1 00:00:03,047 --> 00:00:04,580 Okay. 2 00:00:04,615 --> 00:00:05,614 Okay. 3 00:00:11,654 --> 00:00:13,235 Okay. 4 00:00:25,101 --> 00:00:27,047 This is terrifying! 5 00:00:30,265 --> 00:00:31,932 - Oh! Oh! 6 00:00:31,957 --> 00:00:33,590 And very fun! 7 00:01:18,099 --> 00:01:19,632 Are you ready to try lying down? 8 00:01:19,634 --> 00:01:22,669 Because I am ready, Shaun. I am very ready. 9 00:01:22,671 --> 00:01:23,836 Carly... 10 00:01:23,838 --> 00:01:25,374 Mm. 11 00:01:25,907 --> 00:01:29,242 600 thread count microfiber sheets. 12 00:01:29,244 --> 00:01:32,178 A shredded memory foam pillow. 13 00:01:32,180 --> 00:01:37,303 A 40-watt A19 incandescent bulb. 14 00:02:07,082 --> 00:02:09,015 I'm sorry. 15 00:02:24,999 --> 00:02:26,766 You didn't return my calls this weekend. 16 00:02:26,768 --> 00:02:29,068 After a ride up Skyline Boulevard, 17 00:02:29,070 --> 00:02:30,837 60 minutes of Muay Thai, 18 00:02:30,839 --> 00:02:34,107 and a 15-year reserve Scotch, 19 00:02:34,109 --> 00:02:36,075 I had a moment of clarity. 20 00:02:37,144 --> 00:02:39,279 What you said about my objectivity in the Fields case 21 00:02:39,281 --> 00:02:40,741 wasn't about me. 22 00:02:41,575 --> 00:02:42,993 You were in pain. 23 00:02:43,661 --> 00:02:46,486 I was taking responsibility. 24 00:02:46,488 --> 00:02:48,421 And asking you to take your share. 25 00:02:48,423 --> 00:02:50,957 It was a good surgical plan. 26 00:02:53,427 --> 00:02:55,295 You need to accept that, 27 00:02:55,297 --> 00:02:58,364 despite being a gifted surgeon, 28 00:02:58,366 --> 00:03:00,010 you are fallible. 29 00:03:00,835 --> 00:03:03,169 I think I should run my procedures by Glassman 30 00:03:03,171 --> 00:03:04,682 from now on. 31 00:03:05,874 --> 00:03:08,341 Audrey, we need some checks and balances. 32 00:03:10,044 --> 00:03:11,911 I am checked and balanced. 33 00:03:18,320 --> 00:03:20,698 And I'm the chief of this department. 34 00:03:22,700 --> 00:03:25,224 You will continue to run your medical decisions past me. 35 00:03:39,674 --> 00:03:41,140 Browne, you're with Melendez today. 36 00:03:41,142 --> 00:03:44,043 Murphy and Park, meet me in the E.R. observation unit in 20. 37 00:03:44,045 --> 00:03:46,379 I thought I was on E.R. consults with Park today. 38 00:03:46,381 --> 00:03:48,381 If I'm being bumped because I took off the other day, 39 00:03:48,383 --> 00:03:49,582 Dr. Browne was every bit of... 40 00:03:49,584 --> 00:03:50,950 First lead surgery. 41 00:03:53,053 --> 00:03:54,153 Thank you. 42 00:03:54,155 --> 00:03:55,588 Scheduled for tomorrow. 43 00:03:55,590 --> 00:03:57,857 Study the images and prep your patient. 44 00:03:59,361 --> 00:04:01,627 Yes! I rock, I rock! 45 00:04:01,629 --> 00:04:03,463 The surgery gods know it, I know it, 46 00:04:03,465 --> 00:04:05,798 and apparently, so does Andrews. 47 00:04:05,800 --> 00:04:07,867 Boasting doesn't have the same impact 48 00:04:07,869 --> 00:04:09,402 when you're picked last. 49 00:04:09,404 --> 00:04:12,238 He was obviously waiting for the right case to come along. 50 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:13,834 No. 51 00:04:14,877 --> 00:04:17,076 You're kidding me. 52 00:04:17,078 --> 00:04:19,545 This is much better than my first surgery. 53 00:04:19,547 --> 00:04:22,248 Damn right. A med student could do an appy. 54 00:04:22,250 --> 00:04:25,318 The carotid endarterectomy takes serious finesse. 55 00:04:25,320 --> 00:04:26,986 Fair to say it's really a 5th-year procedure, 56 00:04:26,988 --> 00:04:29,722 but I don't have time to sit around debating semantics. 57 00:04:29,724 --> 00:04:33,226 I have the Holy Grail of resident surgeries to prep for. 58 00:04:37,799 --> 00:04:39,632 The tumor was found on my left lung 59 00:04:39,634 --> 00:04:41,612 at my medical fitness exam. 60 00:04:42,670 --> 00:04:44,036 Tricky spot. 61 00:04:44,038 --> 00:04:45,505 Curable, 62 00:04:45,800 --> 00:04:48,035 but tough to remove without taking the entire lung. 63 00:04:49,309 --> 00:04:50,576 That's what they said. 64 00:04:50,578 --> 00:04:52,539 And you didn't like that answer? 65 00:04:52,947 --> 00:04:54,792 I need my lung. 66 00:04:55,350 --> 00:04:56,916 I'm going to the moon. 67 00:05:03,367 --> 00:05:11,377 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 68 00:05:11,379 --> 00:05:13,433 When did the chest pain start? 69 00:05:13,435 --> 00:05:15,068 Around 9:00 this morning. 70 00:05:15,092 --> 00:05:16,882 Okay, I'm gonna look at your heart. 71 00:05:16,883 --> 00:05:18,404 This gel may be a little cold. 72 00:05:18,406 --> 00:05:19,739 You see a cardiologist. 73 00:05:19,741 --> 00:05:21,707 Did you use the nitro he prescribed? 74 00:05:21,709 --> 00:05:25,278 It usually relieves the angina, but not this time. 75 00:05:27,781 --> 00:05:31,350 Are... you the same Rosalind Elion 76 00:05:31,352 --> 00:05:32,852 who just published a study 77 00:05:32,854 --> 00:05:35,121 on IDH2 Inhibitors in Myeloid Leukemia 78 00:05:35,123 --> 00:05:37,290 in the Journal of Pediatric Oncology? 79 00:05:37,292 --> 00:05:39,592 - Yeah. - Wow. 80 00:05:39,594 --> 00:05:41,338 You're famous. 81 00:05:43,297 --> 00:05:45,934 W... I-I used an IDH2 on a kid with AML. 82 00:05:45,936 --> 00:05:47,337 - I mean, he's doing great. - Oh. 83 00:05:47,339 --> 00:05:50,236 Your studies revolutionized leukemia treatment. 