,380 --> 00:11:31,840 It was hard to find a line between boss and boyfriend, 253 00:11:31,841 --> 00:11:34,051 between supporting and enabling. 254 00:11:34,052 --> 00:11:36,887 But you did say the hours were flexible 255 00:11:36,888 --> 00:11:38,681 and that I'd have time to write. 256 00:11:38,682 --> 00:11:41,500 I did, but you haven't been writing. 257 00:11:42,061 --> 00:11:44,805 Thinking about writing is a part of the process. 258 00:11:46,731 --> 00:11:48,524 Okay, that sounded like bullshit, 259 00:11:48,525 --> 00:11:51,052 even as I said it. 260 00:11:51,403 --> 00:11:52,903 I'm sorry. 261 00:11:52,904 --> 00:11:54,722 The truth is... 262 00:11:55,490 --> 00:11:58,944 I've been having really vivid dreams about Peach. 263 00:12:00,745 --> 00:12:02,622 I'm sorry about that. 264 00:12:02,623 --> 00:12:05,024 It's not your fault, it's just... 265 00:12:05,417 --> 00:12:09,128 her face, it's... fading, 266 00:12:09,129 --> 00:12:12,448 and I didn't think that would happen so fast. 267 00:12:13,716 --> 00:12:16,094 But she comes at night, so, 268 00:12:16,095 --> 00:12:20,764 now I am too tired to write and falling behind at school, 269 00:12:20,765 --> 00:12:24,768 and now I'm failing you by being bad at this job. 270 00:12:24,769 --> 00:12:27,272 I couldn't tell if I was helping; I thought I was. 271 00:12:27,273 --> 00:12:29,690 It's pathetic... the only good thing 272 00:12:29,691 --> 00:12:31,893 in my life right now is therapy. 273 00:12:32,735 --> 00:12:34,445 That's the only good thing? 274 00:12:34,446 --> 00:12:36,947 Joe, don't be like that. 275 00:12:36,948 --> 00:12:38,740 Or I was totally wrong, and there were 276 00:12:38,741 --> 00:12:41,618 dark forces at work I wasn't privy to. 277 00:12:41,619 --> 00:12:43,292 Claudia! 278 00:12:43,293 --> 00:12:46,291 There are people who are thoroughly delusional 279 00:12:46,292 --> 00:12:48,126 - about their relationship. - Claudia! 280 00:12:48,127 --> 00:12:50,128 Get your scrub ass out of here, Ron. 281 00:12:50,129 --> 00:12:52,129 Karen, stop being a meddling bitch 282 00:12:52,130 --> 00:12:53,492 and tell me where Claudia is. 283 00:12:53,493 --> 00:12:56,301 For example, my neighbor's alcoholic boyfriend 284 00:12:56,302 --> 00:12:59,879 literally has to be chased away with a baseball bat. 285 00:13:02,140 --> 00:13:03,974 This isn't over, Karen. 286 00:13:03,975 --> 00:13:06,393 Can't hide forever, Claudia! 287 00:13:06,394 --> 00:13:08,021 Do I know you? 288 00:13:08,022 --> 00:13:09,439 No. 289 00:13:09,440 --> 00:13:11,298 You don't know me at all? 290 00:13:11,649 --> 00:13:14,301 - No. - Then what are you staring at? 291 00:13:14,611 --> 00:13:16,353 But we were different... 292 00:13:17,656 --> 00:13:19,265 I thought. 293 00:13:19,491 --> 00:13:21,700 Sounds like working with Renaldo at the bar 294 00:13:21,701 --> 00:13:23,661 wasn't such a hot idea, huh? 295 00:13:23,662 --> 00:13:28,157 I mean, sure, it was difficult to navigate at times. 296 00:13:29,877 --> 00:13:31,710 But it had its good parts. 297 00:13:31,711 --> 00:13:33,279 Beck? 298 00:13:34,715 --> 00:13:36,323 Beck? 299 00:14:08,957 --> 00:14:10,374 Hi. 300 00:14:10,375 --> 00:14:13,986 Hi, what is this? 301 00:14:14,421 --> 00:14:16,381 I thought we could use a... 302 00:14:16,382 --> 00:14:18,790 a little date night. 303 00:14:24,682 --> 00:14:27,632 Meatball subs, your favorite. 304 00:14:30,396 --> 00:14:33,230 Well, what do you think? 305 00:14:33,231 --> 00:14:35,023 I think one errant candle 306 00:14:35,024 --> 00:14:38,093 could destroy an entire collection of rare books, 307 00:14:38,516 --> 00:14:40,041 but... 308 00:14:41,072 --> 00:14:45,108 you are worth it. 309 00:14:51,292 --> 00:14:53,751 I feel bad for girls who don't eat. 310 00:14:53,752 --> 00:14:56,078 It always made me sad with Peach. 311 00:14:58,798 --> 00:15:00,583 What? 312 00:15:02,385 --> 00:15:04,595 You're talking about Peach. 