1 00:00:18,101 --> 00:00:19,394 [Joe] Previously on You: 2 00:00:22,605 --> 00:00:24,107 [Dottie] What are you doing, Love? 3 00:00:24,190 --> 00:00:27,068 That boy will distract you from your son. 4 00:00:28,361 --> 00:00:30,321 [Joe] I can't cage what's inside of me. 5 00:00:30,405 --> 00:00:33,450 Better to feed it just enough to keep it in check, 6 00:00:33,533 --> 00:00:35,493 but make sure it knows the rules. 7 00:00:36,161 --> 00:00:39,080 So now I have you, Marienne. 8 00:00:40,081 --> 00:00:42,500 Things will be different this time. 9 00:00:47,964 --> 00:00:49,174 [pensive music playing] 10 00:01:17,494 --> 00:01:18,536 Oh. 11 00:01:21,081 --> 00:01:24,375 If you look up "klutz," there's a picture of me. 12 00:01:24,459 --> 00:01:25,459 Oh. 13 00:01:26,252 --> 00:01:27,252 Okay. 14 00:01:29,422 --> 00:01:33,259 [Joe] Here's what I've learned about you in the last few days, Marienne. 15 00:01:34,719 --> 00:01:37,013 You like things that make you feel. 16 00:01:37,096 --> 00:01:41,810 You're whimsical and artsy. You don't like things that go together too perfectly. 17 00:01:41,893 --> 00:01:44,687 You find beauty in the flaws. 18 00:01:44,771 --> 00:01:46,523 Unexpected pairings. 19 00:01:46,606 --> 00:01:51,110 You're deep, reverent, rooted, 20 00:01:51,945 --> 00:01:54,114 yet adventurous. 21 00:01:56,616 --> 00:02:00,453 You're at home in chaos, but something tells me not by choice. 22 00:02:00,537 --> 00:02:01,871 [water dripping] 23 00:02:07,127 --> 00:02:10,130 You take care of books and art and young minds, 24 00:02:10,213 --> 00:02:12,507 but who takes care of you? 25 00:02:15,552 --> 00:02:18,680 No. No, no, no. This is not why I'm here. 26 00:02:18,763 --> 00:02:22,892 I'm here, well, to figure out why I'm here. 27 00:02:22,976 --> 00:02:25,520 Why you, Marienne? 28 00:02:27,272 --> 00:02:30,150 So I must leave everything as I found it. 29 00:02:33,069 --> 00:02:36,781 I like following you. You're interesting and unpredictable. 30 00:02:36,865 --> 00:02:40,535 And that inner part of me that needs this is mostly satiated, 31 00:02:40,618 --> 00:02:44,372 but in the spirit of self-awareness and maybe conquering that inner thing, 32 00:02:44,455 --> 00:02:45,915 I ask again, 33 00:02:45,999 --> 00:02:48,334 why am I drawn to you? 34 00:02:48,710 --> 00:02:50,920 - [Marienne] Great! Yeah, sure. - [door unlocks] 35 00:02:52,213 --> 00:02:53,298 [Joe] Shit. 36 00:02:56,134 --> 00:02:57,594 Oh, all right. 37 00:02:58,052 --> 00:02:59,052 Okay. 38 00:02:59,721 --> 00:03:01,014 Okay, great. 39 00:03:01,097 --> 00:03:03,224 [Joe] Home early. It's very unusual for you. 40 00:03:05,310 --> 00:03:07,937 Yes, yes, I know that place. 41 00:03:09,856 --> 00:03:12,358 Okay. Yeah, great. I'll see you there. 42 00:03:14,277 --> 00:03:16,821 [Joe] What's got you stepping out of your routine? 43 00:03:16,905 --> 00:03:21,242 I dearly hope it doesn't involve pegging someone on this bed. RIP Peach. 44 00:03:21,951 --> 00:03:24,996 Okay, now you're just playing with me. 45 00:03:34,422 --> 00:03:35,298 Lipstick. 46 00:03:35,381 --> 00:03:37,008 Are you going on a date? 47 00:03:38,968 --> 00:03:40,011 [cell phone buzzes] 48 00:03:49,354 --> 00:03:50,855 My wife. 49 00:03:50,939 --> 00:03:52,065 I deserve this. 50 00:03:59,239 --> 00:04:00,907 Aw, Daddy's still working. 51 00:04:10,792 --> 00:04:13,044 [Joe] She's the best wife ever... 52 00:04:13,544 --> 00:04:15,672 while I'm doing this. 53 00:04:16,923 --> 00:04:20,009 All to prove you aren't worth it. 54 00:04:20,677 --> 00:04:22,929 You are just a fleeting crush. 55 00:04:24,430 --> 00:04:26,516 [door opens, then closes] 56 00:04:29,978 --> 00:04:31,062 [cell phone chimes] 57 00:04:45,743 --> 00:04:47,161 [dramatic music playing] 58 00:04:56,713 --> 00:04:57,839 [car door locks] 59 00:04:58,798 --> 00:05:00,383 - Dad, hey, what...? - Hi. 60 00:05:00,466 --> 00:05:03,886 What about Tokyo? You said you'd be away till next month. 61 00:05:03,970 --> 00:05:06,306 Yeah. Team's wrapping things up, so... 62 00:05:06,389 --> 00:05:10,518 Okay, well, congrats on your sudden ability to delegate. 63 00:05:10,601 --> 00:05:11,936 - [cell phone chimes] - Thank you. 64 00:05:13,062 --> 00:05:15,982 So, like, you forgot to sleep over there, or...? 65 00:05:16,065 --> 00:05:18,151 I just got off a long flight, Theo. 66 00:05:18,234 --> 00:05:20,903 - It's good to have you home. - Good to be home. 67 00:05:21,362 --> 00:05:23,197 Did you wanna ask why I'm here? 68 00:05:25,325 --> 00:05:26,451 Of course. 69 00:05:27,577 --> 00:05:28,577 Of course. 