84 00:05:50,238 --> 00:05:51,537 It's an honor to meet you. 85 00:05:51,539 --> 00:05:52,872 That's kind of you to say. 86 00:05:52,874 --> 00:05:55,541 Noticing anteroapical wall motion abnormalities. 87 00:05:55,543 --> 00:05:56,976 Is your chest pain worsening? 88 00:05:56,978 --> 00:05:58,611 Yes. How did you... 89 00:05:58,613 --> 00:06:00,079 She's having a heart attack. 90 00:06:00,081 --> 00:06:02,215 Contact her family, then meet us in surgery. 91 00:06:02,217 --> 00:06:03,683 She needs a triple bypass. 92 00:06:09,324 --> 00:06:11,123 The moon? 93 00:06:11,125 --> 00:06:13,593 The moon. In 2020. 94 00:06:13,595 --> 00:06:16,496 It's a private venture partnership with NASA. 95 00:06:16,874 --> 00:06:18,998 Floating in an expanse of uninhabitable emptiness 96 00:06:19,000 --> 00:06:21,767 200,000 miles from the nearest Starbucks... 97 00:06:21,769 --> 00:06:23,839 - Mm. - ...not for me. 98 00:06:24,739 --> 00:06:27,106 You never wanted to be an astronaut when you were a kid? 99 00:06:28,041 --> 00:06:29,876 Had enough challenges here on Earth. 100 00:06:29,878 --> 00:06:31,043 Did you? 101 00:06:31,045 --> 00:06:33,212 I was a Trekker. 102 00:06:33,214 --> 00:06:35,314 All my friends had Spock ears. 103 00:06:35,316 --> 00:06:36,902 I was all about McCoy. 104 00:06:39,017 --> 00:06:40,731 There's our tumor. 105 00:06:41,456 --> 00:06:43,623 It's embedded in the hilum. 106 00:06:43,625 --> 00:06:46,058 NASA doctor was right. 107 00:06:46,403 --> 00:06:48,127 We'd have to take the entire lung to get it out. 108 00:06:48,129 --> 00:06:49,829 Not necessarily. 109 00:06:49,831 --> 00:06:51,631 The tumor's grown into the upper lobe. 110 00:06:51,633 --> 00:06:53,666 If we can remove it from the main bronchus, 111 00:06:53,668 --> 00:06:55,368 we can get a clean margin. 112 00:06:55,370 --> 00:06:57,270 The rest of the lung can stay. 113 00:06:59,206 --> 00:07:00,640 No-go. 114 00:07:00,642 --> 00:07:01,941 You'd have 80% of your... 115 00:07:01,943 --> 00:07:04,076 If treatment reduces my lung volume at all, 116 00:07:04,078 --> 00:07:05,678 I'll be unfit for space travel. 117 00:07:05,680 --> 00:07:07,146 The mass is too deep. 118 00:07:07,148 --> 00:07:09,715 Major blood vessels, your airway, esophagus, 119 00:07:09,717 --> 00:07:11,617 and heart are right there. 120 00:07:11,619 --> 00:07:14,120 The next opinion you get will be the same. 121 00:07:14,122 --> 00:07:15,321 Or worse. 122 00:07:15,323 --> 00:07:17,290 Thank you for your time. 123 00:07:56,464 --> 00:07:57,964 What do you see at the apex? 124 00:07:57,966 --> 00:08:01,400 I see perfusion abnormalities. 125 00:08:01,402 --> 00:08:04,971 Her LAD and PD are completely occluded. 126 00:08:04,973 --> 00:08:07,206 She listed her husband as her medical proxy. 127 00:08:07,208 --> 00:08:09,408 You'll need to update him as soon as he gets here. 128 00:08:09,410 --> 00:08:12,211 The entire left side of her heart is compromised. 129 00:08:12,213 --> 00:08:13,679 He's not coming. 130 00:08:13,681 --> 00:08:15,147 They've been divorced for two years. 131 00:08:15,149 --> 00:08:17,516 He hasn't spoken to her in almost that long. 132 00:08:17,518 --> 00:08:20,886 Murphy, anastomose the internal mammary to the LAD. 133 00:08:20,888 --> 00:08:22,588 Let's see if we can give her heart a blood supply. 134 00:08:22,590 --> 00:08:24,590 I tracked down her sister in Santa Cruz. 135 00:08:24,592 --> 00:08:26,692 She hasn't seen Rosalind in years, either. 136 00:08:26,694 --> 00:08:28,294 That's a lot of legwork for a surgeon... 137 00:08:28,296 --> 00:08:29,729 no social worker available? 138 00:08:29,731 --> 00:08:32,398 It's good that you didn't find anyone. 139 00:08:32,400 --> 00:08:35,735 Family members are the least qualified people in the room 140 00:08:35,737 --> 00:08:38,015 to make medical decisions. 141 00:08:38,373 --> 00:08:40,072 Judging by the state of her myocardium, 142 00:08:40,074 --> 00:08:42,436 there's only one choice, anyway. 143 00:08:43,177 --> 00:08:44,810 She needs a new heart. 144 00:08:54,628 --> 00:08:56,627 I think it's possible to spare her upper lobe 145 00:08:56,652 --> 00:08:57,944 using a surgical robot. 146 00:08:58,248 --> 00:09:00,448 Wren Braxton came to see me. 147 00:09:00,473 --> 00:09:02,240 You're her second opinion? 148 00:09:02,265 --> 00:09:04,300 Or fourth or whatever she's up to? 149 00:09:04,300 --> 00:09:07,168 I'm surprised you didn't offer the robotic option. 150 00:09:07,170 --> 00:09:09,994 It's the type of surgery I usually send your way. 151 00:09:09,994 --> 00:09:12,061 I didn't offer it because with the robot, 152 00:09:12,063 --> 00:09:13,522 if I nicked her pulmonary artery, 153 00:09:13,524 --> 00:09:15,061 she'd likely bleed out 154 00:09:15,086 --> 00:09:16,921 before I have a chance to open her up to control it. 155 00:09:16,923 --> 00:09:18,174 She's just gonna keep looking 156 00:09:18,176 --> 00:09:19,641 until someone gives her the answer she wants. 157 00:09:19,643 --> 00:09:21,257 And then what? 158 00:09:21,259 --> 00:09:23,333 What do you think her odds of survival are 159 00:09:23,335 --> 00:09:25,183 if some hack tries to cut the tumor out, 160 00:09:25,185 --> 00:09:27,049 leaving the lungs intact? 161 00:09:27,050 --> 00:09:28,216 Roughly zero. 162 00:09:28,218 --> 00:09:29,450 I agree. 163 00:09:29,452 --> 00:09:31,385 And with you? With the robot? 164 00:09:31,387 --> 00:09:32,545 Still lousy. 