313 00:15:04,596 --> 00:15:06,121 It's good. 314 00:15:06,599 --> 00:15:08,165 Yeah. 315 00:15:08,558 --> 00:15:10,134 I guess so. 316 00:15:15,441 --> 00:15:17,258 You know, I, uh, 317 00:15:17,484 --> 00:15:20,445 I had this Little Mermaid sleeping bag when I was a kid. 318 00:15:20,446 --> 00:15:22,780 God, I loved that thing. 319 00:15:22,781 --> 00:15:25,115 But then it started to smell bad, 320 00:15:25,116 --> 00:15:27,951 like, fungus-bad. 321 00:15:27,952 --> 00:15:30,647 I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it, though. 322 00:15:30,648 --> 00:15:32,331 - It was like... - A security blanket. 323 00:15:32,332 --> 00:15:33,941 Exactly. 324 00:15:34,627 --> 00:15:36,335 But then I lost it, 325 00:15:36,336 --> 00:15:39,780 and even though I was sad, 326 00:15:40,090 --> 00:15:42,133 I was kinda relieved because I didn't... 327 00:15:42,134 --> 00:15:45,461 I didn't actually have to get rid of it. 328 00:15:47,639 --> 00:15:50,307 And it's... it's the same with Peach. 329 00:15:50,308 --> 00:15:51,684 There is a part of me... 330 00:15:51,685 --> 00:15:53,645 oh, God, it sounds terrible. 331 00:15:53,646 --> 00:15:57,022 Not that I'm comparing Peach to a cheap, nylon sleeping bag, 332 00:15:57,023 --> 00:15:58,799 I, uh... 333 00:16:00,903 --> 00:16:03,153 This metaphor made a lot more sense 334 00:16:03,154 --> 00:16:05,232 when I came to it with Dr. Nicky. 335 00:16:06,135 --> 00:16:07,825 I think all this Peach stuff is coming up 336 00:16:07,826 --> 00:16:10,152 because of my birthday. 337 00:16:11,412 --> 00:16:13,198 December 3rd. 338 00:16:15,834 --> 00:16:17,334 You remembered? 339 00:16:17,335 --> 00:16:18,861 Of course. 340 00:16:19,672 --> 00:16:21,296 Anyway, 341 00:16:21,297 --> 00:16:25,909 Peach made such a big deal about birthdays. 342 00:16:26,345 --> 00:16:29,638 And she always made sure I felt super special 343 00:16:29,639 --> 00:16:33,292 and would plan the whole thing, and... 344 00:16:33,851 --> 00:16:35,811 now I don't... 345 00:16:35,812 --> 00:16:37,187 I'll handle it. 346 00:16:37,188 --> 00:16:39,190 - No, Joe... - No, what do you want? 347 00:16:39,191 --> 00:16:42,313 A night at the Met? A tasting menu at Momofuku? 348 00:16:42,314 --> 00:16:45,938 Hell, I'll even sing karaoke with Annika and Lynn. 349 00:16:48,366 --> 00:16:50,325 That's sweet, that's really... 350 00:16:50,326 --> 00:16:51,993 Really sweet. 351 00:16:51,994 --> 00:16:53,537 But I... 352 00:16:53,538 --> 00:16:56,782 I think I'd rather keep it low-key and small. 353 00:16:57,917 --> 00:17:01,453 No. No to small, no to low-key. 354 00:17:03,840 --> 00:17:06,759 I don't know, Lynn, Beck was pretty emphatic. 355 00:17:06,760 --> 00:17:10,221 Dude, Beck's a Sagittarius. She craves attention. 356 00:17:10,222 --> 00:17:12,557 This is a test, okay? Part of the fun 357 00:17:12,558 --> 00:17:14,725 is making a guy think that you don't want something 358 00:17:14,726 --> 00:17:16,244 and seeing if he still comes through. 359 00:17:16,245 --> 00:17:17,253 No, Beck's not like that. 360 00:17:17,254 --> 00:17:19,480 Let me give you a little lesson on Beck. 361 00:17:19,481 --> 00:17:21,898 Every year she wants to "keep it simple", 362 00:17:21,899 --> 00:17:24,569 and every year, whatever guy that she's dating 363 00:17:24,570 --> 00:17:28,092 royally blows it, and Peach swoops in on her Manolos 364 00:17:28,093 --> 00:17:30,742 and throws Beck a party for the ages. 365 00:17:30,743 --> 00:17:32,909 Only now, no Peach. 366 00:17:32,910 --> 00:17:34,995 God rest her beautiful soul. 367 00:17:34,996 --> 00:17:37,898 So you're saying throw a party? 368 00:17:38,417 --> 00:17:40,117 I'll help. 369 00:17:41,419 --> 00:17:43,253 I need a distraction. 370 00:17:43,254 --> 00:17:45,421 And I think because I was anxious about this, 371 00:17:45,422 --> 00:17:47,884 my judgment was a little off. 372 00:17:47,885 --> 00:17:50,044 If I bury my sorrows in anymore booze and boys, 373 00:17:50,045 --> 00:17:52,763 I'm gonna get syphilis again. 