70 00:05:29,579 --> 00:05:32,915 - What happened at school? - Decided to take some time off. 71 00:05:32,999 --> 00:05:37,170 With everything that happened, felt like it was starting to get to me. 72 00:05:37,754 --> 00:05:38,921 Hey, that's okay. 73 00:05:39,422 --> 00:05:41,340 I can understand. 74 00:05:41,424 --> 00:05:45,553 - We could go grab some food. - I can't. I've got stuff to do inside. 75 00:05:46,137 --> 00:05:47,805 Yeah, yeah. For sure. 76 00:06:01,319 --> 00:06:02,319 [cell phone chimes] 77 00:06:26,636 --> 00:06:31,015 [Love] Remember when we crashed Dad's beloved Maserati? We were all banged up. 78 00:06:31,099 --> 00:06:34,852 But better to suffer in silence than let him know what we did. 79 00:06:34,936 --> 00:06:36,229 This feels like that. 80 00:06:36,729 --> 00:06:39,649 Only, I can't take this damaged thing to the wrong side of town 81 00:06:39,732 --> 00:06:41,359 and claim someone stole it. 82 00:06:43,903 --> 00:06:45,738 I cheated on my soul mate. 83 00:06:46,239 --> 00:06:47,907 What's wrong with me, Forty? 84 00:06:48,449 --> 00:06:52,370 If you were here, you'd laugh. You said I'd be a terrible mom. 85 00:06:52,453 --> 00:06:56,874 Number two might be in me as we speak, and there's no one I can tell that... 86 00:06:58,000 --> 00:06:59,377 I'm not sure I want it. 87 00:07:00,002 --> 00:07:01,087 [cell phone chimes] 88 00:07:03,297 --> 00:07:04,757 Stop insinuating. 89 00:07:04,841 --> 00:07:06,634 It's not Theo's baby. 90 00:07:07,343 --> 00:07:09,387 Couldn't be, I don't think. 91 00:07:19,605 --> 00:07:20,605 What am I doing? 92 00:07:20,648 --> 00:07:24,902 Your phone is dead in my nightstand because you are dead. 93 00:07:24,986 --> 00:07:29,407 And no one will ever read this. So, what am I confessing for? 94 00:07:32,618 --> 00:07:33,953 [cell phone beeps] 95 00:07:34,996 --> 00:07:36,831 Speaking of terrible mothers... 96 00:07:37,957 --> 00:07:42,003 Ugh. The last thing I need is a weekend all about Dottie and her second act. 97 00:07:42,795 --> 00:07:44,046 I wish you were here. 98 00:07:44,839 --> 00:07:45,715 I need you. 99 00:07:45,798 --> 00:07:47,508 ["Supercut" playing over speaker] 100 00:07:49,469 --> 00:07:51,053 ♪ The visions never stop ♪ 101 00:07:53,014 --> 00:07:54,807 ♪ These ribbons wrap me up ♪ 102 00:07:55,683 --> 00:07:59,103 ♪ But when I reach for you There's just a supercut ♪ 103 00:08:01,981 --> 00:08:03,608 ♪ In your car, the radio up ♪ 104 00:08:03,691 --> 00:08:05,610 ♪ In your car, the radio up ♪ 105 00:08:05,693 --> 00:08:07,695 ♪ We keep tryin' to talk about us ♪ 106 00:08:07,778 --> 00:08:09,697 ♪ I'm someone, you may be my love... ♪ 107 00:08:10,406 --> 00:08:12,492 Oh, my God. Theo, stop it! 108 00:08:13,367 --> 00:08:14,410 What the fuck? 109 00:08:14,494 --> 00:08:16,579 - What the fuck are you doing? - [music stops] 110 00:08:16,662 --> 00:08:20,124 Thought that would get your attention. This shit's romantic as fuck. 111 00:08:20,208 --> 00:08:22,877 - What are you talking about? - According to all the rom-coms 112 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:25,963 of your generation, this is what the guys do to get the girl. 113 00:08:26,047 --> 00:08:29,842 First of all, I'm not that old. And this is not a game, Theo. 114 00:08:29,926 --> 00:08:33,179 Okay, okay, I'm sorry. Sorry. I don't know what to do. 115 00:08:34,096 --> 00:08:35,806 But you're ignoring me. 116 00:08:35,890 --> 00:08:37,725 I just... I need your advice 117 00:08:37,808 --> 00:08:40,811 'cause you're the only person that I actually trust. 118 00:08:43,689 --> 00:08:44,815 So my dad's back. 119 00:08:44,899 --> 00:08:48,152 He's already sequestered in his office. 120 00:08:48,236 --> 00:08:49,278 And I just... 121 00:08:51,072 --> 00:08:52,072 I don't know. 122 00:08:53,157 --> 00:08:54,575 I don't know what to do. 123 00:08:57,578 --> 00:08:58,788 He's not doing well. 124 00:08:59,622 --> 00:09:04,418 Yeah. Your dad is grieving, Theo. It's a roller coaster that doesn't end. 125 00:09:04,502 --> 00:09:06,546 I was just texting my dead brother. 126 00:09:08,172 --> 00:09:09,465 - Come here. - What? No. 127 00:09:09,549 --> 00:09:11,592 Just go take care of your dad. 128 00:09:11,676 --> 00:09:15,555 I know he can be a dick, but try to see where he's coming from. 129 00:09:16,264 --> 00:09:17,890 I bet it's not a bad place. 130 00:09:18,766 --> 00:09:19,766 Okay. 131 00:09:20,476 --> 00:09:22,186 Can I ask you one more thing? 132 00:09:24,522 --> 00:09:25,522 Sure. 133 00:09:25,565 --> 00:09:27,984 Do you think of me during sex with your husband? 134 00:09:28,067 --> 00:09:31,028 - Seriously? - Because yours is the only face I see. 135 00:09:31,112 --> 00:09:33,698 You need to leave. Go take care of your dad. 136 00:09:35,449 --> 00:09:37,118 [Love] Do I deserve this? 137 00:09:39,495 --> 00:09:42,582 Is this new baby a gift or a punishment? 