165 00:09:33,339 --> 00:09:35,240 You can do this. 166 00:09:35,242 --> 00:09:37,609 You're overestimating the risk, and I know why. 167 00:09:37,611 --> 00:09:39,578 And you're doing exactly what you did last time. 168 00:09:39,580 --> 00:09:41,346 Assuming that I can do anything. 169 00:09:41,348 --> 00:09:43,815 So everyone else is biased except for you? 170 00:09:43,817 --> 00:09:46,142 The one who just had a patient die on him? 171 00:09:46,954 --> 00:09:48,587 If it's had any effect, 172 00:09:48,589 --> 00:09:50,856 it's to make my judgment more acute. 173 00:09:50,858 --> 00:09:52,390 I won't risk having Wren leave here 174 00:09:52,392 --> 00:09:54,484 the same way that Patty Fields did. 175 00:09:55,662 --> 00:09:58,696 People risk things to make their dreams come true. 176 00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:02,400 If you don't want to help her, I'll do it myself. 177 00:10:11,211 --> 00:10:13,145 The intra-aortic balloon pump 178 00:10:13,147 --> 00:10:15,838 will support your heart until we find a donor. 179 00:10:16,283 --> 00:10:17,749 And when might that be? 180 00:10:17,751 --> 00:10:21,286 A heart is the most difficult organ to procure. 181 00:10:21,288 --> 00:10:23,788 But since yours is so badly damaged, 182 00:10:23,790 --> 00:10:26,307 you are very high on the list. 183 00:10:27,161 --> 00:10:29,060 I suppose that's a good thing. 184 00:10:29,062 --> 00:10:31,129 Not really. The... 185 00:10:31,131 --> 00:10:32,564 We're doing everything we can. 186 00:10:32,897 --> 00:10:34,119 Thank you. 187 00:10:34,121 --> 00:10:35,867 Is there anyone you want us to call? 188 00:10:35,869 --> 00:10:37,235 Yes. 189 00:10:39,606 --> 00:10:41,072 My lab assistant. 190 00:10:42,242 --> 00:10:43,842 The next few days are crucial 191 00:10:43,844 --> 00:10:46,744 to my monoclonal antibody study. 192 00:10:47,147 --> 00:10:49,681 Hannah needs to stay with the cultures around the clock. 193 00:10:53,620 --> 00:10:58,131 I don't want five years of work to go to waste. 194 00:10:58,992 --> 00:11:01,826 Can I ask why you listed your ex-husband 195 00:11:01,828 --> 00:11:03,803 as your medical proxy? 196 00:11:04,831 --> 00:11:06,831 I had to name someone. 197 00:11:06,833 --> 00:11:08,133 Leo is the only person 198 00:11:08,135 --> 00:11:10,835 I ever discussed my medical issues with. 199 00:11:10,837 --> 00:11:13,338 Now, if you don't mind, I have a lot of work to do, 200 00:11:13,340 --> 00:11:15,807 which, as you've indicated, 201 00:11:15,809 --> 00:11:17,809 I may not have a lot of time to do it. 202 00:11:36,063 --> 00:11:37,429 How are you, Shaun? 203 00:11:40,233 --> 00:11:41,967 These are STAT cardiac labs. 204 00:11:41,969 --> 00:11:43,201 I have to go. 205 00:11:43,203 --> 00:11:45,203 I hope you're not embarrassed about last night. 206 00:11:47,607 --> 00:11:49,274 I want to have sex with you. 207 00:11:51,477 --> 00:11:53,245 That's nice. 208 00:11:53,247 --> 00:11:55,855 I think about it very often. 209 00:11:56,650 --> 00:12:00,418 Even when I'm supposed to focus on more pressing matters. 210 00:12:00,420 --> 00:12:01,653 Like 15 minutes ago 211 00:12:01,655 --> 00:12:03,588 when I was filling out that lab requisition, 212 00:12:03,590 --> 00:12:05,957 I almost forgot to add a BNP. 213 00:12:05,959 --> 00:12:07,158 That's good. 214 00:12:07,160 --> 00:12:08,393 No, it's not. 215 00:12:08,395 --> 00:12:09,661 We need a BNP 216 00:12:09,663 --> 00:12:13,131 to monitor her cardiac function on the balloon pump. 217 00:12:13,133 --> 00:12:14,866 I've been thinking about you, too. 218 00:12:14,868 --> 00:12:16,234 Sometimes when I shouldn't. 219 00:12:16,236 --> 00:12:18,628 - That's bad. - Not really. 220 00:12:19,306 --> 00:12:21,706 I've been doing some research. 221 00:12:21,708 --> 00:12:24,709 I came across this therapy psychologists use 222 00:12:24,711 --> 00:12:26,511 to treat phobias. 223 00:12:26,513 --> 00:12:29,447 Apparently, it works in people with autism, too. 224 00:12:30,684 --> 00:12:32,651 If you're game, 225 00:12:32,653 --> 00:12:34,644 we could try tonight. 226 00:12:35,856 --> 00:12:37,188 I'm game. 227 00:12:43,997 --> 00:12:45,764 I need a different first surgery. 228 00:12:46,114 --> 00:12:47,732 There a problem with your patient? 229 00:12:47,734 --> 00:12:48,867 The plaque dissection 230 00:12:48,869 --> 00:12:51,169 is too advanced for a third-year resident. 231 00:12:56,676 --> 00:12:59,778 I was nervous as hell for my first surgery. 232 00:12:59,780 --> 00:13:01,346 And it was only a tonsillectomy. 233 00:13:01,348 --> 00:13:03,648 I could take out a pair of tonsils blindfolded. 234 00:13:03,650 --> 00:13:04,749 It's not nerves. 235 00:13:04,751 --> 00:13:06,618 This is more like a fifth-year procedure. 236 00:13:06,620 --> 00:13:08,086 You're setting me up to fail. 237 00:13:08,088 --> 00:13:10,021 This is why I picked you. 238 00:13:10,023 --> 00:13:12,991 You come to me scared, and you couch it in arrogance. 239 00:13:15,127 --> 00:13:17,262 It's rare that a resident has what you have... 240 00:13:17,264 --> 00:13:18,897 the aggressiveness, the work ethic, 241 00:13:18,899 --> 00:13:21,691 and talent to be a leader. 242 00:13:22,436 --> 00:13:23,935 I'm not setting you up to fail. 243 00:13:23,937 --> 00:13:26,004 I'm setting you up to shine. 244 00:13:28,107 --> 00:13:29,674 Or am I wrong about you? 245 00:13:32,211 --> 00:13:33,645 No, sir. 246 00:13:49,762 --> 00:13:51,896 I want you to do my surgery. 247 00:13:51,898 --> 00:13:53,890 The one Dr. Lim suggested. 