374 00:17:52,764 --> 00:17:55,724 And Annika is still at Esalen on her grief retreat so... 375 00:17:55,725 --> 00:17:56,953 But she didn't like Peach. 376 00:17:56,954 --> 00:17:59,221 None of us liked Peach. 377 00:18:00,397 --> 00:18:02,423 But we loved her. 378 00:18:03,233 --> 00:18:06,234 Losing a friend is super complicated, Joe. 379 00:18:06,235 --> 00:18:07,570 I need this. 380 00:18:07,571 --> 00:18:09,638 Beck needs it. 381 00:18:10,015 --> 00:18:12,016 Which is why I was stupid enough 382 00:18:12,017 --> 00:18:14,243 to think Renaldo's friends should be listened to, ever. 383 00:18:14,244 --> 00:18:15,535 It'll just be some friends, 384 00:18:15,536 --> 00:18:16,954 some NYU people. 385 00:18:16,955 --> 00:18:19,956 We'll make it a surprise party, hmm? 386 00:18:19,957 --> 00:18:21,501 A book theme, 387 00:18:21,502 --> 00:18:23,085 and everyone can come dressed 388 00:18:23,086 --> 00:18:24,578 as their favorite literary character. 389 00:18:24,579 --> 00:18:26,146 What do you say? 390 00:18:26,465 --> 00:18:28,198 Put it to you this way. 391 00:18:28,966 --> 00:18:31,092 Would you rather do something and be wrong 392 00:18:31,093 --> 00:18:33,036 or nothing and be wrong? 393 00:18:33,472 --> 00:18:34,806 Surprise party. 394 00:18:34,807 --> 00:18:36,474 Hmm, I thought it would cheer him up 395 00:18:36,475 --> 00:18:37,833 after the death of... 396 00:18:38,644 --> 00:18:41,186 his beloved shih tzu. 397 00:18:41,187 --> 00:18:43,589 Get his mind off of things. 398 00:18:43,982 --> 00:18:45,549 And? 399 00:18:46,275 --> 00:18:48,026 Did it? 400 00:18:48,027 --> 00:18:50,230 No, it was the beginning of the end. 401 00:18:51,490 --> 00:18:53,090 Because you threw him a surprise party? 402 00:18:53,091 --> 00:18:54,824 No, no, because that's when I realized 403 00:18:54,825 --> 00:18:57,493 he was cheating on me with his therapist. 404 00:19:13,703 --> 00:19:15,863 Oh, shit, you scared me. 405 00:19:16,831 --> 00:19:18,124 What's all this? 406 00:19:18,125 --> 00:19:20,751 Uh, oh, it's my girlfriend's birthday. 407 00:19:20,752 --> 00:19:22,720 Throwing her a little... well, it's not so little. 408 00:19:22,721 --> 00:19:25,256 It's, um, it's a surprise party. 409 00:19:25,257 --> 00:19:26,673 Kind of a literary theme. 410 00:19:26,674 --> 00:19:28,659 Thus... 411 00:19:30,261 --> 00:19:32,371 I'm going as Ernest Hemingway. 412 00:19:32,806 --> 00:19:34,565 "The Old Man and the Sea", "The Sun Also"... 413 00:19:34,566 --> 00:19:36,967 I know who Hemingway is. 414 00:19:37,644 --> 00:19:39,420 Nice cake. 415 00:19:40,105 --> 00:19:42,391 She's lucky to have a man who cares. 416 00:20:01,292 --> 00:20:05,630 Bacon-wrapped date? Bacon-wrapped date? 417 00:20:05,631 --> 00:20:07,364 Bacon-wrapped date? 418 00:20:07,965 --> 00:20:09,867 Good call. 419 00:20:10,969 --> 00:20:12,135 Bacon-wrapped date? 420 00:20:12,136 --> 00:20:13,435 It's 9:40. 421 00:20:13,436 --> 00:20:15,706 Beck was supposed to be here at 9:00 to meet for dinner. 422 00:20:15,707 --> 00:20:17,224 She'll be here, relax. 423 00:20:17,225 --> 00:20:19,184 You know what you need, my friend, is a drink. 424 00:20:19,185 --> 00:20:20,853 Hey, get this man a Catcher in the Rye. 425 00:20:20,854 --> 00:20:23,396 - No, no, no, it's fine. - She's here. 426 00:20:23,397 --> 00:20:25,775 Everyone hide. Places, people. 427 00:20:25,776 --> 00:20:27,267 Hide! 428 00:20:34,492 --> 00:20:37,245 Surprise! 429 00:20:37,246 --> 00:20:39,487 How American. 430 00:20:42,500 --> 00:20:45,001 Who is that? 431 00:20:45,002 --> 00:20:47,337 That's one of Beck's school friends, 432 00:20:47,338 --> 00:20:49,172 I think, I don't know. 433 00:20:49,173 --> 00:20:50,298 I'm texting her. 434 00:20:50,299 --> 00:20:51,875 _ 435 00:20:58,308 --> 00:21:00,051 What? 436 00:21:05,398 --> 00:21:09,360 Rude to stare, especially in Asian cultures. 