1 00:00:00,467 --> 00:00:02,342 Previously on "You"... 2 00:00:02,367 --> 00:00:03,824 I love our little routine. 3 00:00:03,825 --> 00:00:06,036 Always the same, but never stale. 4 00:00:06,037 --> 00:00:07,703 Your father was never consistent, 5 00:00:07,704 --> 00:00:09,206 and you're still healing from that with my help. 6 00:00:09,207 --> 00:00:11,480 And guess what. 7 00:00:11,505 --> 00:00:12,730 Now that I've made our morning sacred, 8 00:00:12,731 --> 00:00:14,550 you're actually writing. 9 00:00:14,551 --> 00:00:17,176 One day, I'll tell you about Candace. 10 00:00:17,177 --> 00:00:18,551 She broke my heart. 11 00:00:18,552 --> 00:00:20,513 But you are good. 12 00:00:20,514 --> 00:00:23,098 You make cheating a distant memory. 13 00:00:23,099 --> 00:00:25,110 Peach is taking you out of town. 14 00:00:25,111 --> 00:00:26,602 I need to save you. 15 00:00:31,441 --> 00:00:33,359 License and registration. 16 00:00:33,360 --> 00:00:34,609 Sorry, Spencer Hewitt. 17 00:00:34,610 --> 00:00:36,069 Dispatch to Nico, 18 00:00:36,070 --> 00:00:38,447 car's registered to an Ivan Mooney. 19 00:00:38,448 --> 00:00:39,657 Kicked Ron out. 20 00:00:39,658 --> 00:00:41,325 You're right, people don't change. 21 00:00:41,326 --> 00:00:43,076 Peach has it out for me. 22 00:00:43,077 --> 00:00:44,869 If I just keep being the perfect boyfriend, 23 00:00:44,870 --> 00:00:46,871 you'll realize that life is so much healthier 24 00:00:46,872 --> 00:00:48,707 away from this toxicity. 25 00:00:48,708 --> 00:00:50,584 You have issues, okay? 26 00:00:50,585 --> 00:00:51,877 Don't make your desperate, 27 00:00:51,878 --> 00:00:54,088 unending need for attention about me. 28 00:00:54,089 --> 00:00:56,256 It's freeing in a way to know for certain 29 00:00:56,257 --> 00:00:57,924 what I have to do to protect you. 30 00:00:57,925 --> 00:01:01,052 - Anyone here? - I would do anything for you. 31 00:01:08,854 --> 00:01:10,354 I'm not a bad person. 32 00:01:10,355 --> 00:01:11,896 She was going to ruin you. 33 00:01:11,897 --> 00:01:14,524 You're safe now, next to me. 34 00:01:21,700 --> 00:01:23,817 That first perfect month... 35 00:01:24,911 --> 00:01:27,488 we'd been to hell and back, we'd done the hard work, 36 00:01:27,997 --> 00:01:30,709 and we were closer than ever, >we were living the dream. 37 00:01:32,376 --> 00:01:33,919 Couldn't keep our hands off each other, 38 00:01:33,920 --> 00:01:35,454 couldn't keep anything off each other. 39 00:01:36,214 --> 00:01:38,923 I was ready to wait it out during the grief period, 40 00:01:38,924 --> 00:01:40,050 no matter what that looked like. 41 00:01:42,429 --> 00:01:44,505 But it only brought us closer together. 42 00:01:46,724 --> 00:01:50,935 That month after the funeral was... 43 00:01:50,936 --> 00:01:52,896 it was intimate. 44 00:01:52,897 --> 00:01:54,107 Real. 45 00:01:56,610 --> 00:02:00,362 Just made us more. 46 00:02:00,363 --> 00:02:03,072 No doubt, awash with champagne... 47 00:02:03,073 --> 00:02:04,741 But then, over the next few weeks... 48 00:02:06,119 --> 00:02:07,953 Something happened. 49 00:02:14,502 --> 00:02:15,961 Falafel. 50 00:02:18,048 --> 00:02:19,548 Couldn't tell you the exact moment 51 00:02:19,549 --> 00:02:21,132 things went wrong between us. 52 00:02:21,133 --> 00:02:22,608 But, uh, 53 00:02:22,609 --> 00:02:24,888 wrong they have gone. 54 00:02:27,139 --> 00:02:29,975 So that's why you're here in therapy, to... 55 00:02:29,976 --> 00:02:32,186 find out why your relationship went south? 56 00:02:32,187 --> 00:02:33,987 Oh, it didn't just go south. 57 00:02:34,522 --> 00:02:35,649 It's over. 58 00:02:36,983 --> 00:02:38,525 And I wanna know why. 59 00:02:49,954 --> 00:02:51,996 Listen, here's the deal. 60 00:02:51,997 --> 00:02:55,209 Don't think of this as an office or me as a shrink. 61 00:02:55,210 --> 00:02:58,003 We're just two dudes, you know, shooting the shit. 62 00:02:59,214 --> 00:03:00,882 Why don't we start... 63 00:03:01,498 --> 00:03:03,842 When things were good with you two? 64 00:03:03,843 --> 00:03:07,137 Hmm, my first kiss? Good question. 65 00:03:07,138 --> 00:03:09,622 I was 14, and I was going out 66 00:03:09,623 --> 00:03:13,310 with this, um, boy Matt. 67 00:03:13,311 --> 00:03:15,603 You know, we told each other all the good stuff. 68 00:03:15,604 --> 00:03:18,482 He was so sweet, and we went to see, um, 69 00:03:18,483 --> 00:03:22,026 "Hitch" together... 70 00:03:22,027 --> 00:03:24,196 And I was waiting for him to make the move. 71 00:03:24,197 --> 00:03:27,073 Waiting... so, what, that was your first kiss? 72 00:03:27,074 --> 00:03:31,120 No, it was two nights later on a school camping trip, 73 00:03:31,121 --> 00:03:33,280 in a tent in the rain, 74 00:03:33,831 --> 00:03:35,416 with his best friend, Chad. 75 00:03:35,417 --> 00:03:38,376 - Oh, Chad. - I know. 76 00:03:38,377 --> 00:03:39,919 - Chad. - I know. 77 00:03:39,920 --> 00:03:43,631 I mean, but Chad, he just... he went for it, 78 00:03:43,632 --> 00:03:45,550 and I've always had trouble with that kind of thing, 79 00:03:45,551 --> 00:03:48,435 the whole good guy versus bad boy bit. 80 00:03:49,514 --> 00:03:51,097 Don't look at me that way. 81 00:03:51,098 --> 00:03:53,809 Trust me, I wish I could have a redo. 82 00:03:53,810 --> 00:03:56,477 I still feel like a hootsie for it. 83 00:03:56,478 --> 00:03:57,694 A hootsie? 84 00:03:58,546 --> 00:04:00,024 That should totally be a word. 85 00:04:02,109 --> 00:04:03,610 No real words? 86 00:04:03,611 --> 00:04:05,571 Only fake ones. 87 00:04:05,572 --> 00:04:07,114 - Punklassical. - Photobomb. 88 00:04:07,115 --> 00:04:09,908 Ravey. , We connected on every level. 89 00:04:09,909 --> 00:04:10,910 It doesn't get any better. 90 00:04:10,911 --> 00:04:13,495 Everythingship. 91 00:04:13,496 --> 00:04:15,455 I love that. 92 00:04:15,456 --> 00:04:17,699 It's like our word. 93 00:04:18,084 --> 00:04:19,751 Everythingship. 94 00:04:19,752 --> 00:04:21,753 And now... 95 00:04:21,754 --> 00:04:23,580 A meeting of the minds, 96 00:04:24,089 --> 00:04:27,258 bodies, and souls. 