248 00:13:55,268 --> 00:13:56,668 It was Dr. Lim's idea. 249 00:13:56,670 --> 00:13:58,803 She's an excellent surgeon and my superior. 250 00:13:58,805 --> 00:14:00,938 And you think I'm an idiot. 251 00:14:02,008 --> 00:14:04,233 I am afraid of this surgery. 252 00:14:05,212 --> 00:14:07,445 And I'm afraid of going to the moon. 253 00:14:07,447 --> 00:14:08,646 It's not about the moon. 254 00:14:08,648 --> 00:14:10,048 It's about the fear. 255 00:14:10,050 --> 00:14:12,150 It's about getting beyond that. 256 00:14:12,152 --> 00:14:13,951 That's how great things happen... 257 00:14:14,521 --> 00:14:16,488 how they've always happened... 258 00:14:16,490 --> 00:14:18,581 because someone took a chance. 259 00:14:19,192 --> 00:14:20,925 From what I've read about you, 260 00:14:20,927 --> 00:14:23,836 you're exactly the kind of person I need in my corner. 261 00:14:24,364 --> 00:14:25,630 Exactly the kind of person 262 00:14:25,632 --> 00:14:27,432 I would've thought would understand. 263 00:14:29,902 --> 00:14:32,170 Fear is also what keeps us alive. 264 00:14:35,075 --> 00:14:36,241 What do you think the odds are 265 00:14:36,243 --> 00:14:38,309 of you not coming back from the moon? 266 00:14:39,146 --> 00:14:42,180 The reason it's heroic, the reason it's exciting 267 00:14:42,182 --> 00:14:44,449 is because you don't know what to expect. 268 00:14:44,451 --> 00:14:46,651 You can't anticipate everything. 269 00:14:49,088 --> 00:14:51,022 1%, 2%, maybe 5%. 270 00:14:51,024 --> 00:14:52,690 60%. 271 00:14:52,692 --> 00:14:54,742 This surgery, if I were doing it, 272 00:14:55,295 --> 00:14:57,228 there is a 60% chance 273 00:14:57,230 --> 00:14:59,063 that you die on the table. 274 00:15:03,068 --> 00:15:05,737 It's called exposure therapy. 275 00:15:05,739 --> 00:15:07,772 We'll lie down on the bed side-by-side, 276 00:15:07,774 --> 00:15:10,909 fully clothed and not touching for 15 seconds. 277 00:15:11,217 --> 00:15:12,610 When this timer goes off, 278 00:15:12,612 --> 00:15:15,547 you'll go into the other room for a three-minute break, 279 00:15:15,549 --> 00:15:18,383 and then we'll go again for 20 seconds. 280 00:15:18,385 --> 00:15:21,519 Over time, we will progress to longer intervals 281 00:15:21,521 --> 00:15:24,313 and start to lie closer together. 282 00:15:24,858 --> 00:15:27,459 This seems like a good approach. 283 00:15:38,370 --> 00:15:40,038 Whenever you're ready. 284 00:16:37,330 --> 00:16:38,763 Are you okay? 285 00:16:38,765 --> 00:16:39,864 What... What are you feeling? 286 00:16:39,866 --> 00:16:42,100 I... I... I don't know. 287 00:16:42,102 --> 00:16:44,102 I don't... I don't know. 288 00:16:44,104 --> 00:16:46,137 I don't know why it didn't work! 289 00:16:46,139 --> 00:16:47,672 It's okay, Shaun. We'll try again. 290 00:16:47,674 --> 00:16:49,507 No! No. 291 00:16:49,509 --> 00:16:50,909 No... No, I can't. 292 00:16:50,911 --> 00:16:52,877 W-We'll try for less time. 293 00:16:52,879 --> 00:16:55,413 I can't do this! 294 00:17:00,987 --> 00:17:02,020 Go. 295 00:17:02,879 --> 00:17:03,955 What? 296 00:17:03,957 --> 00:17:05,290 Go. 297 00:17:05,292 --> 00:17:06,665 Get outta here. 298 00:17:07,894 --> 00:17:10,295 We can watch the end... 299 00:17:10,297 --> 00:17:12,063 I got the sheets, 300 00:17:12,065 --> 00:17:13,731 The pillow, the damn lightbulb. 301 00:17:13,733 --> 00:17:16,968 I read 18 psych journals. 302 00:17:16,970 --> 00:17:19,237 And you give up after eight seconds? 303 00:17:22,007 --> 00:17:24,876 You're right. This isn't going to work. 304 00:17:31,985 --> 00:17:33,318 Go home. 305 00:17:49,827 --> 00:17:51,440 How are things with Carly? 306 00:17:51,441 --> 00:17:53,729 I lasted eight seconds. 307 00:17:54,444 --> 00:17:57,779 She kicked me out of her house. 308 00:17:59,582 --> 00:18:02,784 First time is difficult. I'm sure she didn't... 309 00:18:02,786 --> 00:18:06,320 We tried timed exposure therapy to get physically closer, 310 00:18:06,322 --> 00:18:09,424 but I... couldn't do it. 311 00:18:10,894 --> 00:18:13,094 So try something else. 312 00:18:14,463 --> 00:18:18,232 When I lie close to her, I feel diaphoretic, 313 00:18:18,234 --> 00:18:20,568 my heart rate is elevated, 314 00:18:20,570 --> 00:18:22,837 and mouth gets dry. 315 00:18:22,839 --> 00:18:25,636 I don't know how to not feel that way. 316 00:18:26,543 --> 00:18:27,909 You want this, Shaun? 317 00:18:28,597 --> 00:18:30,141 Yes. 318 00:18:30,914 --> 00:18:32,280 Very much. 319 00:18:32,282 --> 00:18:33,948 Then rely on your strengths. 320 00:18:33,950 --> 00:18:35,650 Treat it like a surgical problem. 321 00:18:35,652 --> 00:18:37,385 Do your research. 322 00:18:37,387 --> 00:18:39,654 Carly came up with a solution, it didn't work, 323 00:18:39,656 --> 00:18:41,656 but that doesn't mean the next one won't. 324 00:18:43,927 --> 00:18:45,426 Give me some good news. 325 00:18:45,428 --> 00:18:46,894 I had a potential donor in San Diego, 326 00:18:46,896 --> 00:18:48,730 but the heart was just too damaged. 327 00:18:48,732 --> 00:18:50,264 I'm at the GE junction now. 328 00:18:54,069 --> 00:18:57,138 Now she has complete right-sided failure, too. 329 00:18:58,574 --> 00:19:00,641 It's time to discuss a DNR. 330 00:19:00,643 --> 00:19:02,710 She's got one day left in this world. 331 00:19:02,712 --> 00:19:04,145 Let's keep her comfortable. 332 00:19:09,952 --> 00:19:11,385 60%? 333 00:19:11,387 --> 00:19:13,354 That number is grossly exaggerated. 