437 00:21:09,361 --> 00:21:11,863 Mr. Darcy, I take it? 438 00:21:11,864 --> 00:21:14,239 - Indeed. - Predictable. 439 00:21:14,240 --> 00:21:16,032 Says Elizabeth Bennet. 440 00:21:16,033 --> 00:21:17,535 Ugh, god, no. Dorothea Brooke. 441 00:21:17,536 --> 00:21:18,911 "Middlemarch"? 442 00:21:18,912 --> 00:21:20,872 Named my shelter cat after George Eliot. 443 00:21:20,873 --> 00:21:22,815 I love her. 444 00:21:23,208 --> 00:21:25,480 - The cat or the author? - Both. 445 00:21:26,377 --> 00:21:28,078 Meow. 446 00:21:32,843 --> 00:21:34,134 Hi, hey, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, 447 00:21:34,135 --> 00:21:35,635 can we chat for a second? 448 00:21:35,636 --> 00:21:38,221 Oh, Joe, Joe, this is Constantine. 449 00:21:38,222 --> 00:21:40,341 He lives in Bushwick. 450 00:21:41,602 --> 00:21:43,477 That's fine. Where the hell is Beck? 451 00:21:43,478 --> 00:21:45,270 Do you wanna touch his moustache? 452 00:21:45,271 --> 00:21:46,897 No, no, no, Lynn, no, Lynn. 453 00:21:46,898 --> 00:21:48,399 I don't wanna touch his moustache. 454 00:21:48,400 --> 00:21:49,901 - Joe. - I don't get it. 455 00:21:49,902 --> 00:21:51,502 I've tried to be the perfect boyfriend. 456 00:21:51,503 --> 00:21:54,479 I've bent over backwards. I gave her a job. 457 00:21:54,480 --> 00:21:56,406 I threw her this party. 458 00:21:56,407 --> 00:21:59,410 - What else can I do? - People are puzzling. 459 00:21:59,411 --> 00:22:00,952 Peach committed suicide, 460 00:22:00,953 --> 00:22:03,413 and she's the strongest person I know... knew. 461 00:22:03,414 --> 00:22:05,583 Beck isn't just puzzling, she's impossible. 462 00:22:05,584 --> 00:22:07,585 Like, where is she right now? 463 00:22:07,586 --> 00:22:09,336 It's selfish. 464 00:22:09,337 --> 00:22:11,422 It's rude, but it's Beck... 465 00:22:11,423 --> 00:22:13,123 - Joe. - And tha... 466 00:22:15,093 --> 00:22:16,176 Oh, shit. 467 00:22:16,177 --> 00:22:17,796 - Hi... - Hey! 468 00:22:18,971 --> 00:22:21,132 Can I speak to you for a sec? 469 00:22:24,685 --> 00:22:26,687 Joe, this is not what I asked for. 470 00:22:26,688 --> 00:22:30,274 I said quiet, and I said small. 471 00:22:30,275 --> 00:22:31,525 Lynn said... 472 00:22:31,526 --> 00:22:32,943 Oh, now you're listening to Lynn? 473 00:22:32,944 --> 00:22:36,238 In retrospect, a misfire. 474 00:22:36,239 --> 00:22:37,614 Why are you wearing a turtleneck? 475 00:22:37,615 --> 00:22:39,659 I'm Hemingway... again, misfire. 476 00:22:39,660 --> 00:22:42,036 Look, I appreciate the gesture, 477 00:22:42,037 --> 00:22:45,288 I just... I can't be at a party 478 00:22:45,289 --> 00:22:47,308 and pretend that everything is okay without Peach. 479 00:22:47,309 --> 00:22:48,875 I am not a robot. 480 00:22:48,876 --> 00:22:50,294 Well, what about the other day, 481 00:22:50,295 --> 00:22:52,462 the relief you talked about? 482 00:22:52,463 --> 00:22:54,507 Grief isn't a straight line, Joe. 483 00:22:54,508 --> 00:22:57,343 I know, you've just been hard to read lately. 484 00:22:57,344 --> 00:22:59,044 What is that supposed to mean? 485 00:23:02,182 --> 00:23:03,682 Where were you? 486 00:23:03,683 --> 00:23:05,308 - Sorry? - Beck, I called. 487 00:23:05,309 --> 00:23:07,353 - I texted you. - Yeah, I know. 488 00:23:07,354 --> 00:23:09,939 I just... my, um... 489 00:23:09,940 --> 00:23:12,650 my therapy session ran long. 490 00:23:12,651 --> 00:23:16,695 Dr. Nicky and I were really making some headway. 491 00:23:16,696 --> 00:23:19,489 And then I guess I just... I went for a walk, and... 492 00:23:19,490 --> 00:23:21,325 You guess? 493 00:23:21,326 --> 00:23:23,451 - Therapy and a walk? - Yes. 494 00:23:23,452 --> 00:23:25,496 Then why do you smell like three glasses of rosé? 495 00:23:25,497 --> 00:23:28,540 Because I sat down at some stupid bar with my journal 496 00:23:28,541 --> 00:23:30,668 trying to work through shit, Joe, that's it. 497 00:23:30,669 --> 00:23:32,202 Okay so, then, why didn't you call me? 498 00:23:32,203 --> 00:23:33,310 I forgot. 