97 00:04:29,803 --> 00:04:31,429 Okay, Beck, ready? 98 00:04:34,266 --> 00:04:35,768 Wha... 99 00:04:37,646 --> 00:04:39,262 It can't be. 100 00:04:40,439 --> 00:04:42,900 Are we redoing my first kiss? 101 00:04:42,901 --> 00:04:45,277 We're redoing your first kiss. 102 00:04:45,278 --> 00:04:47,321 Wow. 103 00:04:47,322 --> 00:04:50,491 I'm finally gonna kiss the right guy. 104 00:04:50,492 --> 00:04:54,494 It was an everythingship, it really was. 105 00:04:54,495 --> 00:04:56,871 We were in a really healthy place. 106 00:04:56,872 --> 00:04:58,831 I mean, I'd even stopped 107 00:04:58,832 --> 00:05:02,169 relying on the, you know, like, these certain crutches. 108 00:05:02,170 --> 00:05:04,171 - Crutches? - Yeah. 109 00:05:04,172 --> 00:05:05,922 Checking social media, 110 00:05:05,923 --> 00:05:08,049 sneaking a peek at a locked screen and... 111 00:05:08,050 --> 00:05:11,302 it was time to stop 'cause we were real. 112 00:05:11,303 --> 00:05:13,639 - I just needed to... - Trust? 113 00:05:15,266 --> 00:05:17,059 Sure. 114 00:05:17,060 --> 00:05:18,893 I'll see you after work. 115 00:05:18,894 --> 00:05:20,520 Yeah, about that. 116 00:05:20,521 --> 00:05:24,317 I may have gotten fired from the yoga studio. 117 00:05:25,776 --> 00:05:27,068 - May have? - Oh... 118 00:05:27,069 --> 00:05:30,489 I got fired. 119 00:05:30,490 --> 00:05:33,241 Apparently I fell asleep leading Savasana. 120 00:05:34,661 --> 00:05:36,744 It's fine. I can find another job. 121 00:05:36,745 --> 00:05:38,705 - I can... - Come work at Mooney's. 122 00:05:38,706 --> 00:05:40,331 I know, I know. Big step. 123 00:05:40,332 --> 00:05:41,374 Joe. 124 00:05:41,375 --> 00:05:43,001 Come on, it's perfect. 125 00:05:43,002 --> 00:05:45,253 Flexible hours, you have time to write. 126 00:05:45,254 --> 00:05:46,504 I wanna help. 127 00:05:46,505 --> 00:05:48,840 I can't ask that of you. 128 00:05:48,841 --> 00:05:51,176 Well, you're not asking, I'm offering. 129 00:05:51,177 --> 00:05:54,804 But big steps feel right in an everythingship. 130 00:05:54,805 --> 00:05:56,516 Yeah, yeah, I get that. 131 00:06:00,894 --> 00:06:02,688 Oh, don't worry about this. 132 00:06:02,689 --> 00:06:04,773 I'm in early stages of asymptomatic glaucoma, 133 00:06:04,774 --> 00:06:06,400 so I got a prescription. 134 00:06:06,401 --> 00:06:08,986 I swear, this makes me such a better listener. 135 00:06:08,987 --> 00:06:11,362 They should do a study. 136 00:06:20,581 --> 00:06:23,083 So what happened next? 137 00:06:23,084 --> 00:06:24,542 Ooh, hey, Ethan? 138 00:06:24,543 --> 00:06:27,171 Do you mind taking a picture of us? 139 00:06:31,384 --> 00:06:33,217 Uh, I'm sorry, 140 00:06:33,218 --> 00:06:34,552 I think I just need to sit down. 141 00:06:34,553 --> 00:06:37,222 I, um, pre-gamed the new Safran Foer 142 00:06:37,223 --> 00:06:38,681 by reading "Eating Animals," 143 00:06:38,682 --> 00:06:40,434 and I'm test driving veganism now, 144 00:06:40,435 --> 00:06:42,227 and I'm just feeling a little faint. 145 00:06:42,228 --> 00:06:43,311 Oh. 146 00:06:43,312 --> 00:06:45,980 Of course. 147 00:06:47,692 --> 00:06:50,152 You two are absolutely adorable, 148 00:06:50,153 --> 00:06:54,406 and I am a lonely vegan island. 149 00:06:55,449 --> 00:06:56,825 Someone needs a burger. 150 00:06:56,826 --> 00:06:59,277 Or somewhere to put his meat. 151 00:06:59,995 --> 00:07:02,580 - Oh. - Okay, that was bad. 152 00:07:02,581 --> 00:07:04,665 I meant it sympathetically. 153 00:07:06,668 --> 00:07:07,919 We have a hashtag now? 154 00:07:07,920 --> 00:07:09,922 - Too much? - It's perfect. 155 00:07:09,923 --> 00:07:12,299 What happened next was we were doing great. 156 00:07:12,300 --> 00:07:15,761 It was safe to open up about the very hardest things. 157 00:07:15,762 --> 00:07:17,513 You know, uh, 158 00:07:17,514 --> 00:07:20,257 Peach went on a date with JSF in high school. 159 00:07:20,766 --> 00:07:23,602 I thought that grief was really the last frontier. 160 00:07:23,603 --> 00:07:25,561 Apparently, he ate pork belly. 161 00:07:25,562 --> 00:07:27,397 Very scandalous. 162 00:07:27,398 --> 00:07:29,683 And Peach always said th... 163 00:07:30,026 --> 00:07:32,402 um... 164 00:07:32,403 --> 00:07:34,780 You can talk about her, you know. 165 00:07:34,781 --> 00:07:36,280 Yeah, I know. 166 00:07:36,281 --> 00:07:38,366 You haven't mentioned her since the funeral. 167 00:07:38,367 --> 00:07:39,665 It's been over a month. 168 00:07:39,666 --> 00:07:41,912 And we were at that frontier together. 169 00:07:41,913 --> 00:07:43,871 Actually, I think I... 170 00:07:43,872 --> 00:07:46,499 I'd rather save it for therapy, if that's okay. 171 00:07:48,670 --> 00:07:49,866 Therapy? 172 00:07:49,867 --> 00:07:51,963 Except, it turns out, we weren't. 173 00:07:51,964 --> 00:07:55,508 Yeah, I... I used to go about a year ago, 174 00:07:55,509 --> 00:07:56,969 but I stopped, but then after Peach, 175 00:07:56,970 --> 00:07:59,304 I thought it was worth it 176 00:07:59,305 --> 00:08:02,382 to go for a bit. 177 00:08:03,016 --> 00:08:05,686 I mean, honestly, Dr. Nicky's been really helpful 178 00:08:05,687 --> 00:08:07,012 dealing with my grief. 179 00:08:08,314 --> 00:08:09,730 I think we need more stars. 180 00:08:09,731 --> 00:08:11,816 - They're in your office, right? - Yeah. 181 00:08:13,319 --> 00:08:15,153 Don't get me wrong... 182 00:08:15,154 --> 00:08:16,612 There's nothing wrong with going to therapy, 183 00:08:16,613 --> 00:08:18,364 it's just, it's a bit troubling 184 00:08:18,365 --> 00:08:20,159 when your partner hides something from you. 185 00:08:21,021 --> 00:08:23,194 Don't you agree, Dr. Nicky? 186 00:08:23,872 --> 00:08:25,164 I hear you, Paul. 187 00:08:25,165 --> 00:08:26,999 Not cool. 188 00:08:27,000 --> 00:08:28,917 Forgive me, Beck, but for the purposes 189 00:08:28,918 --> 00:08:30,669 of this session with your therapist, 190 00:08:30,670 --> 00:08:32,671 you are Renaldo... 