138 00:09:42,665 --> 00:09:47,962 God, that sounds terrible. Am I terrible? Why did I do it, Forty, if I'm so happy? 139 00:09:48,045 --> 00:09:49,130 [timer dings] 140 00:09:51,549 --> 00:09:53,676 - Need help over there? - No, I got it. 141 00:10:00,850 --> 00:10:01,851 Smells amazing. 142 00:10:04,145 --> 00:10:05,938 [Love] I don't deserve him. 143 00:10:07,565 --> 00:10:09,066 [Joe] I don't deserve her. 144 00:10:09,150 --> 00:10:11,736 She's making food, so I'm nourished all weekend, 145 00:10:11,819 --> 00:10:16,365 and here I am counting the minutes till she's gone so I can follow you. 146 00:10:17,783 --> 00:10:19,493 - Perfect bite. Ready? - Ooh. 147 00:10:20,077 --> 00:10:21,077 Oh, yeah. 148 00:10:25,207 --> 00:10:26,207 Mm. 149 00:10:31,005 --> 00:10:33,633 Let me be clear. You fascinate me. 150 00:10:33,716 --> 00:10:36,177 But Love is my soul mate, 151 00:10:36,719 --> 00:10:37,970 mother of my child, 152 00:10:38,596 --> 00:10:39,889 love of my life. 153 00:10:39,972 --> 00:10:43,768 And my job as a husband and a father is to keep it that way. 154 00:10:43,851 --> 00:10:45,269 [dramatic music playing] 155 00:10:53,235 --> 00:10:54,320 [Joe] I'm happy. 156 00:10:54,820 --> 00:10:56,072 [Marienne] Of course you are. 157 00:10:57,073 --> 00:10:59,408 Your mind's on nothing but your wife. 158 00:11:00,493 --> 00:11:03,329 All the time. 159 00:11:09,085 --> 00:11:10,294 Hey, you okay? 160 00:11:12,421 --> 00:11:13,506 Yeah. 161 00:11:14,090 --> 00:11:15,090 Yeah. 162 00:11:21,555 --> 00:11:24,100 How do you get it so fucking moist? 163 00:11:27,728 --> 00:11:29,063 Come show me. 164 00:11:30,147 --> 00:11:32,024 Yeah. Just like that. 165 00:11:32,108 --> 00:11:33,818 [both moaning] 166 00:11:53,337 --> 00:11:54,337 That was great. 167 00:11:55,506 --> 00:11:56,590 That was so great. 168 00:12:03,431 --> 00:12:06,350 [Jean] I appreciate you taking this meeting face-to-face. 169 00:12:06,434 --> 00:12:09,979 I like to know I can put you in a headlock when I'm not getting through to you. 170 00:12:10,980 --> 00:12:12,398 A loving headlock. 171 00:12:13,774 --> 00:12:17,194 I can only assume the best part of this is now behind us. 172 00:12:18,028 --> 00:12:20,781 I'd appreciate if you tell me before you hire an investigator 173 00:12:20,865 --> 00:12:23,617 to look into your wife's case that's closed. 174 00:12:23,701 --> 00:12:26,370 - Is it? You bought that? - What did he find? 175 00:12:26,454 --> 00:12:29,665 He tell you the neighbors' daughter's a coke dealer? 176 00:12:31,167 --> 00:12:32,251 Wanna take a look? 177 00:12:36,088 --> 00:12:37,089 - Help yourself. - Oh. 178 00:12:37,590 --> 00:12:41,594 Bottom-line it, anything remotely interesting in all this guy's work? 179 00:12:41,677 --> 00:12:45,556 One thing that's interesting to me is your neighbor, the baker, 180 00:12:45,639 --> 00:12:47,516 Quinn of the L.A. Quinns, 181 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:51,353 meaning she probably has her own PIs who know what you're up to. 182 00:12:51,437 --> 00:12:55,608 And the most litigious father this side of Republicans whining for a recount. 183 00:12:55,691 --> 00:12:57,943 Except Ray Quinn, he wins. 184 00:12:58,027 --> 00:13:01,113 - I haven't broken any laws. - A look this bad should be illegal. 185 00:13:01,197 --> 00:13:04,450 You mean, my trying to figure out who murdered my wife? Can you imagine? 186 00:13:04,950 --> 00:13:07,828 You do understand what will happen when the townspeople learn 187 00:13:07,912 --> 00:13:09,622 you're having them investigated? 188 00:13:11,123 --> 00:13:12,416 They'll make noise. 189 00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:14,084 - Great. - No, not great. 190 00:13:14,168 --> 00:13:17,379 I just spent six months trying to put some light between this company 191 00:13:17,463 --> 00:13:20,424 and words like marital affair, murder. 192 00:13:20,508 --> 00:13:22,444 - Different lanes. - I'm not disappearing your ass 193 00:13:22,468 --> 00:13:25,888 back to Tokyo while I spend another six putting out more fires you've lit. 194 00:13:25,971 --> 00:13:27,598 Different fucking lanes! 195 00:13:28,724 --> 00:13:30,184 This isn't about the company. 196 00:13:30,267 --> 00:13:35,022 Oh, because you and the company I protect aren't at all the exact same thing? 197 00:13:42,530 --> 00:13:43,530 Listen, I... 198 00:13:44,573 --> 00:13:48,536 I understand that you're grieving. That's reasonable. 199 00:13:49,119 --> 00:13:50,119 Grieve. 