499 00:23:33,311 --> 00:23:35,881 But it's your birthday, Beck, we made dinner plans. 500 00:23:35,882 --> 00:23:37,173 Well, I... I just... 501 00:23:37,174 --> 00:23:39,493 I lost track of time. 502 00:23:45,183 --> 00:23:46,884 Beck, just tell me. 503 00:23:48,353 --> 00:23:49,887 Just tell me. 504 00:23:50,482 --> 00:23:52,725 Tell me the truth, 505 00:23:52,732 --> 00:23:55,133 and we can get through anything. 506 00:23:59,530 --> 00:24:00,864 Okay, well, if you can't tell me, 507 00:24:00,865 --> 00:24:02,432 then show me, show me your phone. 508 00:24:05,537 --> 00:24:07,579 Are... are you serious right now? 509 00:24:07,580 --> 00:24:09,839 You said yourself, you have a hard time with good guys. 510 00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:11,008 What are you talking about? 511 00:24:11,009 --> 00:24:12,209 The hootsie stuff. 512 00:24:13,211 --> 00:24:15,712 Okay, I'm... okay, fine. 513 00:24:15,713 --> 00:24:17,556 You wanna see my phone? 514 00:24:18,383 --> 00:24:20,050 Have at it. 515 00:24:20,051 --> 00:24:21,584 But if you do this, it means there is 516 00:24:21,585 --> 00:24:23,929 absolutely no trust between us, 517 00:24:23,930 --> 00:24:26,883 and if we don't have trust, we have nothing. 518 00:24:28,268 --> 00:24:30,093 Do you trust me? 519 00:24:34,273 --> 00:24:35,941 You know what, I can't... 520 00:24:35,942 --> 00:24:37,559 I can't do this right now. 521 00:24:38,949 --> 00:24:41,527 Happy birthday to me. 522 00:25:17,977 --> 00:25:19,711 With his therapist? 523 00:25:20,870 --> 00:25:24,181 You sure? That's a pretty heavy accusation. 524 00:25:26,360 --> 00:25:28,094 How do you know? 525 00:25:28,696 --> 00:25:30,154 Experience. 526 00:25:30,155 --> 00:25:31,639 Candace. 527 00:25:32,183 --> 00:25:33,824 There are certain tells you can just... 528 00:25:33,825 --> 00:25:36,327 you can see it in their eyes when they look at you. 529 00:25:36,328 --> 00:25:38,271 Been cheated on before? 530 00:25:38,873 --> 00:25:40,789 In my last relationship. 531 00:25:40,790 --> 00:25:43,000 I was blind, I only saw what I wanted to see, 532 00:25:43,001 --> 00:25:45,170 but I didn't make that mistake again. 533 00:25:45,171 --> 00:25:46,904 This time, I made sure... 534 00:25:48,507 --> 00:25:50,283 that Renaldo was different. 535 00:25:52,010 --> 00:25:54,763 So I knew if he was lying or cheating, 536 00:25:54,764 --> 00:25:57,172 someone was using him. 537 00:25:58,976 --> 00:26:00,852 Look, I'm not... I'm not one of those shrinks 538 00:26:00,853 --> 00:26:02,219 that are obsessed with the past, 539 00:26:02,220 --> 00:26:04,510 but I think in this case, we should take a look. 540 00:26:04,511 --> 00:26:06,482 Why don't you tell me about your childhood? 541 00:26:06,483 --> 00:26:09,133 Look, I mean, but we're not here to talk about my childhood, right? 542 00:26:09,134 --> 00:26:10,673 We're talking about my relationship. 543 00:26:10,674 --> 00:26:13,692 Which ended because... a surprise party? 544 00:26:13,693 --> 00:26:15,934 No, that's not when it ended. 545 00:26:19,788 --> 00:26:22,239 I brought you a donut. 546 00:26:26,754 --> 00:26:28,787 It's glazed. 547 00:26:32,634 --> 00:26:33,884 Wait, wait, hold up, hold up. 548 00:26:33,885 --> 00:26:37,096 So you're just back together regardless of your suspicions? 549 00:26:37,097 --> 00:26:38,515 Eh, didn't matter. 550 00:26:38,516 --> 00:26:40,416 That was the past. 551 00:26:40,892 --> 00:26:43,061 All right, so what happened next? 552 00:26:43,062 --> 00:26:45,063 Things were good at first. 553 00:26:45,064 --> 00:26:47,330 But then it started to feel like something was different. 554 00:26:47,331 --> 00:26:50,510 I feel like I'm hungrier than sushi. 555 00:26:50,511 --> 00:26:53,003 - Okay, pizza? - Too saucy. 556 00:26:53,004 --> 00:26:54,004 Okay, Thai? 557 00:26:54,005 --> 00:26:56,374 We had Thai for lunch. 