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(BIRDS CHIRPING)
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You're here early. Trouble sleeping?
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No. Just wanted to get out
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of my apartment and to work.
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We work you plenty hard enough. Go home.
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Making sure you're rested
is also part of the job.
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I understand.
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What should I tell a patient
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if they don't think they're sick
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but I think they have pancreatic cancer?
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You think one of our patients
has pancreatic cancer?
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(BURPS)
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Seventeen.
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He's burped 17 times
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in 10 minutes.
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It's a frequent symptom
of pancreatic cancer.
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Shaun, it's acid reflux.
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He's also jaundiced.
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No, he isn't.
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Paul's skin is definitely not
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the same color it was six months ago.
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- Paul?
- I looked at his mouth
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when he was telling me
about his daughter.
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- She just...
- Walk with me.
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(QUIETLY) Say nothing.
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Hey, Shaun.
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(NORMAL VOICE) Do a CVC, CMP,
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amylase, lipase, CA-19 levels,
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and CT abdomen,
pelvis pancreatic protocol,
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and do not tell him why.
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You want me to lie?
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I don't want you to tell the truth.
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The discoloration, if there
is any, is very minor.
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I don't want you scaring the crap
out of the man over nothing.
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Excellent. I've been practicing lying.
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I lied to you before when I said
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I just wanted to get out
of my apartment and to work.
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Take Claire.
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Hello. I'm Dr. Lim.
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How can I help you today...
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Asha?
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I want plastic surgery.
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Sweetheart, this is the Emergency Room.
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If you want, I can make
an appointment for you...
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Well, you do vaginal rejuvenation, right?
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Yes...
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On much older, much vainer women,
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generally after having many children.
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I don't know what the
boys have told you...
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Examine me.
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Please.
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Please take off your underwear.
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(SOMBER MUSIC PLAYS)
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Were you in an accident?
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No.
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Can you help me?
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- Did your father do this to you?
- No.
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- Please just...
- Did your mother...
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- I need to know who did this to you.
- No, you don't!
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It doesn't matter who...
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(INHALES DEEPLY)
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When I was 2 years old...
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I was... Tied down,
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and I was circumcised.
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(VOICE BREAKING) Please.
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I'm hideous.
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Will you help me?
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Yes.
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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
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Why do you need to confirm
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a diagnosis of acid reflux?
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Because we're doctors. It's what we do.
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We just like to be sure of everything.
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There are a few remote possibilities...
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I've got this!
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Are you familiar with
the hospital employee manual
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section 17, subsection C, triple I?
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- No.
- Good.
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- Good?
- Yes.
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It requires that all employees
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shall be subject to,
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and I quote,
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"Any and all possible necessary tests
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"to confirm any and all diagnoses,
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"no matter how mundane,
the cost of which tests
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"shall be borne by
the hospital," end quote.
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The Board wants to make sure
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that no one is exposed to patients
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if there is any chance that they have
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any communicable condition.
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I had the flu last week.
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Why didn't anybody
do anything for me then?
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- It's a new policy.
- You might have pancreatic cancer.
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What?
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What'd he say?
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Female genital mutilation
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is the ritual cutting
or removal of some, or all,
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of the external female genitalia.
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Over 200 million victims worldwide.
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It is almost universally practiced
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in a number of African
and Asian countries.
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Where was she born?
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Wisconsin. (EXHALES DEEPLY)
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Yeah, it's way more common
here than you think.
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- What religion is she?
- I didn't ask.
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This isn't about religion.
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No legit religious organization
endorses this stuff.
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We're gonna do the labiaplasty
first thing in the morning.
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The damage done to her nerves
is not going to get undone,
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nor is the psych damage,
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but at least she'll
look like other girls.
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We should be able to have her out of here
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by 6:00 in the evening.
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Outpatient? Why the hurry?
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So her mother will simply
think she's in school,
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then out studying with her friends.
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She loves her parents
and doesn't want to tell them
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that she's rejecting one
of their cultural traditions.
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They won't stay in the dark for long,
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since we're legally obligated
to report them.
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That "cultural tradition" also fits
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- the definition of abuse.
- And they'll also find out when we ask
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for their permission to do this surgery.
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She's a minor.
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Her ID says she's 18.
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Yes, her fake ID
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says she's 18.
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Her number starts with an "H," which
means she was born in the '50s.
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Also, the photo background
is green instead of blue.
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- Also six other things.
- (SIGHS)
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Maybe we can get Legal
to get a court order...
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If I believe that ID is real,
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then I am entitled
to perform this surgery
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without seeking consent of
anyone other than the patient.
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And, as legally required within 36 hours,
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I will report the evidence of abuse
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under the name and address
listed on that ID.
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If the investigation of that report
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doesn't begin until the girl is long gone
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and happens to lead nowhere
because the name wasn't real,
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that's no fault of mine.
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Are you sure you want
to risk your medical license
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to protect an abusive mother?
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If we do this by the book,
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we never see that girl again
and no one gets help.
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If we do this by the book, maybe
the cops lock the parents up.
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We shine a light on this thing,
her community gets scared,
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and maybe the next girl
doesn't need our help.
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Or maybe the testimony of the girl
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about what happened to her when she was 2
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doesn't help the cops at all.
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Maybe the parents just
take their daughter home,
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and maybe we scare the next girl
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into not even asking for help.
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I'm doing the surgery to this girl
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under this name
tomorrow morning at 7:00 a.m.
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I can't believe people ever lie.
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There are so many questions
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people might ask you,
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but if you tell the truth,
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you already know the answers.
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And, also, it's wrong.
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But sometimes,
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you shouldn't tell the whole truth?
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No. Of course not.
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Because that lets you be honorable
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and tell the truth and be a good person,
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but at the same time,
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you get to completely deceive the person.
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- No, I don't think that...
- Lea came back.
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Wow, Shaun, that's great.
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She's staying with me
until she finds her own place.
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You must be so excited.
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Yes.
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You're not excited?
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I said, "Yes."
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Paul has one year to live.
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He has pancreatic cancer.
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Stage III.
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There are no metastatic
lesions, but there are
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- local nodes involved.
- And there's partial encasement
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of the superior mesenteric artery.
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That puts it past the point
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where we can cure with local resection.
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We could do Whipple surgery.
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That's not advised for
stage III pancreatic cancer.
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Not quite. It's not advised for stage IV.
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For stage III, it's discretionary.
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- (BOOK THUDS)
- In my discretion,
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he's better off with
12 semi-comfortable months,
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rather than running the risk of
dying on the table tomorrow.
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If he doesn't die on the table,
he could have many years.
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CLAIRE: It isn't our call to make.
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I'll talk to Paul,
advise him of the parameters,
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let him make his own decision.
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No.
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Shaun should do it.
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Claire can do it.
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Yes, she can,
which is why you should do it.
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This is a teaching hospital.
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Andrews is right...
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Being a surgeon isn't just about cutting.
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Would it be okay
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if we spoke someplace more quiet?
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You need someplace quiet
to tell me I have acid reflux?
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I think we should be someplace quiet
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because people sometimes get very upset
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when they find out
they probably only have
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less than a year to live.