191 00:08:32,672 --> 00:08:35,423 Tall, dark, and man-bunned backup dancer for Beyoncé, 192 00:08:35,424 --> 00:08:37,301 and I, Paul, well, I manage a bar. 193 00:08:37,302 --> 00:08:38,844 Every asshole in this city 194 00:08:38,845 --> 00:08:40,595 has the same not-so-special problems. 195 00:08:40,596 --> 00:08:43,048 It won't be hard to hide who I am. 196 00:08:43,682 --> 00:08:45,767 You two seem pretty copacetic, 197 00:08:45,768 --> 00:08:47,518 sort of, uh... 198 00:08:47,519 --> 00:08:50,096 things were Ross and Rachel with you and Renaldo. 199 00:08:50,690 --> 00:08:52,441 Yeah. 200 00:08:52,442 --> 00:08:54,309 I guess they... they were, 201 00:08:55,485 --> 00:08:56,945 until they weren't. 202 00:08:56,946 --> 00:08:58,779 See, I thought I'd eliminated all 203 00:08:58,780 --> 00:09:01,908 the obstacles between us... Beck, Benji, Peach... 204 00:09:01,909 --> 00:09:04,411 but now another has reared its head, 205 00:09:04,412 --> 00:09:06,831 and he's sitting right in front of me. 206 00:09:12,264 --> 00:09:14,600 All right, Paul, let's keep digging into this. 207 00:09:14,880 --> 00:09:16,882 All right, tell me, when did you see 208 00:09:16,883 --> 00:09:19,258 the first cracks with Renaldo? 209 00:09:22,554 --> 00:09:24,973 Well, having Renaldo at work was amazing, 210 00:09:24,974 --> 00:09:28,060 but it did force me to confront some slightly 211 00:09:28,061 --> 00:09:31,396 careless aspects of his personality. 212 00:09:38,403 --> 00:09:40,529 I tried to cut him some slack... 213 00:09:40,530 --> 00:09:43,241 you know, new job... and somewhere in there, 214 00:09:43,242 --> 00:09:45,410 he's still grieving, right? 215 00:09:45,411 --> 00:09:47,704 Hey. 216 00:09:47,705 --> 00:09:50,289 - We need to talk. - About what? 217 00:09:50,290 --> 00:09:53,417 Look, this is uncomfortable, she's your girlfriend, 218 00:09:53,418 --> 00:09:55,836 and lord knows I'm not one to criticize, 219 00:09:55,837 --> 00:09:58,547 but Becky's terrible, Joe. 220 00:09:58,548 --> 00:10:00,841 Okay? She's always late, she leaves the register open, 221 00:10:00,842 --> 00:10:02,970 she doesn't know how to organize by genre. 222 00:10:02,971 --> 00:10:04,680 Just this morning, she chewed out 223 00:10:04,681 --> 00:10:06,764 a 14-year-old for buying "American Tragedy" for school 224 00:10:06,765 --> 00:10:07,975 because she hates Dreiser. 225 00:10:07,976 --> 00:10:09,893 Everyone hates Dreiser. 226 00:10:09,894 --> 00:10:12,229 But this is a bookstore, okay? We're trying to sell books. 227 00:10:12,230 --> 00:10:13,980 And I hear you, buddy. 228 00:10:13,981 --> 00:10:16,608 You're caught up hard in the Tilt-A-Whirl of punani, 229 00:10:16,609 --> 00:10:18,567 and that is something I struggle with every day. 230 00:10:18,568 --> 00:10:20,112 But here's the thing, brother. 231 00:10:20,113 --> 00:10:23,447 Shitting where you eat just leads to confusion 232 00:10:23,448 --> 00:10:25,033 and E. coli. 233 00:10:26,410 --> 00:10:29,205 So I'm gonna let you ruminate on that for a little bit. 234 00:10:30,623 --> 00:10:33,124 Yeah, well, we were a little imperfect. 235 00:10:35,128 --> 00:10:37,170 But I still thought we were in great shape, 236 00:10:37,171 --> 00:10:39,130 if that was the worst of our problems. 237 00:10:46,471 --> 00:10:48,639 Mooney's, rare and used. 238 00:10:48,640 --> 00:10:51,100 This is Officer Nico, Greenwich Sheriff's Department. 239 00:10:51,101 --> 00:10:54,146 I'm looking for a Mr. Ivan Mooney. 240 00:10:54,147 --> 00:10:55,497 Speaking. 241 00:10:55,498 --> 00:10:57,816 Calling about a Buick registered to your name. 242 00:10:57,817 --> 00:11:00,444 Yeah, I gave that car to my nephew, Spencer. 243 00:11:00,445 --> 00:11:02,153 Is he in trouble? 244 00:11:02,154 --> 00:11:04,156 No. 245 00:11:04,157 --> 00:11:06,825 I was just calling about a little fender bender he had. 246 00:11:06,826 --> 00:11:09,201 It was nothing. Have a nice day. 247 00:11:13,124 --> 00:11:14,499 That was too close. 248 00:11:17,503 --> 00:11:20,839 I just saw my job as keeping the outside world away 249 00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:22,340 so Renaldo could heal. 250 00:11:22,341 --> 00:11:25,676 Hey, Ethan said you were late again today. 251 00:11:25,677 --> 00:11:28,346 Yeah, I know. Sorry. 252 00:11:28,347 --> 00:11:31,807 It was hard to find a line between boss and boyfriend, 253 00:11:31,808 --> 00:11:34,018 between supporting and enabling. 254 00:11:34,019 --> 00:11:36,854 But you did say the hours were flexible 255 00:11:36,855 --> 00:11:38,648 and that I'd have time to write. 256 00:11:38,649 --> 00:11:41,267 I did, but you haven't been writing. 257 00:11:42,028 --> 00:11:44,572 Thinking about writing is a part of the process. 258 00:11:46,698 --> 00:11:48,491 Okay, that sounded like bullshit, 259 00:11:48,492 --> 00:11:50,819 even as I said it. 260 00:11:51,370 --> 00:11:52,870 I'm sorry. 261 00:11:52,871 --> 00:11:54,489 The truth is... 262 00:11:55,457 --> 00:11:58,711 I've been having really vivid dreams about Peach. 263 00:12:00,712 --> 00:12:02,589 I'm sorry about that. 264 00:12:02,590 --> 00:12:04,791 It's not your fault, it's just... 265 00:12:05,384 --> 00:12:09,095 her face, it's... fading, 266 00:12:09,096 --> 00:12:12,215 and I didn't think that would happen so fast. 267 00:12:13,683 --> 00:12:16,061 But she comes at night, so, 268 00:12:16,062 --> 00:12:20,731 now I am too tired to write and falling behind at school, 269 00:12:20,732 --> 00:12:24,735 and now I'm failing you by being bad at this job. 270 00:12:24,736 --> 00:12:27,239 I couldn't tell if I was helping; I thought I was. 271 00:12:27,240 --> 00:12:29,657 It's pathetic... the only good thing 272 00:12:29,658 --> 00:12:31,660 in my life right now is therapy. 273 00:12:32,702 --> 00:12:34,412 That's the only good thing? 274 00:12:34,413 --> 00:12:36,914 Joe, don't be like that. 275 00:12:36,915 --> 00:12:38,707 Or I was totally wrong, and there were 276 00:12:38,708 --> 00:12:41,585 dark forces at work I wasn't privy to. 277 00:12:41,586 --> 00:12:43,259 Claudia! 