334 00:19:13,356 --> 00:19:14,989 I spent an hour convincing my patient 335 00:19:14,991 --> 00:19:16,257 I'm not trying to kill her. 336 00:19:16,259 --> 00:19:18,893 She came to me. I gave her my surgical opinion. 337 00:19:18,895 --> 00:19:20,695 I... I could fire you for this. 338 00:19:20,697 --> 00:19:22,230 Because I contradicted your opinion 339 00:19:22,232 --> 00:19:23,831 after you contradicted my opinion? 340 00:19:23,833 --> 00:19:26,601 I gave her an option you were too afraid to present. 341 00:19:26,603 --> 00:19:28,770 No, you proposed a potentially deadly surgery 342 00:19:28,772 --> 00:19:29,971 to a woman who was desperate 343 00:19:29,973 --> 00:19:31,572 for any option, no matter how crazy. 344 00:19:31,574 --> 00:19:33,541 - You don't have the authority... - Authority? 345 00:19:33,543 --> 00:19:34,898 I thought we were talking about the patient... 346 00:19:34,900 --> 00:19:36,690 It was unprofessional, disrespectful... 347 00:19:36,692 --> 00:19:38,746 - I don't... - If anyone showed a lack of respect... 348 00:19:38,748 --> 00:19:40,414 Doctors. 349 00:19:40,416 --> 00:19:41,682 My office. 350 00:19:49,325 --> 00:19:52,139 I wouldn't want to be kept alive on life support. 351 00:19:53,530 --> 00:19:56,798 Not if there was no hope for a recovery. 352 00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:58,432 There wouldn't be. 353 00:19:58,938 --> 00:20:00,935 As your heart failure worsens, 354 00:20:00,937 --> 00:20:04,338 you may get short of breath from fluid build-up. 355 00:20:04,340 --> 00:20:06,507 We can use diuretics and vasodilators 356 00:20:06,509 --> 00:20:08,209 to help control that. 357 00:20:08,211 --> 00:20:10,244 I recommend both of those. 358 00:20:10,246 --> 00:20:11,946 Of course. Yes. 359 00:20:11,948 --> 00:20:13,748 If that doesn't help, 360 00:20:13,750 --> 00:20:16,017 we could insert a catheter in your chest 361 00:20:16,019 --> 00:20:17,084 to drain the fluid. 362 00:20:17,086 --> 00:20:18,886 The procedure does risk a lung puncture, 363 00:20:18,888 --> 00:20:21,322 which would worsen your symptoms. 364 00:20:21,324 --> 00:20:24,421 You should give us every option to keep you breathing easy. 365 00:20:25,395 --> 00:20:26,828 And we'll be on call all night 366 00:20:26,830 --> 00:20:28,863 to make sure you're as comfortable as possible. 367 00:20:29,468 --> 00:20:31,165 Thank you. 368 00:20:33,569 --> 00:20:35,069 I went through this with my mom 369 00:20:35,071 --> 00:20:36,904 when she was dying of leukemia. 370 00:20:36,906 --> 00:20:38,394 I'm so sorry. 371 00:20:39,876 --> 00:20:41,809 Was that recent? 372 00:20:41,811 --> 00:20:44,111 I was 10. 373 00:20:47,015 --> 00:20:49,417 I remember feeling so helpless... 374 00:20:50,886 --> 00:20:52,954 You should reach out to Leo. 375 00:20:52,956 --> 00:20:55,489 It's too late. 376 00:20:55,869 --> 00:20:58,159 I don't believe that. 377 00:21:04,300 --> 00:21:06,000 There were, uh, 378 00:21:06,002 --> 00:21:08,299 things between my wife and I 379 00:21:08,838 --> 00:21:11,093 that I thought we could never get past. 380 00:21:12,308 --> 00:21:14,275 But last Christmas... 381 00:21:16,645 --> 00:21:18,392 ...we almost lost our son. 382 00:21:19,749 --> 00:21:23,718 And when I reached out, Mia was there. 383 00:21:25,053 --> 00:21:26,609 Leo... 384 00:21:28,424 --> 00:21:30,258 always made me feel pressured to choose 385 00:21:30,260 --> 00:21:32,406 between my research and him. 386 00:21:34,631 --> 00:21:37,331 Eventually, I realized he was right. 387 00:21:39,768 --> 00:21:42,603 So I chose to go - where I was needed the most. 388 00:21:43,208 --> 00:21:47,588 To call him now would be hypocritical and... 389 00:21:48,912 --> 00:21:50,745 unfair. 390 00:21:53,448 --> 00:21:56,884 It took a lot of time 391 00:21:56,886 --> 00:22:00,288 and dedication to push our understanding of leukemia 392 00:22:00,290 --> 00:22:02,089 as far as you did. 393 00:22:02,091 --> 00:22:05,564 I'm glad I have treatment options for my patients. 394 00:22:06,963 --> 00:22:08,763 You made a good choice. 395 00:22:16,072 --> 00:22:17,972 Sorry to keep you waiting. 396 00:22:17,974 --> 00:22:20,908 I assume that some of this is professional, 397 00:22:20,910 --> 00:22:23,477 the other 90% is personal. 398 00:22:23,479 --> 00:22:25,012 Am I right? 399 00:22:25,014 --> 00:22:26,480 Well, it's a very difficult case. 400 00:22:26,482 --> 00:22:29,183 We're both just overly invested. 401 00:22:29,185 --> 00:22:31,808 Actually, I'd love for you to weigh in on this one. 402 00:22:32,889 --> 00:22:35,456 Dr. Lim, are you confident in the surgical plan? 403 00:22:37,192 --> 00:22:38,592 - Good luck. - Thank you. 404 00:22:38,594 --> 00:22:40,161 You didn't even look at the case. 405 00:22:40,599 --> 00:22:42,997 - The pulmonary... - Dr. Lim is my Chief of Surgery. 406 00:22:42,999 --> 00:22:44,465 I trust her judgment. 407 00:22:45,521 --> 00:22:47,234 I'm sorry things got out of hand. 408 00:22:47,236 --> 00:22:48,369 It won't happen again. 409 00:22:48,371 --> 00:22:49,937 It better not happen again. 410 00:22:49,939 --> 00:22:52,440 If you two can't control your interpersonal squabblings, 411 00:22:52,442 --> 00:22:54,241 I'm gonna have to lose one of you... 412 00:22:54,243 --> 00:22:55,476 at least. 413 00:23:06,004 --> 00:23:08,372 We need an endoscopy suite to fetch the spoon 414 00:23:08,374 --> 00:23:09,652 out of this guy's stomach. 