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Okay, uh...
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Can I call my family?
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They should probably hear
what you have to say, too.
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I'd rather just talk to...
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Of course you can.
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DR. LIM: I'll elevate it with
a 6-inch Ambler tissue hook.
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You separate the underlying
tissue with iris forceps.
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DR. REZNICK: I got it. Tenotomy scissors.
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I think we're actually
a little ahead of schedule.
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Might be able to get her home
in time to do her homework.
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Back to the bosom of her loving family.
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We'd remove as much
of the cancer as possible
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by removing the head of the pancreas
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and other attached organs,
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but then, we'd have to
reconstruct the anatomy.
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The easiest way to do that
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is to bring up a loop of jejunum...
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Shaun.
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Sorry.
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The jejunum is part
of the small intestine
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between the duodenum and ileum.
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It's complicated, very dangerous surgery.
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And even if it's successful,
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post-operative complications
are frequent and serious.
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And recovery can be very painful.
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But if it works, he's better?
He'll be healthy?
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He would still need chemotherapy
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and a lifetime of monitoring.
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But hopefully, a long lifetime.
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Let's do it, Dad.
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What do you say?
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What should I do?
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It's your decision.
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All we can do
is present you with the facts.
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Yeah, here are the facts, Dad...
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The surgery may kill you.
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Not doing the surgery will kill you.
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Can you give us a few minutes?
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Of course.
269
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♪
270
00:12:29,641 --> 00:12:30,951
(LIQUID POURS)
271
00:12:30,976 --> 00:12:32,587
♪
272
00:12:32,612 --> 00:12:35,184
It was very nice of Dr. Andrews
to give you an office,
273
00:12:35,209 --> 00:12:36,853
even though, you're on medical leave.
274
00:12:36,878 --> 00:12:38,423
Yeah, he is a prince.
275
00:12:38,448 --> 00:12:40,125
Who's your surgeon going to be?
276
00:12:40,150 --> 00:12:41,350
I haven't d...
277
00:12:42,188 --> 00:12:43,555
I haven't decided yet.
278
00:12:44,778 --> 00:12:46,756
You should definitely go with
279
00:12:46,986 --> 00:12:50,165
Dr. Joshua Atkinson
at Stanford Medical Center.
280
00:12:50,190 --> 00:12:52,235
His mortality index is .3.
281
00:12:52,260 --> 00:12:53,735
It's too low.
282
00:12:53,760 --> 00:12:56,272
Not enough of his patients are dying?
283
00:12:56,297 --> 00:12:58,341
No, Shaun, sometimes patients die.
284
00:12:58,366 --> 00:12:59,844
Doesn't matter how good the doctor is.
285
00:12:59,869 --> 00:13:02,797
But when your mortality rate
is as low as Atkinson's,
286
00:13:02,797 --> 00:13:04,775
it means you're turning away patients.
287
00:13:04,799 --> 00:13:06,877
You turn away patients,
it means you lack confidence.
288
00:13:06,901 --> 00:13:10,106
You lack confidence, I don't
want you inside my head.
289
00:13:10,131 --> 00:13:12,510
And I'd like to be able to dress myself
290
00:13:12,535 --> 00:13:13,902
when I'm all done.
291
00:13:15,737 --> 00:13:18,382
Shaun, what are you doing here?
292
00:13:18,407 --> 00:13:21,453
You showed up at work early this morning.
293
00:13:21,478 --> 00:13:23,412
Go home. Get some rest.
294
00:13:26,567 --> 00:13:28,802
I won't rest if I go home.
295
00:13:37,392 --> 00:13:38,859
The surgery went great.
296
00:13:39,562 --> 00:13:40,906
Once everything's healed, I think
297
00:13:40,931 --> 00:13:43,376
you'll be very happy with the results.
298
00:13:43,691 --> 00:13:46,562
- What time is it?
- Not quite 5:45.
299
00:13:46,563 --> 00:13:47,706
We just need you to pee, and...
300
00:13:47,730 --> 00:13:49,141
I need to go home.
301
00:13:49,165 --> 00:13:51,510
And you will... very soon.
302
00:13:51,534 --> 00:13:53,154
(EXHALES SHARPLY)
303
00:13:53,154 --> 00:13:55,699
- It hurts.
- I told you it would.
304
00:13:55,723 --> 00:13:57,634
We did a lot of cutting and scraping.
305
00:13:57,658 --> 00:13:59,503
You had a lot of scar tissue.
306
00:13:59,527 --> 00:14:00,804
It hurts a lot.
307
00:14:00,828 --> 00:14:02,272
We'll give you some Tylenol,
308
00:14:02,296 --> 00:14:04,174
and you can tell your mother
you're cramping.
309
00:14:04,198 --> 00:14:06,076
(GRUNTS) Ow!
310
00:14:06,100 --> 00:14:07,678
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
311
00:14:07,702 --> 00:14:10,503
Hang ketamine... 130 micrograms
per kilogram per hour.
312
00:14:13,507 --> 00:14:14,985
Why does it hurt this much?
313
00:14:15,009 --> 00:14:16,209
I don't know.
314
00:14:17,345 --> 00:14:18,645
But you're not going home.
315
00:14:19,420 --> 00:14:20,586
Ow!
316
00:14:24,101 --> 00:14:25,946
She's heavily sedated.
317
00:14:25,970 --> 00:14:27,447
What did we do to her?
318
00:14:27,471 --> 00:14:29,105
What if this is good news?
319
00:14:30,341 --> 00:14:32,552
I know you haven't been
a doctor all that long,
320
00:14:32,576 --> 00:14:34,621
but pain is rarely a sign of good news.
321
00:14:34,645 --> 00:14:36,456
It is if you're talking about
a part of the body
322
00:14:36,480 --> 00:14:38,225
you thought was dead.
323
00:14:38,249 --> 00:14:40,894
What if this means there's still
viable nerve endings in there?
324
00:14:40,918 --> 00:14:43,053
What if this means we can
actually reconstruct her clitoris
325
00:14:43,077 --> 00:14:44,854
and that it's capable of sensation?
326
00:14:45,228 --> 00:14:47,106
Maybe. All we know for sure
327
00:14:47,131 --> 00:14:48,976
is she's not gonna be home
anywhere near 6:00,
328
00:14:49,001 --> 00:14:51,436
which means we're about to have
a missing child on our hands.
329
00:14:52,510 --> 00:14:54,355
We have to bring Andrews up to speed.
330
00:14:54,380 --> 00:14:56,381
♪
331
00:15:08,072 --> 00:15:10,618
I did a bad job of telling you
332
00:15:10,643 --> 00:15:12,186
that you're dying.
333
00:15:15,820 --> 00:15:17,388
Is there a good way?
334
00:15:17,936 --> 00:15:21,249
I can't figure out
when I'm supposed to lie,
335
00:15:21,274 --> 00:15:24,090
when I'm supposed to tell
part of the truth.
336
00:15:24,282 --> 00:15:26,027
And it doesn't really matter,
337
00:15:26,052 --> 00:15:29,054
because I can't figure out
how to do it anyway.
338
00:15:31,970 --> 00:15:33,470
You did fine with me.