558 00:27:01,413 --> 00:27:04,573 Why do I always have to pick? 559 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:07,919 It's okay. 560 00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:09,420 I'll choose. 561 00:27:09,421 --> 00:27:11,965 You're a snob, Connor. 562 00:27:11,966 --> 00:27:15,759 It's a horrible feeling to know things have gone wrong 563 00:27:15,760 --> 00:27:17,719 and there's nothing you can do to change it. 564 00:27:17,720 --> 00:27:19,421 George, I'm going to. 565 00:27:30,733 --> 00:27:34,353 Mm, falafel. 566 00:27:38,033 --> 00:27:42,311 You know something or someone has come between you, 567 00:27:42,829 --> 00:27:45,231 but I had to be sure. 568 00:27:45,874 --> 00:27:48,334 I'll see you after class, okay? 569 00:27:48,335 --> 00:27:49,701 Okay, bye. 570 00:28:02,491 --> 00:28:04,976 _ 571 00:28:04,977 --> 00:28:09,014 Heart, heart, heart. 572 00:28:28,459 --> 00:28:30,501 I wanted to be wrong. 573 00:28:30,502 --> 00:28:33,212 I never wanted to be wrong so badly 574 00:28:33,213 --> 00:28:35,215 in my life. 575 00:28:35,216 --> 00:28:37,667 I was begging to be proven wrong. 576 00:28:44,163 --> 00:28:46,308 _ 577 00:28:46,309 --> 00:28:48,218 But it was looking like I was right. 578 00:28:56,069 --> 00:28:58,028 You trust someone, 579 00:28:58,029 --> 00:29:00,139 you give them your heart, 580 00:29:00,950 --> 00:29:02,699 and what do they do? 581 00:29:02,700 --> 00:29:05,577 Is there even a punishment that fits 582 00:29:05,578 --> 00:29:08,872 the crime of lying, of manipulating like this, 583 00:29:08,873 --> 00:29:11,317 of breaking someone's heart? 584 00:29:12,001 --> 00:29:14,586 I guess I'm bad at picking good people, 585 00:29:14,587 --> 00:29:17,748 but I'm good at catching bad people red-handed. 586 00:29:30,938 --> 00:29:32,764 Are you following me? 587 00:29:39,329 --> 00:29:42,207 Answer me right now. Were you following me? 588 00:29:42,208 --> 00:29:44,835 No, no, no. I was in the neighborhood. 589 00:29:44,836 --> 00:29:46,961 And then I... I saw you. 590 00:29:46,962 --> 00:29:49,332 God, stop lying. 591 00:29:50,799 --> 00:29:54,760 You know, just tell me why. Why, Joe? 592 00:29:54,761 --> 00:29:56,637 It's the being late, 593 00:29:56,638 --> 00:29:57,847 the secret texts. 594 00:29:57,848 --> 00:29:58,990 You've been different, Beck. 595 00:29:58,991 --> 00:30:00,532 You're being crazy. 596 00:30:00,533 --> 00:30:02,235 Are you sleeping with him? 597 00:30:02,388 --> 00:30:03,632 Who? 598 00:30:04,981 --> 00:30:06,105 Your therapist. 599 00:30:06,106 --> 00:30:07,566 Oh, my God. 600 00:30:07,567 --> 00:30:09,483 Are you? I need to know. I want to know. 601 00:30:09,484 --> 00:30:12,487 No! I am not sleeping with him. 602 00:30:12,488 --> 00:30:13,529 Who's the fox? 603 00:30:13,530 --> 00:30:14,614 What? 604 00:30:14,615 --> 00:30:17,534 The fox. The fox, Beck! 605 00:30:17,535 --> 00:30:20,787 My friend, Emma Fox, from Brown. 606 00:30:20,788 --> 00:30:22,413 But I guess that wasn't readily apparent 607 00:30:22,414 --> 00:30:24,949 on the text from my phone, huh? 608 00:30:29,963 --> 00:30:31,964 - Beck... - Just don't. 609 00:30:31,965 --> 00:30:33,549 Joe, I told you. 610 00:30:33,550 --> 00:30:36,720 If we don't have trust, we have nothing. 611 00:30:36,721 --> 00:30:39,090 I know, I know, I'm sorry. 612 00:30:40,223 --> 00:30:41,424 Me too. 613 00:30:43,728 --> 00:30:46,888 You and I are over. 614 00:31:05,333 --> 00:31:07,066 And that... 615 00:31:07,919 --> 00:31:09,902 that's when it ended. 616 00:31:10,171 --> 00:31:12,081 That's one hell of a story. 617 00:31:14,274 --> 00:31:16,800 - What's your diagnosis? - My diagnosis? 618 00:31:16,801 --> 00:31:18,803 Yeah, yeah, what do you make of it all? 619 00:31:18,804 --> 00:31:20,889 Well, you might think I'm crazy 620 00:31:20,890 --> 00:31:23,499 'cause I've only known you 48 minutes, but... 621 00:31:24,393 --> 00:31:26,627 I think there's two of you... 622 00:31:27,145 --> 00:31:28,980 two Paul Browns. 