415 00:23:09,999 --> 00:23:11,032 Cool. 416 00:23:11,034 --> 00:23:12,733 How's the intimacy research going? 417 00:23:12,735 --> 00:23:16,103 Dr. Elion has had a very successful life 418 00:23:16,105 --> 00:23:17,605 without a relationship. 419 00:23:17,607 --> 00:23:19,073 So can I. 420 00:23:19,075 --> 00:23:21,576 Success and happiness aren't the same thing. 421 00:23:21,578 --> 00:23:24,545 You need to decide what will make you happy in... the end. 422 00:23:24,547 --> 00:23:27,348 I don't know if it's being a great surgeon 423 00:23:27,350 --> 00:23:28,816 or being close to Carly. 424 00:23:28,818 --> 00:23:31,619 But I'm better at surgery than I am with her. 425 00:23:31,621 --> 00:23:34,288 Dr. Elion is wrong. You don't have to choose. 426 00:23:34,290 --> 00:23:35,923 I fly to Phoenix every other weekend 427 00:23:35,925 --> 00:23:37,592 to spend time with Mia and Kellan. 428 00:23:37,594 --> 00:23:39,760 Then you won't be great at either. 429 00:23:42,397 --> 00:23:45,266 I think Dr. Elion is afraid. 430 00:23:47,302 --> 00:23:49,136 I think it was never about the journals 431 00:23:49,138 --> 00:23:51,010 and the lives she could save. 432 00:23:51,407 --> 00:23:53,774 I think she's always been afraid... 433 00:23:53,776 --> 00:23:55,276 afraid she might lose Leo 434 00:23:55,278 --> 00:23:57,141 just like she lost her mother. 435 00:23:57,480 --> 00:23:58,880 And you, 436 00:23:58,882 --> 00:24:00,615 you lost the person you loved the most 437 00:24:00,617 --> 00:24:02,229 when your brother died. 438 00:24:02,752 --> 00:24:04,952 Your elevated heart rate, sweaty palms... 439 00:24:04,954 --> 00:24:07,234 they're not about your sensory issues, Shaun. 440 00:24:07,690 --> 00:24:09,612 It's what we all feel... 441 00:24:10,493 --> 00:24:11,726 fear. 442 00:24:14,062 --> 00:24:18,299 W-Why would anyone want to feel afraid? 443 00:24:21,303 --> 00:24:24,705 Because the thought of ending up alone is scarier. 444 00:24:31,748 --> 00:24:35,016 I don't think Dr. Elion refuses to call Leo 445 00:24:35,018 --> 00:24:36,847 because it's hypocritical. 446 00:24:37,687 --> 00:24:40,254 I think she's afraid he won't come. 447 00:24:40,256 --> 00:24:41,455 Can you handle the spoon? 448 00:24:41,457 --> 00:24:42,728 Yes. 449 00:24:43,826 --> 00:24:45,526 Okay. 450 00:24:51,300 --> 00:24:53,434 - Good morning, Dr. Glassman. - Morning. 451 00:24:53,436 --> 00:24:55,202 Which shoulder would you like to hurt 452 00:24:55,204 --> 00:24:56,938 for the next 24 hours? 453 00:24:56,940 --> 00:24:58,539 I'm not here for a vaccine. 454 00:24:59,375 --> 00:25:00,519 Okay. 455 00:25:00,521 --> 00:25:03,577 Wrist and thumb joint pain. I need cortisone shots. 456 00:25:03,579 --> 00:25:05,413 Surgery's in two hours. 457 00:25:08,417 --> 00:25:10,217 Can I ask you something? 458 00:25:10,219 --> 00:25:12,920 If a patient... say, a violinist 459 00:25:12,922 --> 00:25:15,122 who concertized three or four times a week... 460 00:25:15,124 --> 00:25:17,124 were to come to you with achy joints, 461 00:25:17,126 --> 00:25:18,693 would you give them a cortisone shot 462 00:25:18,695 --> 00:25:20,361 or tell them to lay off for a while? 463 00:25:21,531 --> 00:25:22,997 Better question... 464 00:25:22,999 --> 00:25:25,232 if he or she came to you with achy joints 465 00:25:25,234 --> 00:25:28,302 and pretended they needed a vaccination, 466 00:25:28,304 --> 00:25:30,338 what would you do then? 467 00:25:32,074 --> 00:25:33,217 It's... 468 00:25:34,410 --> 00:25:36,510 It's because I wanted you to know 469 00:25:36,512 --> 00:25:38,012 and no one else. 470 00:25:47,589 --> 00:25:50,257 I saw a rheumatologist last month. 471 00:25:51,879 --> 00:25:53,947 I have rheumatoid arthritis. 472 00:25:57,699 --> 00:25:59,166 Wow. 473 00:25:59,168 --> 00:26:00,768 I'm sorry to hear that. 474 00:26:04,506 --> 00:26:06,807 My... My mom had it, too. 475 00:26:06,809 --> 00:26:10,978 It... It destroyed her wrist and finger joints. 476 00:26:14,683 --> 00:26:16,817 Maybe I should leave St. Bonaventure. 477 00:26:17,531 --> 00:26:19,286 Berkeley's chief is retiring this year. 478 00:26:19,288 --> 00:26:20,755 I could apply to replace him. 479 00:26:20,757 --> 00:26:22,890 We're entitled to have differing opinions. 480 00:26:22,892 --> 00:26:23,991 We can argue... 481 00:26:23,993 --> 00:26:25,993 Apparently we can't. 482 00:26:29,665 --> 00:26:31,029 I love you. 483 00:26:40,676 --> 00:26:44,224 I want our relationship to work. 484 00:26:44,981 --> 00:26:46,977 And I want to be chief. 485 00:26:47,417 --> 00:26:48,983 If we can't find a way to work together 486 00:26:48,985 --> 00:26:50,648 with me as your boss, 487 00:26:51,654 --> 00:26:53,754 then something has to change. 488 00:26:57,559 --> 00:26:59,894 Looks like you caught it early, 489 00:26:59,896 --> 00:27:03,597 without any noticeable erosion of the joints. 490 00:27:03,599 --> 00:27:05,633 That's good. What's your D-MARD dose? 491 00:27:05,635 --> 00:27:07,735 20 milligrams, but Dr. Baxter 492 00:27:07,737 --> 00:27:09,737 just started it. 493 00:27:14,209 --> 00:27:15,589 Okay. 494 00:27:16,312 --> 00:27:18,045 You're gonna have to postpone 495 00:27:18,047 --> 00:27:20,147 your first lead surgery for a while, 496 00:27:20,149 --> 00:27:21,749 see how you respond. 497 00:27:21,751 --> 00:27:24,251 I-I'd have to explain why to Andrews and Lim. 498 00:27:24,253 --> 00:27:25,453 As you should. 