339
00:15:34,299 --> 00:15:36,277
You never need to lie.
340
00:15:36,302 --> 00:15:38,337
Lies don't protect you from the truth.
341
00:15:41,220 --> 00:15:43,054
I don't like your haircut.
342
00:15:43,717 --> 00:15:45,528
(CHUCKLES)
343
00:15:45,552 --> 00:15:46,719
Okay.
344
00:15:48,241 --> 00:15:53,445
Maybe sometimes, when the
truth can't help someone...
345
00:15:56,403 --> 00:15:58,371
...you should definitely just lie.
346
00:16:01,027 --> 00:16:04,730
Do you think praying will
help you reach a decision?
347
00:16:06,266 --> 00:16:09,813
I've already reached a decision.
348
00:16:09,838 --> 00:16:14,383
I'm praying to help me find
comfort with that decision.
349
00:16:14,408 --> 00:16:16,643
My family wants the surgery.
350
00:16:19,273 --> 00:16:22,075
And what do you want?
351
00:16:23,531 --> 00:16:25,498
I want what my family wants.
352
00:16:26,688 --> 00:16:28,030
I love them.
353
00:16:28,055 --> 00:16:29,856
But they love you, too, right?
354
00:16:31,739 --> 00:16:33,740
Don't they want what you want?
355
00:16:37,064 --> 00:16:39,099
Long ago, I made a decision
356
00:16:40,041 --> 00:16:41,542
to be there for them
357
00:16:43,504 --> 00:16:44,848
no matter what.
358
00:16:44,873 --> 00:16:46,273
♪
359
00:16:47,876 --> 00:16:51,590
And if the last choice I make in my life
360
00:16:51,615 --> 00:16:53,215
is consistent with that,
361
00:16:56,719 --> 00:16:58,287
I'm comfortable with that.
362
00:16:58,312 --> 00:17:00,889
♪
363
00:17:05,662 --> 00:17:08,774
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)
364
00:17:08,799 --> 00:17:10,200
♪
365
00:17:14,264 --> 00:17:16,290
- (PAPER SHUFFLING)
- I'm surprised by you.
366
00:17:16,291 --> 00:17:18,536
I, arguably, made errors in judgment,
367
00:17:18,560 --> 00:17:20,838
but it was all in an effort
to help a patient.
368
00:17:20,862 --> 00:17:22,507
Yes, and that would make sense
if you thought
369
00:17:22,531 --> 00:17:24,575
you'd never have
another patient ever again.
370
00:17:24,599 --> 00:17:27,678
And if there wasn't currently an
opening for Chief of Surgery.
371
00:17:27,679 --> 00:17:29,790
I didn't know that was on the table.
372
00:17:29,814 --> 00:17:32,426
See, that's the difference
between you and Melendez.
373
00:17:32,450 --> 00:17:35,896
I have no doubt that as soon
as I got this promotion,
374
00:17:35,920 --> 00:17:38,866
Melendez had done the math
and reacted accordingly.
375
00:17:38,890 --> 00:17:42,174
But I suspect that even
if you had done the math,
376
00:17:42,199 --> 00:17:44,811
it wouldn't have changed
how you handled this patient.
377
00:17:44,836 --> 00:17:46,340
I don't view that as a weakness.
378
00:17:49,193 --> 00:17:51,571
I'll handle the administrative fallout.
379
00:17:51,596 --> 00:17:53,274
You...
380
00:17:53,299 --> 00:17:54,966
...notify the parents immediately.
381
00:17:56,807 --> 00:17:58,284
I can't.
382
00:17:58,309 --> 00:17:59,754
We don't know the girl's real name,
383
00:17:59,779 --> 00:18:01,056
and we have to keep her sedated,
384
00:18:01,081 --> 00:18:02,191
so there's no way we can track...
385
00:18:02,216 --> 00:18:04,061
She's a teenager. She's got a phone.
386
00:18:04,086 --> 00:18:06,120
Next time it rings, answer it.
387
00:18:09,014 --> 00:18:10,892
(KEYS CLACKING)
388
00:18:10,916 --> 00:18:13,261
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)
389
00:18:13,285 --> 00:18:15,163
- You feel the mesenteric artery pulsing?
- SHAUN: Yes.
390
00:18:15,187 --> 00:18:17,199
You shouldn't.
You're too close to the vein.
391
00:18:17,223 --> 00:18:20,041
Great. Dr. Browne,
pass a penrose drain through.
392
00:18:22,828 --> 00:18:24,439
Bovie.
393
00:18:24,463 --> 00:18:26,908
(MONITOR BEEPING)
394
00:18:26,932 --> 00:18:28,643
(ELECTRICITY CRACKLING FAINTLY)
395
00:18:28,667 --> 00:18:29,767
Suction.
396
00:18:30,669 --> 00:18:32,503
(SUCTION WHIRRING)
397
00:18:38,724 --> 00:18:40,091
Got it all.
398
00:18:41,701 --> 00:18:44,614
I see leaking pancreatic fluid.
399
00:18:44,639 --> 00:18:46,316
DR. MELENDEZ: That'll eat holes
in everything it touches.
400
00:18:46,341 --> 00:18:47,585
Our duct tie didn't hold.
401
00:18:47,610 --> 00:18:49,311
Suction. Needle driver.
402
00:18:50,350 --> 00:18:51,728
DR. BLAIZ: Excellent.
403
00:18:51,753 --> 00:18:54,532
You have approved a scrub nurse
404
00:18:54,557 --> 00:18:57,269
and a circulating nurse
and seven other personnel.
405
00:18:57,294 --> 00:18:58,804
Everyone and everything is covered,
406
00:18:58,829 --> 00:18:59,998
except for an actual surgeon.
407
00:19:00,023 --> 00:19:01,868
Yeah. I think we may have to postpone.
408
00:19:01,893 --> 00:19:04,324
Have you notified your tumor to
stop growing in the interim?
409
00:19:04,325 --> 00:19:06,570
I think any possible damage from a delay
410
00:19:06,594 --> 00:19:09,231
may be more than offset
by having somebody competent
411
00:19:09,256 --> 00:19:10,667
digging around in my brain.
412
00:19:10,692 --> 00:19:11,902
"Competent"?
413
00:19:11,927 --> 00:19:14,639
- What's wrong with Sanders?
- 6% mortality rate.
414
00:19:14,664 --> 00:19:16,509
- Taylor?
- I don't like the way he's planning on
415
00:19:16,534 --> 00:19:17,964
dealing with a carotid tear.
416
00:19:17,989 --> 00:19:19,900
- That's nowhere near your tumor.
- It's the principle.
417
00:19:19,925 --> 00:19:21,436
- Unger?
- He doesn't like me.
418
00:19:21,461 --> 00:19:23,473
- No one likes you.
- No! You don't like me.
419
00:19:23,498 --> 00:19:25,209
He doesn't like me. That's two.
420
00:19:25,234 --> 00:19:26,578
Just pick a name. I don't care who.
421
00:19:26,603 --> 00:19:28,147
I don't care if they're a doctor.
422
00:19:28,172 --> 00:19:29,616
Just pick a name.