623 00:31:28,981 --> 00:31:32,191 One has been hurt in the past. 624 00:31:32,192 --> 00:31:33,860 You feel betrayed and hopeless. 625 00:31:33,861 --> 00:31:36,028 But the other one has faith, 626 00:31:36,029 --> 00:31:39,932 and in spite of the evidence to the contrary, 627 00:31:40,492 --> 00:31:42,852 he believes true love exists. 628 00:31:43,578 --> 00:31:45,904 And that is someone I think I can help. 629 00:31:50,670 --> 00:31:52,545 Our time is up now, but I... 630 00:31:52,546 --> 00:31:55,457 I would, uh, sure be down to seeing you again if you'd like. 631 00:32:00,805 --> 00:32:02,337 I don't think so. 632 00:32:16,487 --> 00:32:20,314 Everything I do, I do to protect you, Beck. 633 00:32:29,291 --> 00:32:31,918 Peach, Benji... they left me no choice. 634 00:32:31,919 --> 00:32:33,995 They were dangerous. 635 00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:43,212 I think you might be in danger again. 636 00:33:04,785 --> 00:33:08,145 But I need absolute proof first. 637 00:33:09,539 --> 00:33:10,874 And these days, 638 00:33:10,875 --> 00:33:13,067 the quickest way to a man's truth 639 00:33:14,170 --> 00:33:16,737 is through his computer. 640 00:33:25,513 --> 00:33:27,790 And if I find what I'm looking for, 641 00:33:29,393 --> 00:33:32,094 Dr. Nicky will be handled. 642 00:33:50,455 --> 00:33:53,333 I mean, he followed me. 643 00:33:53,334 --> 00:33:56,370 That's just... it's not okay. 644 00:33:56,577 --> 00:33:59,005 I get it, you feel violated. 645 00:33:59,006 --> 00:34:00,547 Pretend I'm Joe. 646 00:34:00,548 --> 00:34:02,533 What would you say to him right now? 647 00:34:03,885 --> 00:34:06,912 The more you want me, the less I want you. 648 00:34:07,598 --> 00:34:10,750 I know, it's messed up, but it's true. 649 00:34:12,770 --> 00:34:15,396 Of course you think I'm hiding shit. 650 00:34:15,397 --> 00:34:17,298 I am... 651 00:34:18,274 --> 00:34:23,320 hiding what a complete, ugly mess I am. 652 00:34:23,321 --> 00:34:25,824 Behind this, like, cute, 653 00:34:25,825 --> 00:34:29,067 acceptable version of being a mess, it's insane. 654 00:34:31,162 --> 00:34:32,956 I haven't dealt with this shit 655 00:34:32,957 --> 00:34:35,270 that went on with me and Peach, 656 00:34:35,271 --> 00:34:38,652 or my dad, or Benji. 657 00:34:39,337 --> 00:34:41,255 And instead of putting it into my writing, 658 00:34:41,256 --> 00:34:43,832 I'm hibernating with you. 659 00:34:48,848 --> 00:34:51,006 And I resent you for it. 660 00:34:53,227 --> 00:34:56,396 I need space to heal, 661 00:34:56,397 --> 00:34:59,606 but every time I turn around, you're standing there, 662 00:34:59,607 --> 00:35:02,235 ready to make it all okay. 663 00:35:02,236 --> 00:35:04,812 But only I can do that. 664 00:35:08,033 --> 00:35:10,242 And if you really love me, 665 00:35:10,243 --> 00:35:11,894 you'll see that. 666 00:35:14,622 --> 00:35:16,336 You'll let me go. 667 00:35:24,308 --> 00:35:26,092 Are you afraid you might be pushing away 668 00:35:26,093 --> 00:35:27,793 a good thing, Beck? 669 00:35:27,794 --> 00:35:30,413 Do you think Joe might be good for you? 670 00:35:31,182 --> 00:35:32,706 Maybe. 671 00:35:33,100 --> 00:35:34,875 But it's what I need. 672 00:35:39,732 --> 00:35:42,483 That doesn't sound like an illicit affair. 673 00:35:42,484 --> 00:35:44,568 That sounds like 674 00:35:44,569 --> 00:35:47,405 a messed-up girl in a crisis 675 00:35:47,406 --> 00:35:50,486 and a pretty decent therapist she's lucky to have. 676 00:35:54,537 --> 00:35:57,206 It also sounds like 677 00:35:57,207 --> 00:36:00,785 you were right to end it with me. 678 00:36:05,633 --> 00:36:10,411 I was wrong about all of it. 679 00:36:10,720 --> 00:36:13,347 The only thing I wasn't wrong about 680 00:36:13,348 --> 00:36:15,291 was loving you. 681 00:36:16,435 --> 00:36:19,428 So, I'm letting you go. 682 00:36:36,605 --> 00:36:37,606 Hey. 683 00:36:37,607 --> 00:36:39,090 Hi. 684 00:36:39,609 --> 00:36:41,485 Thanks for opening the door, 685 00:36:41,486 --> 00:36:43,469 all things considered. 