499 00:27:25,455 --> 00:27:28,522 A cortisone shot is just a temporary fix. 500 00:27:28,524 --> 00:27:30,324 Do you know what the chances are the D-MARD 501 00:27:30,326 --> 00:27:32,693 can maintain the dexterity you need 502 00:27:32,695 --> 00:27:34,495 to perform an operation in the long run? 503 00:27:34,497 --> 00:27:35,830 45%. 504 00:27:35,832 --> 00:27:37,898 I-It'll change the way they see me. 505 00:27:37,900 --> 00:27:39,967 Yeah, you have a condition... 506 00:27:39,969 --> 00:27:41,202 a medical condition. 507 00:27:41,204 --> 00:27:42,603 They'll expect less from me. 508 00:27:42,605 --> 00:27:44,438 They'll be looking for me to fail. 509 00:27:44,440 --> 00:27:48,080 Th... That's why I'm confiding in you instead of them. 510 00:27:49,711 --> 00:27:50,945 You advocated for Shaun 511 00:27:50,947 --> 00:27:52,913 when everybody else thought he couldn't be a surgeon. 512 00:27:52,915 --> 00:27:55,583 I'm sorry, you're comparing arthritis to autism? 513 00:27:55,585 --> 00:27:57,384 I'm comparing people's assumptions, 514 00:27:57,386 --> 00:27:59,133 people's prejudices. 515 00:28:00,022 --> 00:28:03,345 I'm asking for a chance to prove myself. 516 00:28:07,162 --> 00:28:08,696 In this surgery today, 517 00:28:08,698 --> 00:28:12,433 you're gonna have to create a plane as thin as paper 518 00:28:12,435 --> 00:28:15,202 between two delicate layers of tissue 519 00:28:15,204 --> 00:28:17,972 without disrupting the major blood flow to the brain. 520 00:28:17,974 --> 00:28:21,709 If you miss by 1/10th... 1/10th of a millimeter, 521 00:28:21,711 --> 00:28:25,679 the patient will suffer permanent brain damage or worse. 522 00:28:32,421 --> 00:28:35,289 Right now, it's a matter of pain, 523 00:28:35,291 --> 00:28:36,824 not function. 524 00:28:36,826 --> 00:28:39,693 You think I would put a patient's life at risk? 525 00:28:39,695 --> 00:28:40,995 That's insulting. 526 00:28:42,898 --> 00:28:44,398 I'm sorry. 527 00:28:47,569 --> 00:28:51,138 Without the pain, I can do this. 528 00:28:52,674 --> 00:28:54,480 You believed in Shaun. 529 00:28:55,545 --> 00:28:58,412 I need someone to believe in me, too. 530 00:29:03,286 --> 00:29:04,385 Okay. 531 00:29:07,589 --> 00:29:08,889 Leo Adan? 532 00:29:08,891 --> 00:29:10,329 That's me. 533 00:29:11,661 --> 00:29:13,327 I'm Alex Park. 534 00:29:13,329 --> 00:29:14,628 I'm Rosalind's doctor. 535 00:29:16,798 --> 00:29:18,432 She's dying. 536 00:29:18,434 --> 00:29:19,767 She wants to see you. 537 00:29:21,536 --> 00:29:24,104 Then why didn't she call me? Why'd she send you? 538 00:29:24,106 --> 00:29:25,506 She doesn't know I'm here. 539 00:29:27,842 --> 00:29:31,245 Even when we were married, I never topped her to-do list. 540 00:29:31,247 --> 00:29:32,580 She wasn't cheating on you. 541 00:29:32,582 --> 00:29:35,549 She wasn't doing anything except saving lives. 542 00:29:35,551 --> 00:29:37,648 She deserves to be cut a little slack. 543 00:29:38,321 --> 00:29:40,087 Yeah. 544 00:29:40,089 --> 00:29:41,488 She was saving the whole damn world. 545 00:29:41,490 --> 00:29:42,856 She's a saint. 546 00:29:42,858 --> 00:29:45,226 I made partner, she wasn't there, everybody understood. 547 00:29:45,228 --> 00:29:47,761 My mother died, she wasn't there, everybody understood. 548 00:29:47,763 --> 00:29:49,243 Well, I didn't. 549 00:29:51,968 --> 00:29:54,702 Look, maybe I was a selfish jerk for wanting my wife to be around, 550 00:29:54,704 --> 00:29:56,250 but I did. 551 00:29:56,806 --> 00:29:58,806 She didn't send you. 552 00:29:58,808 --> 00:30:00,295 Good for her. 553 00:30:00,710 --> 00:30:02,977 She's not a hypocrite. At least that hasn't changed. 554 00:30:13,923 --> 00:30:15,756 Assistant port is secured. 555 00:30:15,758 --> 00:30:17,521 Load the forceps and electrocautery. 556 00:30:29,371 --> 00:30:31,739 My chief's doing a difficult surgery. 557 00:30:31,741 --> 00:30:33,607 I'm here to help in any way I can. 558 00:30:39,849 --> 00:30:42,049 Instruments are ready. 559 00:30:56,543 --> 00:30:59,177 Time of initial incision, 11:32. 560 00:31:06,553 --> 00:31:08,753 - How is she? - She's really short of breath. 561 00:31:08,755 --> 00:31:10,422 I gave her vasodilators and diuretics, 562 00:31:10,424 --> 00:31:11,990 but she's not settling. 563 00:31:15,796 --> 00:31:18,496 She has bilateral pulmonary edema. 564 00:31:18,498 --> 00:31:20,999 She needs 40 milligrams of furosemide. 565 00:31:21,001 --> 00:31:22,634 I'll push two lorazepam, too. 566 00:31:22,636 --> 00:31:24,035 I can't... 567 00:31:24,037 --> 00:31:26,605 c-catch... my breath... 568 00:31:26,607 --> 00:31:29,407 You've got fluid in your chest. 569 00:31:29,409 --> 00:31:31,643 This medication should help ease your breathing. 570 00:31:31,645 --> 00:31:33,812 She should be improving, 571 00:31:33,814 --> 00:31:35,180 but she's not. 572 00:31:35,182 --> 00:31:37,082 Maybe we should insert a drain. 573 00:31:40,287 --> 00:31:42,320 Shaun, this isn't about the fluid. 574 00:31:42,322 --> 00:31:43,922 She's scared. 575 00:31:43,924 --> 00:31:45,557 Rosalind, 576 00:31:45,559 --> 00:31:46,958 I know this is frightening, 577 00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:48,526 but you are not alone. 578 00:31:48,528 --> 00:31:51,496 I'm here, and I am not going anywhere. 579 00:31:51,498 --> 00:31:53,592 As long as you need me. 580 00:32:08,849 --> 00:32:10,749 Leo. 581 00:32:37,010 --> 00:32:38,721 I see the base of the tumor. 