423
00:19:29,641 --> 00:19:31,652
Because in 48 hours, you're
either getting your surgery
424
00:19:31,677 --> 00:19:34,055
or you're getting a new oncologist.
425
00:19:34,080 --> 00:19:35,480
♪
426
00:19:40,261 --> 00:19:41,662
♪
427
00:19:45,916 --> 00:19:47,627
ZANE: (IN AFRICAN ACCENT) She's in pain.
428
00:19:47,651 --> 00:19:49,629
That's why she's asleep right now,
429
00:19:49,653 --> 00:19:51,721
because of what you did to her?
430
00:19:54,311 --> 00:19:56,422
What I did to her
431
00:19:56,447 --> 00:20:00,260
I believe revealed
that what you did to her
432
00:20:00,285 --> 00:20:03,131
didn't do as much damage
as we initially feared.
433
00:20:03,156 --> 00:20:04,733
We want to do a second surgery...
434
00:20:04,758 --> 00:20:06,203
How can you stop her pain?
435
00:20:06,228 --> 00:20:08,206
It's called clitoral reconstruction.
436
00:20:08,231 --> 00:20:10,022
The nerves of her clitoris are exposed.
437
00:20:10,047 --> 00:20:11,458
We can sheath them using...
438
00:20:11,483 --> 00:20:13,361
(IN AFRICAN ACCENT)
Our daughter wants this?
439
00:20:13,386 --> 00:20:15,865
Asha wants to be like other girls.
440
00:20:15,890 --> 00:20:17,000
She wants to be able to...
441
00:20:17,025 --> 00:20:19,093
Mara told you that?
442
00:20:21,118 --> 00:20:22,686
That's our daughter's name.
443
00:20:23,354 --> 00:20:24,554
Not Asha.
444
00:20:26,111 --> 00:20:27,555
You don't know her at all.
445
00:20:27,579 --> 00:20:30,625
We need to do this surgery
to relieve her pain.
446
00:20:30,649 --> 00:20:33,694
No. There must be another way.
447
00:20:33,718 --> 00:20:35,429
We want a second opinion.
448
00:20:35,453 --> 00:20:37,265
Not at this hospital.
449
00:20:37,289 --> 00:20:38,966
How soon can our daughter be moved?
450
00:20:38,990 --> 00:20:40,835
Excuse me, Dr. Lim.
451
00:20:40,859 --> 00:20:43,871
I am Ellen Vahtra from
Child Protective Services.
452
00:20:43,895 --> 00:20:45,494
Until I complete my review,
453
00:20:45,519 --> 00:20:48,098
I'm afraid you're not going to be
moving your daughter anywhere.
454
00:20:48,123 --> 00:20:53,761
♪
455
00:20:57,365 --> 00:20:59,900
How did it go? Is Dad okay? No, I'm good.
456
00:21:02,337 --> 00:21:04,315
There were complications,
457
00:21:04,339 --> 00:21:06,651
but we found solutions.
458
00:21:06,675 --> 00:21:09,687
It went very well. We got it all.
459
00:21:09,711 --> 00:21:12,490
(ALL CRYING)
460
00:21:12,514 --> 00:21:13,557
Oh, my...
461
00:21:13,581 --> 00:21:15,026
There's still...
462
00:21:15,050 --> 00:21:17,733
♪
463
00:21:17,757 --> 00:21:19,917
I don't think I did that well.
464
00:21:19,917 --> 00:21:21,110
They're too happy.
465
00:21:21,111 --> 00:21:23,924
Post-surgical complications are
still a major concern that they...
466
00:21:23,948 --> 00:21:26,226
Let them enjoy the good news.
467
00:21:26,250 --> 00:21:28,929
Is deceiving someone in a
way that makes them happy
468
00:21:28,953 --> 00:21:31,832
better than deceiving someone
in a way that makes them sad?
469
00:21:31,856 --> 00:21:34,991
Shaun. I think there's
someone here to see you.
470
00:21:35,826 --> 00:21:37,370
Hey.
471
00:21:37,394 --> 00:21:39,289
I had some time, so I thought
472
00:21:39,313 --> 00:21:41,641
you might want to have
some lunch with me?
473
00:21:41,665 --> 00:21:43,794
♪
474
00:21:43,795 --> 00:21:45,639
I do not have time.
475
00:21:45,663 --> 00:21:52,413
♪
476
00:21:52,437 --> 00:21:59,076
♪
477
00:21:59,976 --> 00:22:01,720
What's wrong?
478
00:22:01,744 --> 00:22:03,322
What did she do?
479
00:22:03,346 --> 00:22:04,590
Shaun. Sha...
480
00:22:04,614 --> 00:22:09,161
♪
481
00:22:09,185 --> 00:22:12,831
You don't want to talk to Lea.
I don't understand.
482
00:22:12,855 --> 00:22:15,290
(INHALES SHARPLY) I don't understand.
483
00:22:15,624 --> 00:22:17,324
I don't understand!
484
00:22:17,349 --> 00:22:19,327
You're not being fair to her or yourself.
485
00:22:19,352 --> 00:22:21,720
- She's always been nice to you.
- No, she hasn't.
486
00:22:23,065 --> 00:22:24,876
She's your friend.
487
00:22:24,901 --> 00:22:26,757
Whatever's happened, you have
to talk to her about it.
488
00:22:26,782 --> 00:22:27,970
Be honest about what you're feeling...
489
00:22:27,995 --> 00:22:29,172
I can't be.
490
00:22:29,197 --> 00:22:32,500
- Of course you can.
- I don't know...
491
00:22:33,089 --> 00:22:35,468
I don't know how I feel!
492
00:22:35,493 --> 00:22:38,511
♪
493
00:22:38,536 --> 00:22:41,638
I can't be honest
if I don't know how I feel!
494
00:22:41,663 --> 00:22:48,646
♪
495
00:22:48,671 --> 00:22:50,282
Our 16-year-old daughter
496
00:22:50,307 --> 00:22:52,518
is lying in a hospital bed unconscious
497
00:22:52,543 --> 00:22:54,540
to protect her from overwhelming pain
498
00:22:54,565 --> 00:22:58,345
because of what this place did
to her without our permission.
499
00:22:58,868 --> 00:23:00,458
And you are investigating us?
500
00:23:00,483 --> 00:23:02,561
Your daughter is suffering
because you butchered her
501
00:23:02,586 --> 00:23:03,868
when she was 2 years old.
502
00:23:03,868 --> 00:23:06,514
Dr. Lim, please refrain from
unsubstantiated allegations.
503
00:23:06,538 --> 00:23:09,383
Either they're the butchers or
they're protecting the butchers.
504
00:23:09,407 --> 00:23:11,709
If you didn't do it, tell us who did.
505
00:23:16,167 --> 00:23:19,080
It was an aunt
and a grandmother from Kenya.
506
00:23:19,104 --> 00:23:21,916
They were watching Mara
while we were on vacation.
507
00:23:21,940 --> 00:23:24,118
Well, you must've been horrified.
508
00:23:24,142 --> 00:23:26,389
Did you take her to a doctor?
509
00:23:26,389 --> 00:23:29,134
That girl's sex organs
were covered with scar tissue.