200 00:13:50,871 --> 00:13:51,871 But this? 201 00:13:53,457 --> 00:13:56,919 This will cost not just you but every person who works for you. 202 00:13:57,002 --> 00:13:59,255 You'll destroy lives for nothing 203 00:13:59,338 --> 00:14:02,758 because the worst offense the townspeople are guilty of is 204 00:14:02,841 --> 00:14:04,468 tacky athleisure. 205 00:14:05,177 --> 00:14:07,805 It stops now. You get that, right? 206 00:14:08,764 --> 00:14:09,890 ["Dramatic" playing] 207 00:14:11,976 --> 00:14:15,104 ♪ If you cover my mouth with your hands ♪ 208 00:14:15,187 --> 00:14:16,522 ♪ Try to silence me ♪ 209 00:14:16,605 --> 00:14:18,816 ♪ I'll scream out as loud as I can ♪ 210 00:14:18,899 --> 00:14:21,110 ♪ Shouldn't bite the hand that feeds me ♪ 211 00:14:21,193 --> 00:14:22,736 ♪ But you're not the man ♪ 212 00:14:22,820 --> 00:14:27,783 ♪ And when I stick it to you We'll see who's dramatic ♪ 213 00:14:27,867 --> 00:14:30,619 ♪ You say that I'm safe ♪ 214 00:14:31,620 --> 00:14:34,081 ♪ While you look for someone... ♪ 215 00:14:34,164 --> 00:14:35,583 Alrighty. 216 00:14:38,127 --> 00:14:39,003 Thank you. 217 00:14:39,086 --> 00:14:42,089 ♪ I think you're a bit too late... ♪ 218 00:14:49,179 --> 00:14:52,850 [Love] Maybe I'll actually get some answers this weekend. God, I hope. 219 00:14:53,517 --> 00:14:55,561 Changing lives is my passion. 220 00:14:55,644 --> 00:14:59,481 That's why I bought Casa Gaia Vineyard and intend to make it a hub 221 00:14:59,565 --> 00:15:00,733 for transformation 222 00:15:00,816 --> 00:15:04,403 and organic, biodynamic fine wines. 223 00:15:04,486 --> 00:15:06,947 [Love] Course, Dottie befriends Sherry 224 00:15:07,031 --> 00:15:08,908 and her billion followers. 225 00:15:08,991 --> 00:15:11,035 Lot of chances to sell mommy-juice. 226 00:15:11,118 --> 00:15:15,122 These women are about to experience a defining moment in their lives. 227 00:15:15,205 --> 00:15:18,667 The Women Optimizing Motherhood and Business Summit 228 00:15:18,751 --> 00:15:20,586 will set a path into the future. 229 00:15:20,669 --> 00:15:22,296 Hashtag "W.O.M.B." 230 00:15:22,379 --> 00:15:24,757 [Love] I'm drowning in her estrogen. 231 00:15:24,840 --> 00:15:26,300 [Dottie] Now let's toast. 232 00:15:26,383 --> 00:15:28,636 To womanhood, motherhood 233 00:15:28,719 --> 00:15:30,846 and the entrepreneurial spirit. 234 00:15:30,930 --> 00:15:34,141 And cut. Yes! 235 00:15:34,224 --> 00:15:37,645 That was perfection. I'll check this file and AirDrop you. 236 00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:40,022 The Internet is gonna swoon when you post this. 237 00:15:40,648 --> 00:15:43,275 - Thank you for being here. - Hey, Sherry. 238 00:15:43,359 --> 00:15:45,569 - Sweetie. - Hi, Mom. 239 00:15:46,654 --> 00:15:50,282 - Did the nursery take our little man? - Practically took him out of my hands. 240 00:15:50,366 --> 00:15:54,286 This could not have come at a better time. You look exhausted. 241 00:15:54,370 --> 00:15:55,371 [Love] It begins. 242 00:15:55,454 --> 00:15:58,082 Yeah, I haven't made it to my room yet but thank you. 243 00:15:58,165 --> 00:16:03,128 Trust me. Come Monday, you will be the picture of relaxation. Want some? 244 00:16:03,837 --> 00:16:05,047 I'm good. 245 00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:07,299 Not pregnant, are you? 246 00:16:07,383 --> 00:16:10,928 - [Love] Keep it together. She smells fear. - I'm on a mini detox. 247 00:16:11,679 --> 00:16:13,764 You are? Oh, my God. 248 00:16:14,181 --> 00:16:18,102 - Is it Joe's or that neighbor kid's? - Keep your voice down. I was... 249 00:16:18,185 --> 00:16:21,563 I have seconds before kickoff. We'll finish this later. 250 00:16:21,647 --> 00:16:24,483 Maybe a little lipstick, sweetheart? You're pale. 251 00:16:26,568 --> 00:16:28,570 [Love] Remember pretending to be orphans? 252 00:16:28,654 --> 00:16:29,655 That was fun. 253 00:16:32,616 --> 00:16:33,909 [cell phone chimes] 254 00:16:41,875 --> 00:16:44,169 [Joe] Your work face, giving nothing away. 255 00:16:52,803 --> 00:16:55,014 Excuse me. Where's Narnia? 256 00:16:55,097 --> 00:16:58,267 Oh, it's in Kid Lit. You see that tree over there? 257 00:16:58,350 --> 00:16:59,893 - Thank you. - Yeah. 258 00:17:06,525 --> 00:17:10,279 You're leaving mid-shift? Could this be opportunity knocking? 259 00:17:13,824 --> 00:17:15,242 Hey, Dante. 260 00:17:15,325 --> 00:17:19,371 Marienne asked me to take care of the overdue notices? 261 00:17:19,455 --> 00:17:21,290 Was that at the desk here? 262 00:17:21,373 --> 00:17:23,625 Her office. She'll be back in an hour. 263 00:17:23,709 --> 00:17:26,336 Okay. I think she meant while she's out. 264 00:17:26,920 --> 00:17:28,505 So diligent... 265 00:17:28,589 --> 00:17:32,593 after taking three hours to shelve that one cart this morning. 