278 00:12:43,260 --> 00:12:46,258 There are people who are thoroughly delusional 279 00:12:46,259 --> 00:12:48,093 about their relationship. Claudia! 280 00:12:48,094 --> 00:12:50,095 Get your scrub ass out of here, Ron. 281 00:12:50,096 --> 00:12:52,096 Karen, stop being a meddling bitch 282 00:12:52,097 --> 00:12:53,459 and tell me where Claudia is. 283 00:12:53,460 --> 00:12:56,268 For example, my neighbor's alcoholic boyfriend 284 00:12:56,269 --> 00:12:59,646 literally has to be chased away with a baseball bat. 285 00:13:02,107 --> 00:13:03,941 This isn't over, Karen. 286 00:13:03,942 --> 00:13:06,360 Can't hide forever, Claudia! 287 00:13:06,361 --> 00:13:07,988 Do I know you? 288 00:13:07,989 --> 00:13:09,406 No. 289 00:13:09,407 --> 00:13:11,065 You don't know me at all? 290 00:13:11,616 --> 00:13:14,068 - No. - Then what are you staring at? 291 00:13:14,578 --> 00:13:16,120 But we were different... 292 00:13:17,623 --> 00:13:19,032 I thought. 293 00:13:19,458 --> 00:13:21,667 Sounds like working with Renaldo at the bar 294 00:13:21,668 --> 00:13:23,628 wasn't such a hot idea, huh? 295 00:13:23,629 --> 00:13:27,924 I mean, sure, it was difficult to navigate at times. 296 00:13:29,844 --> 00:13:31,677 But it had its good parts. 297 00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,046 Beck? 298 00:13:34,682 --> 00:13:36,090 Beck? 299 00:14:08,924 --> 00:14:10,341 Hi. 300 00:14:10,342 --> 00:14:13,753 Hi, what is this? 301 00:14:14,388 --> 00:14:16,348 I thought we could use a... 302 00:14:16,349 --> 00:14:18,557 a little date night. 303 00:14:24,649 --> 00:14:27,399 Meatball subs, your favorite. 304 00:14:30,363 --> 00:14:33,197 Well, what do you think? 305 00:14:33,198 --> 00:14:34,990 I think one errant candle 306 00:14:34,991 --> 00:14:37,860 could destroy an entire collection of rare books, 307 00:14:38,483 --> 00:14:39,808 but... 308 00:14:41,039 --> 00:14:44,875 you are worth it. 309 00:14:51,259 --> 00:14:53,718 I feel bad for girls who don't eat. 310 00:14:53,719 --> 00:14:55,845 It always made me sad with Peach. 311 00:14:58,765 --> 00:15:00,350 What? 312 00:15:02,352 --> 00:15:04,562 You're talking about Peach. 313 00:15:04,563 --> 00:15:05,888 It's good. 314 00:15:06,566 --> 00:15:07,932 Yeah. 315 00:15:08,525 --> 00:15:09,901 I guess so. 316 00:15:15,408 --> 00:15:17,025 You know, I, uh, 317 00:15:17,451 --> 00:15:20,412 I had this Little Mermaid sleeping bag when I was a kid. 318 00:15:20,413 --> 00:15:22,747 God, I loved that thing. 319 00:15:22,748 --> 00:15:25,082 But then it started to smell bad, 320 00:15:25,083 --> 00:15:27,918 like, fungus-bad. 321 00:15:27,919 --> 00:15:30,590 I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it, though. 322 00:15:30,615 --> 00:15:32,298 - It was like... - A security blanket. 323 00:15:32,299 --> 00:15:33,708 Exactly. 324 00:15:34,594 --> 00:15:36,302 But then I lost it, 325 00:15:36,303 --> 00:15:39,547 and even though I was sad, 326 00:15:40,057 --> 00:15:42,100 I was kinda relieved because I didn't... 327 00:15:42,101 --> 00:15:45,228 I didn't actually have to get rid of it. 328 00:15:47,606 --> 00:15:50,274 And it's... it's the same with Peach. 329 00:15:50,275 --> 00:15:51,651 There is a part of me... 330 00:15:51,652 --> 00:15:53,612 oh, God, it sounds terrible. 331 00:15:53,613 --> 00:15:56,989 Not that I'm comparing Peach to a cheap, nylon sleeping bag, 332 00:15:56,990 --> 00:15:58,566 I, uh... 333 00:16:00,870 --> 00:16:03,120 This metaphor made a lot more sense 334 00:16:03,121 --> 00:16:04,999 when I came to it with Dr. Nicky. 335 00:16:06,102 --> 00:16:07,792 I think all this Peach stuff is coming up 336 00:16:07,793 --> 00:16:09,919 because of my birthday. 337 00:16:11,379 --> 00:16:12,965 December 3rd. 338 00:16:15,801 --> 00:16:17,301 You remembered? 339 00:16:17,302 --> 00:16:18,628 Of course. 340 00:16:19,639 --> 00:16:21,263 Anyway, 341 00:16:21,264 --> 00:16:25,676 Peach made such a big deal about birthdays. 342 00:16:26,312 --> 00:16:29,605 And she always made sure I felt super special 343 00:16:29,606 --> 00:16:33,059 and would plan the whole thing, and... 344 00:16:33,818 --> 00:16:35,778 now I don't... 345 00:16:35,779 --> 00:16:37,154 I'll handle it. 346 00:16:37,155 --> 00:16:39,157 - No, Joe... - No, what do you want? 347 00:16:39,158 --> 00:16:42,280 A night at the Met? A tasting menu at Momofuku? 348 00:16:42,281 --> 00:16:45,705 Hell, I'll even sing karaoke with Annika and Lynn. 349 00:16:48,333 --> 00:16:50,292 That's sweet, that's really... 350 00:16:50,293 --> 00:16:51,960 Really sweet. 351 00:16:51,961 --> 00:16:53,504 But I... 352 00:16:53,505 --> 00:16:56,549 I think I'd rather keep it low-key and small. 353 00:16:57,884 --> 00:17:01,220 No. No to small, no to low-key. 354 00:17:03,807 --> 00:17:06,726 I don't know, Lynn, Beck was pretty emphatic. 355 00:17:06,727 --> 00:17:10,188 Dude, Beck's a Sagittarius. She craves attention. 356 00:17:10,189 --> 00:17:12,524 This is a test, okay? Part of the fun 357 00:17:12,525 --> 00:17:14,692 is making a guy think that you don't want something 358 00:17:14,693 --> 00:17:16,111 and seeing if he still comes through. 359 00:17:16,112 --> 00:17:17,120 No, Beck's not like that. 360 00:17:17,121 --> 00:17:19,447 Let me give you a little lesson on Beck. 361 00:17:19,448 --> 00:17:21,865 Every year she wants to "keep it simple," 362 00:17:21,866 --> 00:17:24,536 and every year, whatever guy that she's dating 363 00:17:24,537 --> 00:17:28,059 royally blows it, and Peach swoops in on her Manolos 364 00:17:28,060 --> 00:17:30,709 and throws Beck a party for the ages. 365 00:17:30,710 --> 00:17:32,876 Only now, no Peach. 366 00:17:32,877 --> 00:17:34,962 God rest her beautiful soul. 367 00:17:34,963 --> 00:17:37,665 So you're saying throw a party? 368 00:17:38,384 --> 00:17:39,884 I'll help. 369 00:17:41,386 --> 00:17:43,220 I need a distraction. 