510
00:23:29,158 --> 00:23:31,637
She had no medical attention
to treat any of her wounds.
511
00:23:31,661 --> 00:23:33,049
ZANE: She was fine.
512
00:23:33,049 --> 00:23:35,594
She was happy, laughing.
513
00:23:35,618 --> 00:23:37,052
It's not that big a deal.
514
00:23:42,212 --> 00:23:44,290
I was cut.
515
00:23:44,314 --> 00:23:47,026
My mother was cut. Her mother was cut.
516
00:23:47,050 --> 00:23:50,797
It is a rite of passage connecting
our women to their ancestors.
517
00:23:50,822 --> 00:23:52,533
She will not find a husband
in our culture if she's...
518
00:23:52,558 --> 00:23:53,925
So she'll find someone else.
519
00:23:54,979 --> 00:23:56,757
It's not that big a deal.
520
00:23:56,917 --> 00:23:58,862
These parents forfeited
the right to make any calls
521
00:23:58,886 --> 00:24:00,564
about their daughter a long time ago.
522
00:24:00,588 --> 00:24:02,635
Our daughter is an honor student,
523
00:24:02,636 --> 00:24:05,882
taking three AP classes
in her junior year,
524
00:24:05,906 --> 00:24:08,885
went on a mission to Haiti
to build a school.
525
00:24:08,909 --> 00:24:10,376
We have raised her well.
526
00:24:11,737 --> 00:24:12,971
She is a good person.
527
00:24:14,715 --> 00:24:16,149
We're proud of her.
528
00:24:17,311 --> 00:24:20,281
I'm sure she is a good person.
529
00:24:20,306 --> 00:24:21,750
But you are not gonna convince me
530
00:24:21,775 --> 00:24:23,674
that what happened to Mara
when she was 2 years old
531
00:24:23,699 --> 00:24:26,044
is anything short of an abomination.
532
00:24:26,069 --> 00:24:28,047
But that's not the issue today.
533
00:24:28,072 --> 00:24:31,008
The issue is, how do we
best help this girl now?
534
00:24:32,466 --> 00:24:35,259
The clitoral reconstruction
should protect the exposed nerve.
535
00:24:35,284 --> 00:24:36,561
ZANE: "Should"?
536
00:24:36,586 --> 00:24:38,931
That is the surgery that,
in my medical opinion,
537
00:24:38,956 --> 00:24:40,167
is called for.
538
00:24:40,192 --> 00:24:41,792
But it's not the only option?
539
00:24:43,464 --> 00:24:45,709
We could oblate the peripheral nerves
540
00:24:45,734 --> 00:24:47,912
and remove the remaining clitoral tissue.
541
00:24:47,937 --> 00:24:50,321
And is that surgery safer
or more dangerous?
542
00:24:50,346 --> 00:24:52,324
It's simpler, but that's not
the only factor here.
543
00:24:52,349 --> 00:24:55,127
It's the only factor to us.
544
00:24:55,152 --> 00:24:57,297
We want to know that our daughter
545
00:24:57,322 --> 00:25:00,401
won't spend the rest of her life in pain.
546
00:25:00,426 --> 00:25:01,837
Please.
547
00:25:01,862 --> 00:25:03,169
For a moment,
548
00:25:03,194 --> 00:25:05,963
can we think about something
other than Mara's pain?
549
00:25:06,848 --> 00:25:08,992
Can we think about her pleasure?
550
00:25:09,017 --> 00:25:11,529
We have a chance to give her
551
00:25:11,554 --> 00:25:14,400
a healthy, meaningful sex life.
552
00:25:14,425 --> 00:25:16,336
That is what she came here looking for.
553
00:25:16,361 --> 00:25:22,343
♪
554
00:25:22,368 --> 00:25:23,876
Wake her up.
555
00:25:23,901 --> 00:25:26,530
She's in pain, and she's already
told me what she wanted.
556
00:25:26,531 --> 00:25:29,010
Yesterday, she was requesting
cosmetic surgery.
557
00:25:29,034 --> 00:25:31,246
Today, you're asking her
to risk a lifetime of pain
558
00:25:31,270 --> 00:25:32,947
for a chance at pleasure.
559
00:25:32,971 --> 00:25:34,549
From everything I've heard,
560
00:25:34,573 --> 00:25:36,517
she's mature enough
to make the call herself,
561
00:25:36,541 --> 00:25:39,120
even if it means suffering
for a few minutes to do so.
562
00:25:39,144 --> 00:25:43,396
♪
563
00:25:43,397 --> 00:25:46,476
Dr. Unger has a mortality index
564
00:25:46,500 --> 00:25:48,912
that is not too high and not too low.
565
00:25:48,936 --> 00:25:50,280
It's not gonna be Unger.
566
00:25:50,304 --> 00:25:52,950
You have not eliminated Dr. Ko.
567
00:25:52,974 --> 00:25:54,203
Not yet.
568
00:25:54,562 --> 00:25:57,908
I may have to go out of state
to find a neurosurgeon.
569
00:25:57,933 --> 00:26:00,344
Plus, I may have to find
myself a new oncologist.
570
00:26:00,369 --> 00:26:03,682
You've used Dr. Ko many times.
571
00:26:03,707 --> 00:26:05,852
Did you think
she might kill your patients?
572
00:26:05,877 --> 00:26:07,007
No.
573
00:26:07,032 --> 00:26:08,876
Do you think you're better than them?
574
00:26:08,901 --> 00:26:10,702
Yes, a little.
575
00:26:13,967 --> 00:26:16,112
That was a joke.
576
00:26:16,330 --> 00:26:18,075
You don't want to talk about this.
577
00:26:18,100 --> 00:26:21,246
No, I don't want
to talk about this, Shaun.
578
00:26:21,271 --> 00:26:24,250
That, in fact, is the point
of the alcohol.
579
00:26:24,492 --> 00:26:26,659
Okay, I understand.
580
00:26:26,684 --> 00:26:27,717
Good.
581
00:26:35,557 --> 00:26:38,036
Why can't we talk about it?
582
00:26:38,061 --> 00:26:39,772
Because it's upsetting.
583
00:26:39,797 --> 00:26:41,575
Is that why you're stalling?
584
00:26:41,600 --> 00:26:43,611
Because you're afraid of dying?
585
00:26:43,636 --> 00:26:45,847
I'm not afraid of dying.
586
00:26:45,872 --> 00:26:47,617
Really?
587
00:26:47,642 --> 00:26:49,186
Why not?
588
00:26:49,211 --> 00:26:52,324
You should be. Dying is terrible.
589
00:26:52,349 --> 00:26:53,983
Yes, dying is terrible.
590
00:26:54,704 --> 00:26:56,515
But there are worse things.
591
00:26:56,540 --> 00:26:58,484
What's worse than dying?
592
00:26:58,509 --> 00:27:02,349
♪
593
00:27:02,374 --> 00:27:03,552
Not dying.
594
00:27:03,577 --> 00:27:06,105
♪
595
00:27:06,130 --> 00:27:07,741
That doesn't make sense.
596
00:27:07,766 --> 00:27:08,966
Makes sense to me.