686 00:36:43,946 --> 00:36:47,323 Uh, look, there are a million things 687 00:36:47,324 --> 00:36:49,409 I could say right now, 688 00:36:49,410 --> 00:36:53,030 but all that matters is, I'm sorry. 689 00:36:53,998 --> 00:36:55,690 Thank you. 690 00:36:56,333 --> 00:36:58,494 Jealousy got the best of me. 691 00:37:00,672 --> 00:37:03,423 And I, uh, I was... I was threatened 692 00:37:03,424 --> 00:37:06,885 that you needed someone to talk to who wasn't me. 693 00:37:06,886 --> 00:37:08,803 And I know you deserve that. 694 00:37:08,804 --> 00:37:10,881 You deserve to figure your stuff out. 695 00:37:12,308 --> 00:37:13,849 And if I was a smarter man, 696 00:37:13,850 --> 00:37:18,296 maybe I wouldn't let you go, but, um, 697 00:37:18,480 --> 00:37:20,715 I'm guessing that's what you need, 698 00:37:21,149 --> 00:37:22,884 so I will. 699 00:37:33,078 --> 00:37:36,031 Goodbye, Beck. 700 00:37:43,839 --> 00:37:45,790 Goodbye, Joe. 701 00:37:48,511 --> 00:37:51,555 Turns out, it is like the movies. 702 00:37:51,556 --> 00:37:55,182 The second it's over, all you can remember 703 00:37:55,183 --> 00:37:57,852 is the stuff that made you fall in love, 704 00:37:57,853 --> 00:37:59,729 blazing through your mind, 705 00:37:59,730 --> 00:38:03,399 this rom-com montage made of the sweetest poison. 706 00:38:03,400 --> 00:38:06,570 Everythingship. 707 00:38:06,571 --> 00:38:08,155 I love that. 708 00:38:08,156 --> 00:38:09,865 I'd never felt this way before, 709 00:38:09,866 --> 00:38:13,226 where you love the bad things about someone 710 00:38:14,569 --> 00:38:17,072 as much as the good. 711 00:38:18,457 --> 00:38:20,909 Maybe even a little more. 712 00:38:22,712 --> 00:38:25,872 Love isn't a strong enough word. 713 00:38:27,632 --> 00:38:30,552 Sometimes, it scares me 714 00:38:30,553 --> 00:38:32,553 to love someone so completely 715 00:38:32,554 --> 00:38:34,755 and not have them love you back. 716 00:38:38,143 --> 00:38:40,061 I'm happy to see you here. 717 00:38:40,062 --> 00:38:42,797 I didn't think you'd come back after our last session. 718 00:38:43,107 --> 00:38:45,274 Well, that's the thing, I... 719 00:38:45,275 --> 00:38:48,570 I don't understand it. 720 00:38:48,571 --> 00:38:49,905 That's why I'm here. 721 00:38:49,906 --> 00:38:51,605 - What don't you understand? - Love. 722 00:38:52,991 --> 00:38:55,810 You and 7 billion other people on this planet. 723 00:38:56,370 --> 00:38:58,914 If we understood love, I'd be out of a job. 724 00:38:58,915 --> 00:39:01,541 I have to say it's sort of unique to everybody, 725 00:39:01,542 --> 00:39:05,128 like a fingerprint, or a strand of DNA, 726 00:39:05,129 --> 00:39:07,914 or the song you lost your virginity to. 727 00:39:09,716 --> 00:39:12,160 "Hungry Like the Wolf". 728 00:39:17,600 --> 00:39:20,467 Some people have a hard time letting love in. 729 00:39:22,765 --> 00:39:25,381 Some people are built for love. 730 00:39:26,692 --> 00:39:30,361 And some people are searching, 731 00:39:30,362 --> 00:39:32,280 searching for someone who can love them 732 00:39:32,281 --> 00:39:34,098 in the way that they deserve. 733 00:39:34,699 --> 00:39:36,660 That's you. 734 00:39:36,661 --> 00:39:38,452 You look like shit. 735 00:39:38,453 --> 00:39:39,896 Thanks. 736 00:39:40,080 --> 00:39:41,939 What happened? 737 00:39:42,165 --> 00:39:45,251 My girlfriend dumped me, all right? 738 00:39:45,252 --> 00:39:47,662 So if you don't mind... 739 00:40:18,995 --> 00:40:20,812 Mm. 740 00:40:21,413 --> 00:40:23,657 I love you, Joe. 741 00:40:25,835 --> 00:40:27,878 Your face! 742 00:40:27,879 --> 00:40:29,536 Oh, my God, I was just messing with you. 743 00:40:29,537 --> 00:40:31,537 Oh... 744 00:40:59,410 --> 00:41:01,527 Are you gonna leave Beck alone? 745 00:41:02,495 --> 00:41:04,572 Or will she end up like me?