370 00:17:43,221 --> 00:17:45,388 And I think because I was anxious about this, 371 00:17:45,389 --> 00:17:47,851 my judgment was a little off. 372 00:17:47,852 --> 00:17:50,011 If I bury my sorrows in anymore booze and boys, 373 00:17:50,012 --> 00:17:52,730 I'm gonna get syphilis again. 374 00:17:52,731 --> 00:17:55,691 And Annika is still at Esalen on her grief retreat so... 375 00:17:55,692 --> 00:17:56,920 But she didn't like Peach. 376 00:17:56,921 --> 00:17:58,988 None of us liked Peach. 377 00:18:00,364 --> 00:18:02,190 But we loved her. 378 00:18:03,200 --> 00:18:06,201 Losing a friend is super complicated, Joe. 379 00:18:06,202 --> 00:18:07,537 I need this. 380 00:18:07,538 --> 00:18:09,405 Beck needs it. 381 00:18:10,082 --> 00:18:12,083 Which is why I was stupid enough 382 00:18:12,084 --> 00:18:14,210 to think Renaldo's friends should be listened to, ever. 383 00:18:14,211 --> 00:18:15,502 It'll just be some friends, 384 00:18:15,503 --> 00:18:16,921 some NYU people. 385 00:18:16,922 --> 00:18:19,923 We'll make it a surprise party, hmm? 386 00:18:19,924 --> 00:18:21,468 A book theme, 387 00:18:21,469 --> 00:18:23,052 and everyone can come dressed 388 00:18:23,053 --> 00:18:24,345 as their favorite literary character. 389 00:18:24,346 --> 00:18:25,713 What do you say? 390 00:18:26,432 --> 00:18:27,965 Put it to you this way. 391 00:18:28,933 --> 00:18:31,059 Would you rather do something and be wrong 392 00:18:31,060 --> 00:18:32,803 or nothing and be wrong? 393 00:18:33,439 --> 00:18:34,773 Surprise party. 394 00:18:34,774 --> 00:18:36,441 Hmm, I thought it would cheer him up 395 00:18:36,442 --> 00:18:37,600 after the death of... 396 00:18:38,611 --> 00:18:41,153 his beloved shih tzu. 397 00:18:41,154 --> 00:18:43,356 Get his mind off of things. 398 00:18:43,949 --> 00:18:45,316 And? 399 00:18:46,242 --> 00:18:47,993 Did it? 400 00:18:47,994 --> 00:18:49,997 No, it was the beginning of the end. 401 00:18:51,457 --> 00:18:52,957 Because you threw him a surprise party? 402 00:18:52,958 --> 00:18:54,291 No, no, because that's when I realized 403 00:18:54,292 --> 00:18:56,960 he was cheating on me with his therapist. 404 00:19:13,770 --> 00:19:15,730 Oh, shit, you scared me. 405 00:19:16,898 --> 00:19:18,191 What's all this? 406 00:19:18,192 --> 00:19:20,818 Uh, oh, it's my girlfriend's birthday. 407 00:19:20,819 --> 00:19:22,487 Throwing her a little... well, it's not so little. 408 00:19:22,488 --> 00:19:25,323 It's, um, it's a surprise party. 409 00:19:25,324 --> 00:19:26,740 Kind of a literary theme. 410 00:19:26,741 --> 00:19:28,526 Thus... 411 00:19:30,328 --> 00:19:32,238 I'm going as Ernest Hemingway. 412 00:19:32,873 --> 00:19:34,332 "The Old Man and the Sea," "The Sun Also"... 413 00:19:34,333 --> 00:19:36,534 I know who Hemingway is. 414 00:19:37,711 --> 00:19:39,287 Nice cake. 415 00:19:40,172 --> 00:19:42,258 She's lucky to have a man who cares. 416 00:20:01,359 --> 00:20:05,697 Bacon-wrapped date? Bacon-wrapped date? 417 00:20:05,698 --> 00:20:07,231 Bacon-wrapped date? 418 00:20:08,032 --> 00:20:09,734 Good call. 419 00:20:11,036 --> 00:20:12,202 Bacon-wrapped date? 420 00:20:12,203 --> 00:20:13,502 It's 9:40. 421 00:20:13,503 --> 00:20:15,373 Beck was supposed to be here at 9:00 to meet for dinner. 422 00:20:15,374 --> 00:20:17,291 She'll be here, relax. 423 00:20:17,292 --> 00:20:19,251 You know what you need, my friend, is a drink. 424 00:20:19,252 --> 00:20:20,920 Hey, get this man a Catcher in the Rye. 425 00:20:20,921 --> 00:20:23,463 - No, no, no, it's fine. - She's here. 426 00:20:23,464 --> 00:20:25,842 Everyone hide. Places, people. 427 00:20:25,843 --> 00:20:27,134 Hide! 428 00:20:34,559 --> 00:20:37,312 Surprise! 429 00:20:37,313 --> 00:20:39,354 How American. 430 00:20:42,567 --> 00:20:45,068 Who is that? 431 00:20:45,069 --> 00:20:47,404 That's one of Beck's school friends, 432 00:20:47,405 --> 00:20:49,239 I think, I don't know. 433 00:20:49,240 --> 00:20:50,365 I'm texting her. 434 00:20:50,366 --> 00:20:51,742 _ 435 00:20:58,375 --> 00:20:59,918 What? 436 00:21:05,465 --> 00:21:09,427 Rude to stare, especially in Asian cultures. 437 00:21:09,428 --> 00:21:11,930 Mr. Darcy, I take it? 438 00:21:11,931 --> 00:21:14,306 - Indeed. - Predictable. 439 00:21:14,307 --> 00:21:16,099 Says Elizabeth Bennet. 440 00:21:16,100 --> 00:21:17,602 Ugh, god, no. Dorothea Brooke. 441 00:21:17,603 --> 00:21:18,978 "Middlemarch"? 442 00:21:18,979 --> 00:21:20,939 Named my shelter cat after George Eliot. 443 00:21:20,940 --> 00:21:22,682 I love her. 444 00:21:23,275 --> 00:21:25,347 - The cat or the author? - Both. 445 00:21:26,444 --> 00:21:27,945 Meow. 446 00:21:32,910 --> 00:21:34,201 Hi, hey, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, 447 00:21:34,202 --> 00:21:35,702 can we chat for a second? 448 00:21:35,703 --> 00:21:38,288 Oh, Joe, Joe, this is Constantine. 449 00:21:38,289 --> 00:21:40,208 He lives in Bushwick. 450 00:21:41,669 --> 00:21:43,544 That's fine. Where the hell is Beck? 451 00:21:43,545 --> 00:21:45,337 Do you wanna touch his moustache? 452 00:21:45,338 --> 00:21:46,964 No, no, no, Lynn, no, Lynn. 453 00:21:46,965 --> 00:21:48,466 I don't wanna touch his moustache. 454 00:21:48,467 --> 00:21:49,968 - Joe. - I don't get it. 455 00:21:49,969 --> 00:21:51,469 I've tried to be the perfect boyfriend. 456 00:21:51,470 --> 00:21:54,346 I've bent over backwards. I gave her a job. 457 00:21:54,347 --> 00:21:56,048 I threw her this party. 458 00:21:56,474 --> 00:21:59,477 - What else can I do? - People are puzzling. 459 00:21:59,478 --> 00:22:01,019 Peach committed suicide, 460 00:22:01,020 --> 00:22:03,480 and she's the strongest person I know... knew. 461 00:22:03,481 --> 00:22:05,650 Beck isn't just puzzling, she's impossible. 462 00:22:05,651 --> 00:22:07,652 Like, where is she right now? 463 00:22:07,653 --> 00:22:09,403 It's selfish. 