597
00:27:10,453 --> 00:27:11,964
That doesn't make sense.
598
00:27:11,989 --> 00:27:13,623
That's the middle ground, Shaun.
599
00:27:15,430 --> 00:27:17,175
Brain surgeries have a tendency
600
00:27:17,199 --> 00:27:19,510
to end in the middle ground.
601
00:27:19,534 --> 00:27:22,380
Brain surgeries can be
considered a success
602
00:27:22,404 --> 00:27:25,650
even when the patient
ends up compromised.
603
00:27:25,674 --> 00:27:27,218
He can't walk. He can't talk.
604
00:27:27,242 --> 00:27:29,387
His hand can't stop shaking.
605
00:27:29,411 --> 00:27:33,073
♪
606
00:27:33,098 --> 00:27:36,544
I've been terrible
at a lot of things in my life,
607
00:27:36,569 --> 00:27:38,370
but I am damn smart.
608
00:27:40,128 --> 00:27:42,506
(VOICE BREAKING)
And I am a damn good surgeon.
609
00:27:42,531 --> 00:27:44,209
And if I can't be those things,
610
00:27:44,234 --> 00:27:46,679
then I don't know who I'd be.
611
00:27:46,704 --> 00:27:52,267
♪
612
00:27:52,292 --> 00:27:54,103
You'd be my friend.
613
00:27:54,128 --> 00:28:00,367
♪
614
00:28:03,466 --> 00:28:04,977
Well, thank you, Shaun.
615
00:28:05,002 --> 00:28:06,713
(CELLPHONE VIBRATING)
616
00:28:06,738 --> 00:28:13,020
♪
617
00:28:13,045 --> 00:28:14,174
(VIBRATING STOPS)
618
00:28:14,199 --> 00:28:17,111
I have to go. My patient just crashed.
619
00:28:17,136 --> 00:28:21,892
♪
620
00:28:21,917 --> 00:28:25,697
It's not enough. Is it?
621
00:28:25,722 --> 00:28:29,612
♪
622
00:28:29,637 --> 00:28:30,637
No.
623
00:28:32,328 --> 00:28:33,705
I'm sorry it isn't.
624
00:28:33,730 --> 00:28:40,113
♪
625
00:28:40,138 --> 00:28:45,949
♪
626
00:28:45,949 --> 00:28:47,927
(WEAKLY) Mom. Dad.
627
00:28:47,951 --> 00:28:49,318
We're here.
628
00:28:49,953 --> 00:28:51,931
We love you.
629
00:28:51,955 --> 00:28:54,333
We just don't understand
why you would turn your back.
630
00:28:54,357 --> 00:28:55,534
Uh...
631
00:28:55,558 --> 00:28:57,069
VAHTRA: Hello, Mara.
632
00:28:57,093 --> 00:28:59,105
I'm Ellen Vahtra. I'm a social worker.
633
00:28:59,129 --> 00:29:00,439
Your parents know what happened,
634
00:29:00,463 --> 00:29:02,641
and Dr. Lim gave you a nerve block.
635
00:29:02,665 --> 00:29:05,010
It hurts. It still hurts.
636
00:29:05,034 --> 00:29:06,779
I understand that, and we are
going to try to get you
637
00:29:06,803 --> 00:29:09,348
back to sleep as quickly as possible.
638
00:29:09,372 --> 00:29:11,484
But something happened during
your surgery, and we need you
639
00:29:11,508 --> 00:29:13,509
to make a decision
about what is done next.
640
00:29:17,213 --> 00:29:20,359
We believe that, despite what
was done to you as a child,
641
00:29:20,383 --> 00:29:22,862
the reason you're in so much
pain because you still have
642
00:29:22,886 --> 00:29:24,530
functioning nerves in your clitoris,
643
00:29:24,554 --> 00:29:27,266
nerves that had been covered
with scar tissue.
644
00:29:27,290 --> 00:29:28,901
I'd like to repair that.
645
00:29:28,925 --> 00:29:31,003
We can make you physiologically complete.
646
00:29:31,027 --> 00:29:33,128
But there's no guarantee
that it would work.
647
00:29:35,398 --> 00:29:37,443
I'm confident.
648
00:29:37,467 --> 00:29:39,368
There is a safer choice.
649
00:29:40,003 --> 00:29:41,570
(INHALES DEEPLY)
650
00:29:42,906 --> 00:29:46,268
We could... remove your entire clitoris.
651
00:29:46,876 --> 00:29:49,121
This is your choice.
652
00:29:49,145 --> 00:29:51,146
You will be protected no matter what.
653
00:29:55,218 --> 00:29:56,462
Take it out.
654
00:29:56,486 --> 00:29:57,930
Mara, we can make you whole...
655
00:29:57,954 --> 00:30:00,332
I made a mistake. Take it out.
656
00:30:00,356 --> 00:30:01,934
She's on medication. She's in pain...
657
00:30:01,958 --> 00:30:04,837
Dr. Lim, please let her go back to sleep.
658
00:30:04,861 --> 00:30:07,473
And prepare to operate
to remove the damaged tissue.
659
00:30:07,497 --> 00:30:13,735
♪
660
00:30:14,871 --> 00:30:16,138
(SNIFFLES)
661
00:30:19,315 --> 00:30:21,706
Hang fresh, frozen plasma, too.
Looks like he's going into DIC.
662
00:30:21,730 --> 00:30:22,966
Give me another hemostat.
663
00:30:22,990 --> 00:30:25,063
SHAUN: BP's 71 over 53.
664
00:30:25,087 --> 00:30:26,665
We should have warned the family.
665
00:30:26,689 --> 00:30:28,266
Can't see anything in here.
There's too much blood.
666
00:30:28,290 --> 00:30:29,968
- More suction.
- I think you got the hepatic artery.
667
00:30:29,992 --> 00:30:31,174
The warning wouldn't
have made any difference.
668
00:30:31,198 --> 00:30:32,838
SHAUN: The bleeding is not slowing down.
669
00:30:32,862 --> 00:30:35,075
We need to send the aorta to the celiac.
670
00:30:35,075 --> 00:30:37,051
- I need to see it to clamp it.
- They would have been prepared.
671
00:30:37,076 --> 00:30:39,904
A-line systolic's 54. He's bottoming out.
No, they wouldn't.
672
00:30:39,929 --> 00:30:42,230
You two, shut up and
pack his abdomen with laps
673
00:30:42,255 --> 00:30:43,789
while I sort through this mess.
674
00:30:44,404 --> 00:30:46,015
I won't do it.
675
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:47,518
Can we appeal this? Do you know?
676
00:30:47,543 --> 00:30:49,054
I've spoken with our legal department.
677
00:30:49,079 --> 00:30:50,790
Unless we can prove
the social worker was biased,
678
00:30:50,815 --> 00:30:52,159
we are stuck with this ruling.
679
00:30:52,184 --> 00:30:54,385
Well, then you're also
stuck with "I won't do it."
680
00:30:55,274 --> 00:30:57,853
You're a good doctor.
This hospital will miss you.
681
00:30:57,877 --> 00:31:00,021
You're gonna fire me because I
won't butcher a teenage girl?