582 00:32:40,446 --> 00:32:43,048 There's a lot of bleeding teasing off the pulmonary vein. 583 00:32:43,050 --> 00:32:45,686 Put a bipolar electrocautery instrument on the right arm. 584 00:32:46,153 --> 00:32:47,652 It's way more friable than it looks. 585 00:32:47,654 --> 00:32:49,899 The tumor's invaded the vessel wall. 586 00:32:50,390 --> 00:32:52,457 I need to load more hemostatic matrix. 587 00:32:55,528 --> 00:32:58,396 If I keep going, I'll end up with a bleed I can't control. 588 00:33:04,972 --> 00:33:06,638 I need to take the lung. 589 00:33:10,142 --> 00:33:12,210 Prep her for an open thoracotomy. 590 00:33:18,885 --> 00:33:20,552 I need a prostatectomy kit. 591 00:33:22,621 --> 00:33:23,755 Now. 592 00:33:25,157 --> 00:33:27,692 Prostate cancers tend to grow along the surrounding nerves. 593 00:33:27,694 --> 00:33:29,561 The equipment's designed to dissect the tumor 594 00:33:29,563 --> 00:33:31,129 without injuring the nerves. 595 00:33:31,131 --> 00:33:32,464 Substitute arteries for nerves, 596 00:33:32,466 --> 00:33:34,132 and you've got our situation. 597 00:33:41,508 --> 00:33:42,874 Load the hot shears. 598 00:33:47,481 --> 00:33:49,280 Unclamp the proximal and distal end. 599 00:33:51,217 --> 00:33:53,003 You have good shunt flow. 600 00:33:53,754 --> 00:33:55,220 Loupes. 601 00:34:06,332 --> 00:34:08,800 Forceps and dissector. 602 00:34:17,911 --> 00:34:19,978 Is there a problem, Dr. Reznick? 603 00:34:57,783 --> 00:34:59,984 Nice work, Dr. Reznick. 604 00:35:20,352 --> 00:35:21,752 Did you...? 605 00:35:21,754 --> 00:35:23,168 We got it all. 606 00:35:24,557 --> 00:35:26,390 And you'll still need that flight suit. 607 00:35:28,361 --> 00:35:30,027 Thanks, Doc. 608 00:35:31,296 --> 00:35:33,431 He might've helped out a little, too. 609 00:35:33,433 --> 00:35:36,200 The tumor was more entangled in your arteries than it appeared, 610 00:35:36,202 --> 00:35:38,903 but Dr. Melendez pulled off a remarkable win for us. 611 00:35:40,605 --> 00:35:43,240 This is the reason you still have two complete lungs. 612 00:35:49,048 --> 00:35:49,947 Sign it. 613 00:35:51,760 --> 00:35:53,041 Both of you. 614 00:35:56,843 --> 00:35:58,811 I'm gonna leave it on the moon. 615 00:36:04,252 --> 00:36:06,018 She's very close. 616 00:36:44,558 --> 00:36:46,892 I'll pronounce her. 617 00:36:46,894 --> 00:36:48,516 I'd like to do it. 618 00:37:29,784 --> 00:37:31,570 Thank you. 619 00:37:45,452 --> 00:37:47,086 I hope it's not too late. 620 00:37:47,088 --> 00:37:48,220 It's fine. 621 00:37:48,595 --> 00:37:49,627 Come in. 622 00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:00,958 You were right. 623 00:38:02,803 --> 00:38:04,657 That was a crazy surgery. 624 00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:07,999 But not as crazy as I thought. 625 00:38:09,010 --> 00:38:11,294 It wouldn't have even happened if it wasn't for you. 626 00:38:11,712 --> 00:38:13,588 You were right, too. 627 00:38:13,914 --> 00:38:16,315 I'm not objective when it comes to you. 628 00:38:17,335 --> 00:38:19,418 I blew off your concerns about the risks 629 00:38:19,420 --> 00:38:21,487 'cause I thought you'd lost your mojo. 630 00:38:21,489 --> 00:38:22,722 Great. 631 00:38:23,257 --> 00:38:24,891 We're both right. 632 00:38:25,226 --> 00:38:27,352 And we found a way to work together. 633 00:38:27,762 --> 00:38:29,828 And our patient's better off for it. 634 00:38:31,498 --> 00:38:32,858 Today. 635 00:38:33,601 --> 00:38:35,360 What about the next time? 636 00:38:36,470 --> 00:38:38,447 We won't make the same mistakes. 637 00:38:39,781 --> 00:38:42,242 I'm not sure they were mistakes. 638 00:38:43,911 --> 00:38:48,781 I think they might have just been our nature. 639 00:38:52,153 --> 00:38:54,553 I don't think I can give you 640 00:38:54,555 --> 00:38:58,049 the unconditional support you deserve from a partner 641 00:38:58,685 --> 00:39:01,470 and the objectivity you need from a chief. 642 00:39:02,897 --> 00:39:04,306 And... 643 00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:08,434 I don't want to give up on my dream. 644 00:39:12,272 --> 00:39:13,672 I love you. 645 00:39:16,363 --> 00:39:18,030 But it's not enough. 646 00:39:22,348 --> 00:39:24,083 Goodnight, Neil. 647 00:39:39,834 --> 00:39:41,500 Dr. Reznick. 648 00:39:41,502 --> 00:39:43,268 Dr. Glassman. 649 00:39:43,270 --> 00:39:45,555 Thank you for your support. 650 00:39:45,973 --> 00:39:50,242 My pain is 90% better than it was. 651 00:39:50,244 --> 00:39:52,111 The shots helped. 652 00:39:52,113 --> 00:39:54,379 Well, you did a remarkable job. 653 00:40:06,193 --> 00:40:08,203 I'm fine. 654 00:40:08,762 --> 00:40:10,262 Congratulations. 655 00:40:32,919 --> 00:40:35,821 I did extensive further research 656 00:40:35,823 --> 00:40:37,856 on intimacy treatment for autism. 657 00:40:39,592 --> 00:40:40,944 And? 658 00:40:41,362 --> 00:40:42,895 And... 659 00:40:42,897 --> 00:40:44,281 I found nothing. 660 00:40:45,299 --> 00:40:46,965 You were right. 661 00:40:46,967 --> 00:40:50,903 Exposure therapy is the most effective option. 662 00:40:50,905 --> 00:40:52,831 You're very smart and thorough. 663 00:40:54,208 --> 00:40:55,607 Thank you. 664 00:40:58,778 --> 00:41:00,466 I'd like to try again. 665 00:41:37,718 --> 00:41:39,751 It's time to take a break. 666 00:41:43,756 --> 00:41:45,524 I know. 667 00:41:52,833 --> 00:41:55,267 This is terrifying. 668 00:41:59,773 --> 00:42:01,274 And... 669 00:42:02,076 --> 00:42:03,869 very nice.