464 00:22:09,404 --> 00:22:11,489 It's rude, but it's Beck... 465 00:22:11,490 --> 00:22:12,990 - Joe. - And tha... 466 00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:16,243 Oh, shit. 467 00:22:16,244 --> 00:22:17,663 Hi... hey! 468 00:22:19,038 --> 00:22:20,999 Can I speak to you for a sec? 469 00:22:24,752 --> 00:22:26,754 Joe, this is not what I asked for. 470 00:22:26,755 --> 00:22:30,341 I said quiet, and I said small. 471 00:22:30,342 --> 00:22:31,592 Lynn said... 472 00:22:31,593 --> 00:22:33,010 Oh, now you're listening to Lynn? 473 00:22:33,011 --> 00:22:36,305 In retrospect, a misfire. 474 00:22:36,306 --> 00:22:37,681 Why are you wearing a turtleneck? 475 00:22:37,682 --> 00:22:39,726 I'm Hemingway... again, misfire. 476 00:22:39,727 --> 00:22:42,103 Look, I appreciate the gesture, 477 00:22:42,104 --> 00:22:45,355 I just... I can't be at a party 478 00:22:45,356 --> 00:22:47,275 and pretend that everything is okay without Peach. 479 00:22:47,276 --> 00:22:48,942 I am not a robot. 480 00:22:48,943 --> 00:22:50,361 Well, what about the other day, 481 00:22:50,362 --> 00:22:52,529 the relief you talked about? 482 00:22:52,530 --> 00:22:54,574 Grief isn't a straight line, Joe. 483 00:22:54,575 --> 00:22:57,410 I know, you've just been hard to read lately. 484 00:22:57,411 --> 00:22:58,911 What is that supposed to mean? 485 00:23:02,249 --> 00:23:03,749 Where were you? 486 00:23:03,750 --> 00:23:05,375 - Sorry? - Beck, I called. 487 00:23:05,376 --> 00:23:07,420 - I texted you. - Yeah, I know. 488 00:23:07,421 --> 00:23:10,006 I just... my, um... 489 00:23:10,007 --> 00:23:12,717 my therapy session ran long. 490 00:23:12,718 --> 00:23:16,762 Dr. Nicky and I were really making some headway. 491 00:23:16,763 --> 00:23:19,556 And then I guess I just... I went for a walk, and... 492 00:23:19,557 --> 00:23:21,392 You guess? 493 00:23:21,393 --> 00:23:23,518 - Therapy and a walk? - Yes. 494 00:23:23,519 --> 00:23:25,563 Then why do you smell like three glasses of rosé? 495 00:23:25,564 --> 00:23:28,607 Because I sat down at some stupid bar with my journal 496 00:23:28,608 --> 00:23:30,735 trying to work through shit, Joe, that's it. 497 00:23:30,736 --> 00:23:32,069 Okay so, then, why didn't you call me? 498 00:23:32,070 --> 00:23:33,377 I forgot. 499 00:23:33,378 --> 00:23:35,948 But it's your birthday, Beck, we made dinner plans. 500 00:23:35,949 --> 00:23:37,240 Well, I... I just... 501 00:23:37,241 --> 00:23:39,360 I lost track of time. 502 00:23:45,250 --> 00:23:46,751 Beck, just tell me. 503 00:23:48,420 --> 00:23:49,754 Just tell me. 504 00:23:50,549 --> 00:23:52,592 Tell me the truth, 505 00:23:52,799 --> 00:23:55,000 and we can get through anything. 506 00:23:59,597 --> 00:24:00,931 Okay, well, if you can't tell me, 507 00:24:00,932 --> 00:24:02,099 then show me, show me your phone. 508 00:24:05,604 --> 00:24:07,646 Are... are you serious right now? 509 00:24:07,647 --> 00:24:09,606 You said yourself, you have a hard time with good guys. 510 00:24:09,607 --> 00:24:10,775 What are you talking about? 511 00:24:10,776 --> 00:24:11,776 The hootsie stuff. 512 00:24:13,278 --> 00:24:15,779 Okay, I'm... okay, fine. 513 00:24:15,780 --> 00:24:17,423 You wanna see my phone? 514 00:24:18,450 --> 00:24:20,117 Have at it. 515 00:24:20,118 --> 00:24:21,451 But if you do this, it means there is 516 00:24:21,452 --> 00:24:23,996 absolutely no trust between us, 517 00:24:23,997 --> 00:24:26,750 and if we don't have trust, we have nothing. 518 00:24:28,335 --> 00:24:29,960 Do you trust me? 519 00:24:34,340 --> 00:24:36,008 You know what, I can't... 520 00:24:36,009 --> 00:24:37,426 I can't do this right now. 521 00:24:39,016 --> 00:24:41,394 Happy birthday to me. 522 00:25:18,844 --> 00:25:20,378 With his therapist? 523 00:25:21,737 --> 00:25:24,848 You sure? That's a pretty heavy accusation. 524 00:25:27,227 --> 00:25:28,761 How do you know? 525 00:25:29,563 --> 00:25:31,021 Experience. 526 00:25:31,022 --> 00:25:32,306 Candace. 527 00:25:33,150 --> 00:25:34,691 There are certain tells you can just... 528 00:25:34,692 --> 00:25:37,194 you can see it in their eyes when they look at you. 529 00:25:37,195 --> 00:25:38,938 Been cheated on before? 530 00:25:39,740 --> 00:25:41,656 In my last relationship. 531 00:25:41,657 --> 00:25:43,867 I was blind, I only saw what I wanted to see, 532 00:25:43,868 --> 00:25:46,037 but I didn't make that mistake again. 533 00:25:46,038 --> 00:25:47,571 This time, I made sure... 534 00:25:49,374 --> 00:25:50,950 that Renaldo was different. 535 00:25:52,877 --> 00:25:55,630 So I knew if he was lying or cheating, 536 00:25:55,631 --> 00:25:57,839 someone was using him. 537 00:25:59,843 --> 00:26:01,719 Look, I'm not... I'm not one of those shrinks 538 00:26:01,720 --> 00:26:03,086 that are obsessed with the past, 539 00:26:03,087 --> 00:26:05,377 but I think in this case, we should take a look. 540 00:26:05,378 --> 00:26:07,349 Why don't you tell me about your childhood? 541 00:26:07,350 --> 00:26:09,500 Look, I mean, but we're not here to talk about my childhood, right? 542 00:26:09,501 --> 00:26:10,940 We're talking about my relationship. 543 00:26:10,941 --> 00:26:14,359 Which ended because... a surprise party? 544 00:26:14,360 --> 00:26:16,401 No, that's not when it ended. 545 00:26:20,655 --> 00:26:22,906 I brought you a donut. 546 00:26:27,621 --> 00:26:29,454 It's glazed. 547 00:26:33,501 --> 00:26:34,751 Wait, wait, hold up, hold up. 548 00:26:34,752 --> 00:26:36,628 So you're just back together 549 00:26:36,629 --> 00:26:37,963 regardless of your suspicions? 550 00:26:37,964 --> 00:26:39,382 Eh, didn't matter. 551 00:26:39,383 --> 00:26:41,083 That was the past. 552 00:26:41,759 --> 00:26:43,928 All right, so what happened next? 553 00:26:43,929 --> 00:26:45,930 Things were good at first. 554 00:26:45,931 --> 00:26:47,597 But then it started to feel like something was different. 555 00:26:47,598 --> 00:26:50,977 I feel like I'm hungrier than sushi. 556 00:26:50,978 --> 00:26:53,770 - Okay, pizza? - Too saucy. 