682
00:31:00,045 --> 00:31:01,590
Of course I am.
683
00:31:01,614 --> 00:31:03,492
This hospital will face
lawsuits, suspensions,
684
00:31:03,516 --> 00:31:04,964
perhaps criminal charges,
685
00:31:04,965 --> 00:31:07,367
and this little girl will still
get the surgery you hate.
686
00:31:12,805 --> 00:31:15,517
Could Dr. Lim at least
talk to Mara again?
687
00:31:15,541 --> 00:31:18,140
You want to wake her up again in pain?
688
00:31:18,165 --> 00:31:19,609
Every woman deserves the right
689
00:31:19,634 --> 00:31:21,312
to make decisions about her sexuality
690
00:31:21,337 --> 00:31:22,971
without her parents hanging over her.
691
00:31:28,701 --> 00:31:30,045
Okay.
692
00:31:30,070 --> 00:31:35,619
♪
693
00:31:35,644 --> 00:31:41,081
♪
694
00:31:42,188 --> 00:31:43,465
(GRUNTS SOFTLY)
695
00:31:43,490 --> 00:31:47,961
♪
696
00:31:50,744 --> 00:31:52,856
When I was 15 years old,
697
00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:54,968
my father caught me with a boy.
698
00:31:54,993 --> 00:31:57,064
I mean, we weren't doing it,
699
00:31:57,089 --> 00:31:59,234
but my top was off and
700
00:31:59,461 --> 00:32:00,861
Well, it doesn't matter.
701
00:32:02,063 --> 00:32:03,363
My father hit me.
702
00:32:04,378 --> 00:32:05,778
I still have a small scar.
703
00:32:07,329 --> 00:32:09,006
Our relationship was never the same.
704
00:32:09,031 --> 00:32:10,075
(GROANS SOFTLY)
705
00:32:10,100 --> 00:32:11,511
But that's what growing up is.
706
00:32:11,536 --> 00:32:13,981
Not everyone gets called a slut.
707
00:32:14,006 --> 00:32:16,741
Not everyone gets butchered.
708
00:32:17,552 --> 00:32:20,498
But everyone becomes a man or a woman
709
00:32:20,523 --> 00:32:22,290
and stops being a child.
710
00:32:23,952 --> 00:32:26,998
I want to take a piece of
tissue from inside your cheek
711
00:32:27,022 --> 00:32:29,267
and I want to graft it to your clitoris.
712
00:32:29,291 --> 00:32:31,836
♪
713
00:32:31,860 --> 00:32:34,973
We can make you feel... love.
714
00:32:34,997 --> 00:32:39,667
♪
715
00:32:44,020 --> 00:32:47,599
I can't turn my back on my
family, on my traditions.
716
00:32:47,624 --> 00:32:50,236
♪
717
00:32:50,261 --> 00:32:52,035
Traditions
718
00:32:52,060 --> 00:32:53,928
connect us to the past.
719
00:32:54,817 --> 00:32:56,761
What about the future?
720
00:32:56,786 --> 00:33:03,292
♪
721
00:33:05,494 --> 00:33:07,105
Please.
722
00:33:07,130 --> 00:33:09,976
No. I'm in pain. (INHALES SHARPLY)
723
00:33:10,001 --> 00:33:16,116
♪
724
00:33:16,141 --> 00:33:22,006
♪
725
00:33:22,007 --> 00:33:23,484
DR. MELENDEZ: Cross-clamping his aorta.
726
00:33:23,508 --> 00:33:25,320
SHAUN: He's in ventricular fibrillation.
727
00:33:25,344 --> 00:33:26,554
(MONITORS BEEPING RAPIDLY)
728
00:33:26,578 --> 00:33:28,323
CLAIRE: Starting chest compressions.
729
00:33:28,347 --> 00:33:34,229
♪
730
00:33:34,253 --> 00:33:35,730
Okay. Everybody clear.
731
00:33:35,754 --> 00:33:36,898
(PADDLES WHINE)
732
00:33:36,922 --> 00:33:38,656
(THUMP)
733
00:33:47,434 --> 00:33:51,535
♪
734
00:33:57,749 --> 00:33:59,227
Prep the cheek, as well.
735
00:33:59,252 --> 00:34:01,764
♪
736
00:34:01,789 --> 00:34:03,800
She's taking the graft?
The paperwork doesn't say...
737
00:34:03,825 --> 00:34:05,002
She consented verbally.
738
00:34:05,027 --> 00:34:06,772
We didn't want to keep her
awake any longer
739
00:34:06,797 --> 00:34:08,097
than absolutely necessary.
740
00:34:09,868 --> 00:34:11,646
I wanted to help her as much as you...
741
00:34:11,671 --> 00:34:13,348
When she wanted help.
742
00:34:13,373 --> 00:34:15,074
- But if she doesn't want this...
- She wants this.
743
00:34:16,034 --> 00:34:17,312
Dr. Lim just told us.
744
00:34:17,337 --> 00:34:21,650
♪
745
00:34:21,675 --> 00:34:22,752
Prep the cheek.
746
00:34:22,777 --> 00:34:26,090
♪
747
00:34:26,115 --> 00:34:27,849
(FLATLINE)
748
00:34:29,828 --> 00:34:31,228
(MONITOR TURNS OFF)
749
00:34:36,508 --> 00:34:38,276
I'll tell the family.
750
00:34:39,918 --> 00:34:41,629
DR. MELENDEZ: No.
751
00:34:41,654 --> 00:34:43,532
Claire, you do it.
752
00:34:43,557 --> 00:34:45,058
This isn't the time for learning.
753
00:34:54,053 --> 00:34:55,386
(DOOR SLIDES)
754
00:35:11,519 --> 00:35:12,896
- I'm sorry.
- (WHIMPERS)
755
00:35:13,147 --> 00:35:15,292
Paul died during surgery.
756
00:35:15,864 --> 00:35:18,710
He had a gastroduodenal artery rupture.
757
00:35:18,734 --> 00:35:21,291
It's a common complication
of a Whipple surgery,
758
00:35:21,316 --> 00:35:24,262
especially when someone's cancer was...
759
00:35:24,287 --> 00:35:26,932
As advanced as his was.
760
00:35:26,957 --> 00:35:28,806
We... did everything we could
761
00:35:28,831 --> 00:35:31,042
for as long as we could.
762
00:35:31,067 --> 00:35:32,812
He didn't suffer.
763
00:35:32,837 --> 00:35:34,648
(SOLEMN MUSIC PLAYS)
764
00:35:34,673 --> 00:35:38,219
♪
765
00:35:38,244 --> 00:35:39,678
You did this to him.
766
00:35:41,924 --> 00:35:43,191
Dad didn't want this.
767
00:35:44,734 --> 00:35:47,236
You saw that look on his face.
He was scared.
768
00:35:47,261 --> 00:35:51,241
In my experience,
it does no good to dwell...
769
00:35:51,266 --> 00:35:52,942
(SHAKILY) Of course he was scared.
770
00:35:52,967 --> 00:35:54,061
That doesn't mean...
771
00:35:54,086 --> 00:35:55,102
He just wanted to live
his last few months.