266 00:17:34,553 --> 00:17:35,553 Thank you. 267 00:17:46,857 --> 00:17:47,983 Okay. 268 00:17:48,067 --> 00:17:51,945 Doesn't exactly scream skeletons but then neither do you. 269 00:17:56,075 --> 00:17:58,535 There's nothing in your work files or search history. 270 00:17:58,619 --> 00:18:01,580 It's just, there's no "you" here at all, 271 00:18:01,663 --> 00:18:04,291 which tells me I'm not looking hard enough. 272 00:18:08,128 --> 00:18:11,590 Hmm. "Recovery." This is a surprise. 273 00:18:11,673 --> 00:18:15,552 This deepens my curiosity, and now I need more. 274 00:18:25,354 --> 00:18:26,647 "Child endangerment"? 275 00:18:28,107 --> 00:18:29,316 "Neglect." 276 00:18:29,399 --> 00:18:30,400 "Abuse." 277 00:18:30,484 --> 00:18:32,319 This can't be right. 278 00:18:34,446 --> 00:18:36,240 The ex-husband, I presume. 279 00:18:37,825 --> 00:18:39,451 The more I know, 280 00:18:39,535 --> 00:18:41,870 the less I understand. 281 00:18:41,954 --> 00:18:44,081 Who are you? 282 00:18:44,623 --> 00:18:46,416 What I do know, 283 00:18:46,500 --> 00:18:48,252 your problems are serious. 284 00:18:48,335 --> 00:18:50,420 You're a mess. 285 00:18:50,504 --> 00:18:52,214 I have a loving wife, a son. 286 00:18:52,297 --> 00:18:54,967 I can't have anything to do with your red flags. 287 00:18:55,050 --> 00:18:57,594 This itch has been scratched. 288 00:19:00,139 --> 00:19:04,434 [Laura] "What did I want? A tarnished marriage that takes so much work to heal? 289 00:19:04,518 --> 00:19:06,228 A family that consumed me? 290 00:19:06,854 --> 00:19:09,439 No, I deserved better. 291 00:19:09,523 --> 00:19:12,067 All at once, I knew what that looked like." 292 00:19:12,151 --> 00:19:13,694 [Love] What does it look like? 293 00:19:14,486 --> 00:19:16,697 "I realized I had more to offer." 294 00:19:19,908 --> 00:19:21,535 And so, I started writing. 295 00:19:21,618 --> 00:19:23,871 Eventually, I started my own company, 296 00:19:23,954 --> 00:19:25,706 and it was hard. 297 00:19:25,789 --> 00:19:27,166 It was exhausting. 298 00:19:27,791 --> 00:19:30,335 But if I could do it, you can too. 299 00:19:30,919 --> 00:19:33,380 [Love] That's it? 300 00:19:33,964 --> 00:19:36,216 All right. Who has a question? 301 00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:40,220 - Yes, right here. - Given all you've accomplished, 302 00:19:40,304 --> 00:19:42,014 how do you stay so humble? 303 00:19:42,097 --> 00:19:43,682 [Love] Is she joking? 304 00:19:43,765 --> 00:19:48,395 I start the first half hour of every morning expressing gratitude. 305 00:19:48,979 --> 00:19:52,566 A great way to remember that none of us can get through this life without help. 306 00:19:53,984 --> 00:19:55,611 All right. Who's next? 307 00:19:56,361 --> 00:19:59,740 If you're supposed to be giving us the secret of joy, 308 00:19:59,823 --> 00:20:00,824 what is it? 309 00:20:02,284 --> 00:20:05,579 I don't hear you saying what a 21st-century professional mother 310 00:20:05,662 --> 00:20:07,789 is supposed to do to find happiness. 311 00:20:08,373 --> 00:20:09,499 Simple. 312 00:20:09,583 --> 00:20:11,543 If you focus on watering your own grass, 313 00:20:11,627 --> 00:20:13,837 you never have to wonder if it's greener anywhere else. 314 00:20:13,921 --> 00:20:17,716 But what does that mean? I... I water my own grass, and I don't... 315 00:20:17,799 --> 00:20:20,636 - Okay, next. - It's fine. You don't what? 316 00:20:20,719 --> 00:20:24,014 You don't feel how incredibly green your own grass is? 317 00:20:24,097 --> 00:20:26,058 Is it possible that you don't wanna succeed? 318 00:20:26,141 --> 00:20:30,270 That you feel guilty for what you have and you sabotage your happiness? 319 00:20:34,608 --> 00:20:38,278 I would suggest a look inward and read my book. 320 00:20:38,362 --> 00:20:41,448 To read more about your narcissistic climb to success, when, poof, 321 00:20:41,531 --> 00:20:43,450 you suddenly discovered you were deserving? 322 00:20:43,533 --> 00:20:45,786 Sounds like privileged bullshit to me. 323 00:20:51,959 --> 00:20:53,043 I'm not sorry. 324 00:20:53,126 --> 00:20:57,923 She doesn't know what she's talking about. I do want to succeed, obviously, right? 325 00:20:58,006 --> 00:21:01,426 You are powerful. You are loved. You are forgiven. 326 00:21:02,052 --> 00:21:03,929 Mm. Thank you. 327 00:21:04,763 --> 00:21:06,848 I am sorry. 328 00:21:06,932 --> 00:21:10,644 - We've moved on. - It's not too late to turn the day around. 329 00:21:10,727 --> 00:21:14,523 Sherry had the brilliant idea, we do an IGTV interview with each other and... 330 00:21:14,606 --> 00:21:16,191 We want you to be a part of it. 331 00:21:17,776 --> 00:21:19,903 - Interview for what? - Our brands. 