557 00:26:53,771 --> 00:26:54,771 Okay, Thai? 558 00:26:54,772 --> 00:26:56,941 We had Thai for lunch. 559 00:27:02,280 --> 00:27:05,240 Why do I always have to pick? 560 00:27:06,867 --> 00:27:08,786 It's okay. 561 00:27:08,787 --> 00:27:10,287 I'll choose. 562 00:27:10,288 --> 00:27:12,832 You're a snob, Connor. 563 00:27:12,833 --> 00:27:16,626 It's a horrible feeling to know things have gone wrong 564 00:27:16,627 --> 00:27:18,586 and there's nothing you can do to change it. 565 00:27:18,587 --> 00:27:20,088 George, I'm going to. 566 00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:35,020 Mm, falafel. 567 00:27:38,900 --> 00:27:42,978 You know something or someone has come between you, 568 00:27:43,696 --> 00:27:45,898 but I had to be sure. 569 00:27:46,741 --> 00:27:49,201 I'll see you after class, okay? 570 00:27:49,202 --> 00:27:50,368 Okay, bye. 571 00:28:03,358 --> 00:28:05,804 _ 572 00:28:05,844 --> 00:28:09,681 Heart, heart, heart. 573 00:28:29,326 --> 00:28:31,368 I wanted to be wrong. 574 00:28:31,369 --> 00:28:34,079 I never wanted to be wrong so badly 575 00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:36,082 in my life. 576 00:28:36,083 --> 00:28:38,334 I was begging to be proven wrong. 577 00:28:45,030 --> 00:28:47,030 _ 578 00:28:47,176 --> 00:28:48,885 But it was looking like I was right. 579 00:28:56,936 --> 00:28:58,895 You trust someone, 580 00:28:58,896 --> 00:29:00,806 you give them your heart, 581 00:29:01,817 --> 00:29:03,566 and what do they do? 582 00:29:03,567 --> 00:29:06,444 Is there even a punishment that fits 583 00:29:06,445 --> 00:29:09,739 the crime of lying, of manipulating like this, 584 00:29:09,740 --> 00:29:11,984 of breaking someone's heart? 585 00:29:12,868 --> 00:29:15,453 I guess I'm bad at picking good people, 586 00:29:15,454 --> 00:29:18,415 but I'm good at catching bad people red-handed. 587 00:29:31,805 --> 00:29:33,431 Are you following me? 588 00:29:40,646 --> 00:29:43,524 Answer me right now. Were you following me? 589 00:29:43,525 --> 00:29:46,152 No, no, no. I was in the neighborhood. 590 00:29:46,153 --> 00:29:48,278 And then I... I saw you. 591 00:29:48,279 --> 00:29:50,449 God, stop lying. 592 00:29:52,116 --> 00:29:56,077 You know, just tell me why. Why, Joe? 593 00:29:56,078 --> 00:29:57,954 It's the being late, 594 00:29:57,955 --> 00:29:59,164 the secret texts. 595 00:29:59,165 --> 00:30:00,207 You've been different, Beck. 596 00:30:00,208 --> 00:30:01,749 You're being crazy. 597 00:30:01,750 --> 00:30:03,252 Are you sleeping with him? 598 00:30:03,705 --> 00:30:04,749 Who? 599 00:30:06,298 --> 00:30:07,422 Your therapist. 600 00:30:07,423 --> 00:30:08,883 Oh, my God. 601 00:30:08,884 --> 00:30:10,800 Are you? I need to know. I want to know. 602 00:30:10,801 --> 00:30:13,804 No! I am not sleeping with him. 603 00:30:13,805 --> 00:30:14,846 Who's the fox? 604 00:30:14,847 --> 00:30:15,931 What? 605 00:30:15,932 --> 00:30:18,851 The fox. The fox, Beck! 606 00:30:18,852 --> 00:30:22,104 My friend, Emma Fox, from Brown. 607 00:30:22,105 --> 00:30:23,730 But I guess that wasn't readily apparent 608 00:30:23,731 --> 00:30:26,066 on the text from my phone, huh? 609 00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:33,281 - Beck... - Just don't. 610 00:30:33,282 --> 00:30:34,866 Joe, I told you. 611 00:30:34,867 --> 00:30:38,037 If we don't have trust, we have nothing. 612 00:30:38,038 --> 00:30:40,207 I know, I know, I'm sorry. 613 00:30:41,540 --> 00:30:42,541 Me too. 614 00:30:45,045 --> 00:30:48,005 You and I are over. 615 00:31:06,650 --> 00:31:08,183 And that... 616 00:31:09,236 --> 00:31:11,019 that's when it ended. 617 00:31:11,488 --> 00:31:13,198 That's one hell of a story. 618 00:31:15,491 --> 00:31:16,700 What's your diagnosis? 619 00:31:16,701 --> 00:31:18,117 My diagnosis? 620 00:31:18,118 --> 00:31:20,120 Yeah, yeah, what do you make of it all? 621 00:31:20,121 --> 00:31:22,206 Well, you might think I'm crazy 622 00:31:22,207 --> 00:31:24,616 'cause I've only known you 48 minutes, but... 623 00:31:25,710 --> 00:31:27,744 I think there's two of you... 624 00:31:28,462 --> 00:31:30,297 two Paul Browns. 625 00:31:30,298 --> 00:31:33,508 One has been hurt in the past. 626 00:31:33,509 --> 00:31:35,177 You feel betrayed and hopeless. 627 00:31:35,178 --> 00:31:37,345 But the other one has faith, 628 00:31:37,346 --> 00:31:41,049 and in spite of the evidence to the contrary, 629 00:31:41,809 --> 00:31:43,969 he believes true love exists. 630 00:31:44,895 --> 00:31:47,021 And that is someone I think I can help. 631 00:31:51,987 --> 00:31:53,862 Our time is up now, but I... 632 00:31:53,863 --> 00:31:56,574 I would, uh, sure be down to seeing you again if you'd like. 633 00:32:02,122 --> 00:32:03,454 I don't think so. 634 00:32:17,804 --> 00:32:21,431 Everything I do, I do to protect you, Beck. 635 00:32:30,608 --> 00:32:33,235 Peach, Benji... they left me no choice. 636 00:32:33,236 --> 00:32:35,112 They were dangerous. 637 00:32:42,077 --> 00:32:44,329 I think you might be in danger again. 638 00:33:06,102 --> 00:33:09,262 But I need absolute proof first. 639 00:33:10,856 --> 00:33:12,191 And these days, 640 00:33:12,192 --> 00:33:14,184 the quickest way to a man's truth 641 00:33:15,487 --> 00:33:17,854 is through his computer. 642 00:33:26,830 --> 00:33:28,907 And if I find what I'm looking for, 643 00:33:30,710 --> 00:33:33,211 Dr. Nicky will be handled. 644 00:33:51,772 --> 00:33:54,650 I mean, he followed me. 645 00:33:54,651 --> 00:33:57,487 That's just... it's not okay. 646 00:33:57,894 --> 00:34:00,322 I get it, you feel violated. 647 00:34:00,323 --> 00:34:01,864 Pretend I'm Joe. 648 00:34:01,865 --> 00:34:03,650 What would you say to him right now? 649 00:34:05,202 --> 00:34:08,029 The more you want me, the less I want you. 650 00:34:08,915 --> 00:34:11,867 I know, it's messed up, but it's true. 651 00:34:14,087 --> 00:34:16,713 Of course you think I'm hiding shit. 652 00:34:16,714 --> 00:34:18,415 I am... 653 00:34:19,591 --> 00:34:24,637 hiding what a complete, ugly mess I am. 654 00:34:24,638 --> 00:34:27,141 Behind this, like, cute, 655 00:34:27,142 --> 00:34:30,184 acceptable version of being a mess, it's insane. 