772
00:35:55,127 --> 00:35:56,607
LORI: Stop it.
773
00:35:56,632 --> 00:35:58,744
Nobody made your father do anything.
774
00:35:58,769 --> 00:36:00,303
He knew the risks.
775
00:36:02,539 --> 00:36:04,384
(VOICE BREAKING)
It's your fault, too, Mom.
776
00:36:04,409 --> 00:36:06,687
♪
777
00:36:06,712 --> 00:36:07,979
All of us.
778
00:36:08,958 --> 00:36:10,836
He would do anything for us.
779
00:36:10,861 --> 00:36:12,756
♪
780
00:36:12,781 --> 00:36:14,749
We killed our father.
781
00:36:15,598 --> 00:36:17,643
(WOMEN CRYING)
782
00:36:17,668 --> 00:36:22,460
♪
783
00:36:22,485 --> 00:36:23,829
It's not true.
784
00:36:23,854 --> 00:36:25,499
(CRYING STOPS)
785
00:36:25,524 --> 00:36:28,011
♪
786
00:36:28,036 --> 00:36:30,782
Paul wanted this surgery.
787
00:36:30,807 --> 00:36:32,591
♪
788
00:36:32,616 --> 00:36:36,062
He told me he wanted this surgery.
789
00:36:36,087 --> 00:36:42,670
♪
790
00:36:42,695 --> 00:36:48,433
♪
791
00:36:48,458 --> 00:36:50,726
(ALL CRYING)
792
00:36:51,184 --> 00:36:56,555
♪
793
00:36:56,580 --> 00:37:01,451
♪
794
00:37:08,735 --> 00:37:09,935
Was that true?
795
00:37:12,339 --> 00:37:14,006
Paul told me...
796
00:37:15,482 --> 00:37:18,094
When the truth can't help someone,
797
00:37:18,119 --> 00:37:19,663
we should lie.
798
00:37:19,688 --> 00:37:25,259
♪
799
00:37:30,323 --> 00:37:31,323
Mom?
800
00:37:32,493 --> 00:37:34,070
(EXHALES DEEPLY)
801
00:37:34,095 --> 00:37:36,764
How are you? Does anything hurt?
802
00:37:37,985 --> 00:37:40,720
Not much. I'm better.
803
00:37:42,383 --> 00:37:44,217
Looks like she's doing well.
804
00:37:45,486 --> 00:37:46,520
Thank you, Doctor.
805
00:37:48,622 --> 00:37:51,968
There should still be some
discomfort at the surgical site.
806
00:37:51,993 --> 00:37:54,138
A nurse will bring you some...
807
00:37:54,163 --> 00:37:58,633
♪
808
00:38:01,195 --> 00:38:02,439
Sorry.
809
00:38:02,464 --> 00:38:04,542
A nurse will bring you some Tylenol,
810
00:38:04,567 --> 00:38:06,668
which should really be all you need.
811
00:38:07,061 --> 00:38:08,505
Thank you.
812
00:38:08,530 --> 00:38:11,242
♪
813
00:38:11,267 --> 00:38:13,045
You're gonna be great.
814
00:38:13,070 --> 00:38:18,852
♪
815
00:38:18,877 --> 00:38:20,288
(SIGHS)
816
00:38:20,313 --> 00:38:24,693
♪
817
00:38:24,718 --> 00:38:26,953
(CEREAL POURING, BOX SHAKING)
818
00:38:35,800 --> 00:38:38,011
You're here.
819
00:38:38,035 --> 00:38:40,314
Yes. I live here.
820
00:38:40,338 --> 00:38:41,848
You know that.
821
00:38:41,872 --> 00:38:44,952
Well, I was starting to doubt
it the last couple of days.
822
00:38:44,976 --> 00:38:47,854
You come home after I'm asleep.
823
00:38:47,878 --> 00:38:49,987
You leave before I can even get up.
824
00:38:50,012 --> 00:38:51,379
Wow.
825
00:38:51,404 --> 00:38:53,748
Thank you.
826
00:39:02,647 --> 00:39:04,114
Please take this.
827
00:39:05,390 --> 00:39:07,535
No, this is yours, Shaun.
828
00:39:07,560 --> 00:39:09,784
I gave it to you to remember me by.
829
00:39:09,809 --> 00:39:11,196
It hurt.
830
00:39:14,727 --> 00:39:17,072
I didn't want to tell you the truth
831
00:39:17,096 --> 00:39:18,836
because I didn't know it,
832
00:39:18,861 --> 00:39:21,634
but I have to tell you the
truth because it will help.
833
00:39:26,986 --> 00:39:29,267
Every night, I would come home,
834
00:39:29,942 --> 00:39:34,656
and I would look at that baseball,
835
00:39:34,681 --> 00:39:36,566
and I would think of you.
836
00:39:38,512 --> 00:39:40,557
The baseball was here,
837
00:39:40,582 --> 00:39:42,416
but you weren't.
838
00:39:42,969 --> 00:39:44,147
That's sweet.
839
00:39:44,172 --> 00:39:47,050
No, it isn't.
840
00:39:47,075 --> 00:39:48,620
It hurt.
841
00:39:48,645 --> 00:39:50,038
You hurt me.
842
00:39:50,423 --> 00:39:52,168
Okay, Shaun, you know...
843
00:39:52,193 --> 00:39:54,934
You went away, and it hurt,
844
00:39:54,959 --> 00:39:57,604
and it kept hurting, and now you're back.
845
00:39:57,629 --> 00:40:00,541
♪
846
00:40:00,566 --> 00:40:03,092
If you stay, you will go away again,
847
00:40:03,117 --> 00:40:05,863
and it will hurt again.
848
00:40:05,888 --> 00:40:08,366
So I want you to go back to Hershey.
849
00:40:08,391 --> 00:40:10,870
♪
850
00:40:10,895 --> 00:40:12,572
I know you don't mean that, and I know...
851
00:40:12,597 --> 00:40:16,010
Please go back to Hershey
852
00:40:16,035 --> 00:40:18,480
or anywhere other than here!
853
00:40:18,505 --> 00:40:22,408
♪
854
00:40:22,433 --> 00:40:26,603
♪
855
00:40:29,895 --> 00:40:33,364
(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)
856
00:40:33,389 --> 00:40:39,070
♪
857
00:40:39,095 --> 00:40:44,777
♪
858
00:40:45,346 --> 00:40:46,379
Feeling okay?
859
00:40:47,942 --> 00:40:50,682
Yeah, sure, superduper.
860
00:40:51,758 --> 00:40:53,970
I want to thank you for your trust.
861
00:40:53,995 --> 00:40:55,462
I'll do my best to deserve it.
862
00:40:56,365 --> 00:40:58,633
Well, that's all I can ask.
863
00:41:01,215 --> 00:41:02,859
You know the drill.
864
00:41:02,884 --> 00:41:09,500
♪
865
00:41:09,525 --> 00:41:10,859
10...
866
00:41:11,813 --> 00:41:13,113
9...
867
00:41:15,396 --> 00:41:16,563
8...
868
00:41:18,053 --> 00:41:19,053
7...