332 00:21:19,987 --> 00:21:22,948 But also to counteract your little outburst. 333 00:21:25,200 --> 00:21:27,077 You were right about one thing. 334 00:21:27,619 --> 00:21:30,914 Women need to see other successful women supporting each other. 335 00:21:30,998 --> 00:21:34,293 How better to use our privilege, right? 336 00:21:34,793 --> 00:21:36,920 Hashtag "You can sit with us." 337 00:21:38,588 --> 00:21:39,588 Sure. 338 00:21:45,554 --> 00:21:46,847 Hello, goddesses. 339 00:21:46,930 --> 00:21:48,765 I'm at the W.O.M.B. Summit 340 00:21:48,849 --> 00:21:51,310 with Heart-Shaped Mistakes creator 341 00:21:51,393 --> 00:21:54,896 and fellow twin mom Sherry Conrad. 342 00:21:55,605 --> 00:21:56,605 Sherry, 343 00:21:57,274 --> 00:21:59,109 your blog moves me. 344 00:21:59,735 --> 00:22:02,362 But it's your heart that really touches me. 345 00:22:02,446 --> 00:22:03,864 Oh, Dottie. 346 00:22:03,947 --> 00:22:05,157 [Love] Oh, woof. 347 00:22:05,240 --> 00:22:08,076 You are a shining light for us all. 348 00:22:08,577 --> 00:22:11,705 - Thank you for being my soul sister. - [Love] Vomit emoji. 349 00:22:11,788 --> 00:22:13,332 And last but not least, 350 00:22:13,415 --> 00:22:16,960 my pride and joy, Love Quinn-Goldberg. 351 00:22:18,462 --> 00:22:22,674 I'm so proud to have raised a daughter whose grit nearly matches my own. 352 00:22:22,758 --> 00:22:24,718 - [Love] Nearly? - Doing it all. 353 00:22:24,801 --> 00:22:29,264 Husband, business, 1-year-old, all with possibly another on the way. 354 00:22:29,348 --> 00:22:30,348 Oh, my God, Mom. 355 00:22:30,432 --> 00:22:32,768 - Oh, my God, Love! Amazing! - What the fuck? 356 00:22:32,851 --> 00:22:35,062 - What are you doing? - Sherry, give us a second. 357 00:22:35,145 --> 00:22:37,856 - Love, I just... - Seriously, get the fuck out. 358 00:22:39,066 --> 00:22:40,066 Thank you. 359 00:22:41,234 --> 00:22:45,072 How the hell could you do that? I'm not sure. I haven't told Joe. 360 00:22:45,781 --> 00:22:49,993 It's not surprising. The problems in your marriage keep stacking up. 361 00:22:50,077 --> 00:22:52,370 Mom, it has nothing to do with you. 362 00:22:52,454 --> 00:22:55,248 My life, my marriage, my womb, 363 00:22:55,332 --> 00:22:58,335 none of your fucking business, and not to share on social media. 364 00:22:58,418 --> 00:23:00,921 - Don't speak to me like that. - Somebody has to. 365 00:23:01,588 --> 00:23:03,965 You're the reason Forty and I are fucked up. 366 00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:07,010 - Don't talk about him. - No wonder that our life turned into this. 367 00:23:07,094 --> 00:23:09,888 All you ever showed me was to get the prince, 368 00:23:09,971 --> 00:23:12,390 build a castle, and then burn it all to the ground. 369 00:23:12,474 --> 00:23:15,977 Says the princess who was given all the mattresses in the world to sleep on 370 00:23:16,061 --> 00:23:18,105 and still complains she can feel a pea. 371 00:23:18,188 --> 00:23:19,773 I gave you the world, 372 00:23:19,856 --> 00:23:21,691 you ungrateful, little bitch. 373 00:23:21,775 --> 00:23:24,820 You have no idea what I had to do to give it to you. 374 00:23:25,362 --> 00:23:28,156 Your choice to fuck the neighbor boy or blow up your life 375 00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:33,036 has nothing to do with me and everything to do with you being spoiled and bored. 376 00:23:33,120 --> 00:23:36,832 I'll take the blame for spoiling you. But the source of your unhappiness? 377 00:23:36,915 --> 00:23:41,044 Look in the mirror instead of spouting your hypocrisy at everyone else. 378 00:24:17,706 --> 00:24:18,790 [knocking on door] 379 00:24:19,374 --> 00:24:20,709 Dad, I got you dinner. 380 00:24:25,297 --> 00:24:26,297 Dad? 381 00:24:31,511 --> 00:24:35,015 Come on, you can be mad at me, but at least eat something. 382 00:24:38,226 --> 00:24:39,603 [Matthew snoring] 383 00:24:56,286 --> 00:24:57,579 [ominous music playing] 384 00:25:04,085 --> 00:25:05,253 What the fuck? 385 00:25:14,763 --> 00:25:16,473 Almost ready to go, Goldberg? 386 00:25:16,556 --> 00:25:18,767 No, you go ahead. I'll close up. 387 00:25:18,850 --> 00:25:22,145 The smell of your perfume could erase everything I've learned today. 388 00:25:22,229 --> 00:25:26,233 - Best to hang back for now. - No way. You know the rules. 389 00:25:33,031 --> 00:25:35,700 Do me a favor and stay down there a sec, okay? 390 00:25:35,784 --> 00:25:36,993 [Goodwin] You hired a lawyer? 391 00:25:37,077 --> 00:25:39,120 - [Marienne] Let's talk outside. - [Goodwin] No. 392 00:25:39,204 --> 00:25:40,404 [Joe] Is that your ex-husband? 393 00:25:40,455 --> 00:25:42,808 [Goodwin] No, you don't have any rights, you fucking junkie. 