656 00:34:32,479 --> 00:34:34,273 I haven't dealt with this shit 657 00:34:34,274 --> 00:34:36,587 that went on with me and Peach, 658 00:34:36,588 --> 00:34:39,769 or my dad, or Benji. 659 00:34:40,654 --> 00:34:42,572 And instead of putting it into my writing, 660 00:34:42,573 --> 00:34:44,949 I'm hibernating with you. 661 00:34:50,165 --> 00:34:52,123 And I resent you for it. 662 00:34:54,544 --> 00:34:57,713 I need space to heal, 663 00:34:57,714 --> 00:35:00,923 but every time I turn around, you're standing there, 664 00:35:00,924 --> 00:35:03,552 ready to make it all okay. 665 00:35:03,553 --> 00:35:05,929 But only I can do that. 666 00:35:09,350 --> 00:35:11,559 And if you really love me, 667 00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:13,011 you'll see that. 668 00:35:15,939 --> 00:35:17,453 You'll let me go. 669 00:35:25,825 --> 00:35:27,409 Are you afraid you might be pushing away 670 00:35:27,410 --> 00:35:29,110 a good thing, Beck? 671 00:35:29,111 --> 00:35:31,530 Do you think Joe might be good for you? 672 00:35:32,499 --> 00:35:33,823 Maybe. 673 00:35:34,417 --> 00:35:35,992 But it's what I need. 674 00:35:41,049 --> 00:35:43,800 That doesn't sound like an illicit affair. 675 00:35:43,801 --> 00:35:45,885 That sounds like 676 00:35:45,886 --> 00:35:48,722 a messed-up girl in a crisis 677 00:35:48,723 --> 00:35:51,603 and a pretty decent therapist she's lucky to have. 678 00:35:55,854 --> 00:35:58,523 It also sounds like 679 00:35:58,524 --> 00:36:01,902 you were right to end it with me. 680 00:36:06,950 --> 00:36:11,528 I was wrong about all of it. 681 00:36:12,037 --> 00:36:14,664 The only thing I wasn't wrong about 682 00:36:14,665 --> 00:36:16,408 was loving you. 683 00:36:17,752 --> 00:36:20,545 So, I'm letting you go. 684 00:36:38,522 --> 00:36:39,523 Hey. 685 00:36:39,524 --> 00:36:40,807 Hi. 686 00:36:41,526 --> 00:36:43,402 Thanks for opening the door, 687 00:36:43,403 --> 00:36:45,186 all things considered. 688 00:36:45,863 --> 00:36:49,240 Uh, look, there are a million things 689 00:36:49,241 --> 00:36:51,326 I could say right now, 690 00:36:51,327 --> 00:36:54,747 but all that matters is, I'm sorry. 691 00:36:55,915 --> 00:36:57,407 Thank you. 692 00:36:58,250 --> 00:37:00,211 Jealousy got the best of me. 693 00:37:02,589 --> 00:37:05,340 And I, uh, I was... I was threatened 694 00:37:05,341 --> 00:37:08,802 that you needed someone to talk to who wasn't me. 695 00:37:08,803 --> 00:37:10,720 And I know you deserve that. 696 00:37:10,721 --> 00:37:12,598 You deserve to figure your stuff out. 697 00:37:14,225 --> 00:37:15,766 And if I was a smarter man, 698 00:37:15,767 --> 00:37:20,013 maybe I wouldn't let you go, but, um, 699 00:37:20,397 --> 00:37:22,432 I'm guessing that's what you need, 700 00:37:23,066 --> 00:37:24,601 so I will. 701 00:37:34,995 --> 00:37:37,748 Goodbye, Beck. 702 00:37:45,756 --> 00:37:47,507 Goodbye, Joe. 703 00:37:50,428 --> 00:37:53,472 Turns out, it is like the movies. 704 00:37:53,473 --> 00:37:57,099 The second it's over, all you can remember 705 00:37:57,100 --> 00:37:59,769 is the stuff that made you fall in love, 706 00:37:59,770 --> 00:38:01,646 blazing through your mind, 707 00:38:01,647 --> 00:38:05,316 this rom-com montage made of the sweetest poison. 708 00:38:05,317 --> 00:38:08,487 Everythingship. 709 00:38:08,488 --> 00:38:10,072 I love that. 710 00:38:10,073 --> 00:38:11,782 I'd never felt this way before, 711 00:38:11,783 --> 00:38:14,943 where you love the bad things about someone 712 00:38:16,486 --> 00:38:18,789 as much as the good. 713 00:38:20,374 --> 00:38:22,626 Maybe even a little more. 714 00:38:24,629 --> 00:38:27,589 Love isn't a strong enough word. 715 00:38:29,549 --> 00:38:32,469 Sometimes, it scares me 716 00:38:32,470 --> 00:38:34,470 to love someone so completely 717 00:38:34,471 --> 00:38:36,472 and not have them love you back. 718 00:38:40,060 --> 00:38:41,978 I'm happy to see you here. 719 00:38:41,979 --> 00:38:44,514 I didn't think you'd come back after our last session. 720 00:38:45,024 --> 00:38:47,191 Well, that's the thing, I... 721 00:38:47,192 --> 00:38:50,487 I don't understand it. 722 00:38:50,488 --> 00:38:51,822 That's why I'm here. 723 00:38:51,823 --> 00:38:53,322 - What don't you understand? - Love. 724 00:38:54,908 --> 00:38:57,527 You and 7 billion other people on this planet. 725 00:38:58,287 --> 00:39:00,831 If we understood love, I'd be out of a job. 726 00:39:00,832 --> 00:39:03,458 I have to say it's sort of unique to everybody, 727 00:39:03,459 --> 00:39:07,045 like a fingerprint, or a strand of DNA, 728 00:39:07,046 --> 00:39:09,631 or the song you lost your virginity to. 729 00:39:11,633 --> 00:39:13,877 "Hungry Like the Wolf." 730 00:39:19,517 --> 00:39:22,184 Some people have a hard time letting love in. 731 00:39:24,682 --> 00:39:27,098 Some people are built for love. 732 00:39:28,609 --> 00:39:32,278 And some people are searching, 733 00:39:32,279 --> 00:39:34,197 searching for someone who can love them 734 00:39:34,198 --> 00:39:35,815 in the way that they deserve. 735 00:39:36,616 --> 00:39:38,577 That's you. 736 00:39:38,578 --> 00:39:40,369 You look like shit. 737 00:39:40,370 --> 00:39:41,613 Thanks. 738 00:39:41,997 --> 00:39:43,656 What happened? 739 00:39:44,082 --> 00:39:47,168 My girlfriend dumped me, all right? 740 00:39:47,169 --> 00:39:49,379 So if you don't mind... 741 00:40:20,912 --> 00:40:22,529 Mm. 742 00:40:23,330 --> 00:40:25,374 I love you, Joe. 743 00:40:27,752 --> 00:40:29,795 Your face! 744 00:40:29,796 --> 00:40:31,253 Oh, my God, I was just messing with you. 745 00:40:31,254 --> 00:40:33,255 Oh... 746 00:41:01,327 --> 00:41:03,244 Are you gonna leave Beck alone? 747 00:41:04,412 --> 00:41:06,289 Or will she end up like me?