394 00:25:42,832 --> 00:25:44,459 [Joe] That doesn't sound right. 395 00:25:44,542 --> 00:25:46,854 - [Goodwin] Listen to me... - [Marienne] Get your hands off... 396 00:25:46,878 --> 00:25:50,298 - Get your hands off me! - No, no... Hey, no, we're not done. 397 00:25:50,382 --> 00:25:51,382 Hey! 398 00:25:52,342 --> 00:25:55,470 - What is going on here? - Hey, man, I'm sorry. That... 399 00:25:56,429 --> 00:25:59,849 This looks bad, right? I knocked that over by accident. 400 00:25:59,933 --> 00:26:01,559 It must have sounded crazy. 401 00:26:02,435 --> 00:26:03,853 I'm... I'm Ryan Goodwin. 402 00:26:03,937 --> 00:26:06,731 If I look familiar, Channel Three News. 403 00:26:07,399 --> 00:26:11,069 I recognize you. I think you should leave, Ryan. 404 00:26:12,112 --> 00:26:13,112 Yeah, sure. 405 00:26:13,780 --> 00:26:14,780 Sure. 406 00:26:15,198 --> 00:26:18,785 Look, you know, exes. 407 00:26:19,828 --> 00:26:23,999 - But the respect's there. - Don't look at her. Just go. 408 00:26:26,626 --> 00:26:27,626 Yeah. 409 00:26:29,337 --> 00:26:30,463 Talk later, Mare. 410 00:26:34,217 --> 00:26:36,052 - You okay? - You shouldn't have done that. 411 00:26:36,136 --> 00:26:37,429 I didn't ask for your help. 412 00:26:37,512 --> 00:26:40,098 What part of "stay out of it" did you not understand? 413 00:26:40,181 --> 00:26:41,850 Was that too hard? 414 00:26:41,933 --> 00:26:43,973 You really had to run up here like some white knight 415 00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:46,104 and get in the middle of my shit? 416 00:26:46,187 --> 00:26:47,564 You're crazy! 417 00:26:47,647 --> 00:26:50,984 Which is 100% none of your goddamn business, Joe! 418 00:26:51,067 --> 00:26:53,945 - You sick fuck! - [Joe] I see it now. 419 00:26:54,029 --> 00:26:56,031 This is why "you." 420 00:26:56,114 --> 00:26:59,868 - You're a pattern. - [Sandy] Thought he'd be better this time. 421 00:26:59,951 --> 00:27:02,495 [Fiona] If you look up "klutz," there's a picture of me. 422 00:27:02,579 --> 00:27:04,914 [Joe] You're a lost lamb attracted to wolves. 423 00:27:04,998 --> 00:27:07,208 - Ergo, what I feel... - Just let me handle it. 424 00:27:07,292 --> 00:27:12,088 ...it's not because you're special, it's... Wait for it. It's mother issues. 425 00:27:12,172 --> 00:27:13,965 How's that for self-awareness? 426 00:27:15,133 --> 00:27:16,468 Am I amusing you? 427 00:27:16,551 --> 00:27:18,470 No, no, no. No. 428 00:27:19,346 --> 00:27:21,473 I'm sorry. Also, I'm not sorry. 429 00:27:21,556 --> 00:27:24,768 I'm not one to let bullies bully. I would've done that for anybody. 430 00:27:25,977 --> 00:27:26,977 Okay. 431 00:27:36,571 --> 00:27:38,782 [pop music playing faintly over speakers] 432 00:27:46,831 --> 00:27:49,334 [Love] Fuck Dottie. 433 00:27:50,627 --> 00:27:53,630 What's she know? We were accessories to her. 434 00:27:53,713 --> 00:27:55,965 A couple of purse dogs she'd overfeed, 435 00:27:56,049 --> 00:27:58,843 then scream at when we shit on her Gucci wallet. 436 00:27:58,927 --> 00:28:00,011 Fuck Dottie. 437 00:28:00,762 --> 00:28:02,013 I hate her. 438 00:28:15,360 --> 00:28:16,653 I hate you too. 439 00:28:17,487 --> 00:28:18,905 For leaving me with her. 440 00:28:18,988 --> 00:28:22,033 You should've just eaten me in the womb, Forty. 441 00:28:36,881 --> 00:28:38,049 [cell phone chimes] 442 00:28:44,848 --> 00:28:47,392 Did you just answer me? 443 00:28:49,978 --> 00:28:51,521 What the fuck? 444 00:28:51,604 --> 00:28:52,731 Forty? 445 00:28:54,941 --> 00:28:55,984 God. 446 00:28:58,445 --> 00:29:01,197 [groaning] I am wasted. 447 00:29:03,616 --> 00:29:04,826 [Forty laughing] 448 00:29:08,538 --> 00:29:10,665 So wasted. 449 00:29:12,250 --> 00:29:14,419 Oh, my God. Forty! 450 00:29:15,879 --> 00:29:17,005 Wait. 451 00:29:18,256 --> 00:29:20,133 Are you really here? 452 00:29:22,218 --> 00:29:24,804 Yeah, of course, Lovey. 453 00:29:25,305 --> 00:29:27,515 I live inside you. 454 00:29:28,099 --> 00:29:29,142 I'm always here. 455 00:29:29,642 --> 00:29:34,397 ♪ Just call my name and I'll be there ♪ 456 00:29:34,481 --> 00:29:35,565 [Love laughing] 457 00:29:36,107 --> 00:29:37,650 All seriousness though, 458 00:29:38,568 --> 00:29:42,906 how happy are we that I am the only thing living inside you? 459 00:29:44,783 --> 00:29:45,992 Dodged a bullet. 460 00:29:46,826 --> 00:29:49,037 - Good job, vagina. - Did I though? 461 00:29:49,120 --> 00:29:50,705 Dodge a bullet? I mean... 462 00:29:51,706 --> 00:29:52,916 I am relieved, 463 00:29:52,999 --> 00:29:58,505 but, I don't know, I can't help but wonder if maybe another baby would calm me down. 464 00:29:59,547 --> 00:30:03,009 - Focus me a little. - First of all, no. 465 00:30:03,092 --> 00:30:04,344 And, B, 466 00:30:05,345 --> 00:30:08,056 do you really think focusing is what you need? 467 00:30:08,139 --> 00:30:09,974 I thought I needed to get married. 468 00:30:11,059 --> 00:30:13,394 Then move and start over. 469 00:30:14,062 --> 00:30:15,355 Then a bakery. 470 00:30:17,690 --> 00:30:19,984 Then someone who wasn't my husband. 471 00:30:20,068 --> 00:30:22,612 I get it though. That kid is pretty cool. 472 00:30:23,696 --> 00:30:25,406 Kind of reminds me of me. 473 00:30:30,328 --> 00:30:32,580 [voice breaking] Forty, I don't know what happened. 474 00:30:34,249 --> 00:30:36,626 I fell so in love with Joe. 475 00:30:37,710 --> 00:30:40,004 But now I don't... I don't even... 476 00:30:42,298 --> 00:30:43,341 like him... 477 00:30:44,509 --> 00:30:45,509 anymore. 478 00:30:46,302 --> 00:30:49,556 I mean, he makes me feel bad for being me. 479 00:30:52,892 --> 00:30:55,562 That's not how your soul mate's supposed to make you feel, right? 480 00:31:03,027 --> 00:31:05,280 I'm self-sabotaging, aren't I? 481 00:31:06,030 --> 00:31:07,030 Yeah. 482 00:31:10,493 --> 00:31:13,538 - Why can't I just be happy? - Oh, Lovey. 483 00:31:15,039 --> 00:31:18,751 You're not happy because Joe isn't your soul mate. 484 00:31:21,963 --> 00:31:22,963 I am. 485 00:31:24,090 --> 00:31:26,301 There is one person 486 00:31:26,384 --> 00:31:29,554 who understands what you have been through. 487 00:31:29,637 --> 00:31:31,598 I slept on those mattresses too. 488 00:31:31,681 --> 00:31:34,809 I mean, that pea fucking killed me. 489 00:31:36,019 --> 00:31:38,688 I am so sorry. 490 00:31:39,856 --> 00:31:43,151 Don't be sorry for surviving. 491 00:31:46,195 --> 00:31:47,614 You were the strong one. 492 00:31:49,115 --> 00:31:51,826 You always knew it was gonna turn out this way. 493 00:31:53,494 --> 00:31:55,288 It's why you held me so tight. 494 00:32:03,838 --> 00:32:04,839 [Love sobbing] 495 00:32:09,510 --> 00:32:11,846 ♪ I'll be there ♪ 496 00:32:12,555 --> 00:32:14,599 ♪ I'll be there ♪ 497 00:32:16,351 --> 00:32:22,815 ♪ Just call my name and I'll be there ♪ 498 00:32:37,830 --> 00:32:40,166 [Joe] Mommy issues. 499 00:32:40,249 --> 00:32:43,503 I can't believe it's taken me this long. I'm growing. 500 00:32:43,586 --> 00:32:47,548 "The absence of burden causes man to be lighter than air, 501 00:32:47,632 --> 00:32:51,302 to soar into heights, take leave of the earth, free. 502 00:32:51,386 --> 00:32:54,931 What then shall we choose? Weight or lightness?" 503 00:32:55,014 --> 00:32:56,099 [cell phone buzzing] 504 00:33:00,144 --> 00:33:02,355 - Hey, what...? - [Marienne] Hey. It's an emergency. 505 00:33:02,438 --> 00:33:04,440 I'm sorry for calling so late. 506 00:33:30,049 --> 00:33:31,175 - Hey. - Hey. 507 00:33:31,968 --> 00:33:34,929 - What happened? - Sprinkler system malfunctioned. 508 00:33:36,431 --> 00:33:40,309 I tried to get somebody to look at it, now thousands of books are destroyed... 509 00:33:41,602 --> 00:33:44,313 - and I'll lose my job. - That won't happen. 510 00:33:44,397 --> 00:33:47,608 Not your fault the county's too cheap to invest in building upkeep. 511 00:33:50,528 --> 00:33:53,364 You happen to have called the best book doctor in the world, 512 00:33:53,448 --> 00:33:55,783 so we'll figure out what's salvageable. 513 00:33:56,534 --> 00:33:57,618 It'll be fine. 514 00:33:58,661 --> 00:34:02,165 Okay. Well, I'm choosing to believe you. 515 00:34:10,131 --> 00:34:11,632 [Joe] This is about books. 516 00:34:11,716 --> 00:34:13,551 For the love of books. 517 00:34:13,634 --> 00:34:15,803 I would've done the same thing if Dante called. 518 00:34:16,387 --> 00:34:17,387 I'm sorry. 519 00:34:18,973 --> 00:34:22,727 About earlier. I know you were just trying to help. 520 00:34:24,312 --> 00:34:26,397 I know it's no excuse, 521 00:34:27,815 --> 00:34:30,151 but my ex-husband brings out my worst. 522 00:34:30,735 --> 00:34:31,735 It's okay. 523 00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:34,030 We're all works in progress. 524 00:34:35,656 --> 00:34:38,868 "When you've been worked on for so long, you never know you're done." 525 00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:42,205 Jericho Brown. 526 00:34:43,664 --> 00:34:45,083 You know his work? 527 00:34:45,166 --> 00:34:48,544 [Joe] What am I doing, using my old games on you? I'm not this guy anymore. 528 00:34:49,337 --> 00:34:54,509 I read his work in The New Yorker, and that line... stayed with me. 529 00:34:54,592 --> 00:34:57,637 But I don't know his writing much, actually. 530 00:35:09,023 --> 00:35:12,110 The way you've handled those books. The care. 531 00:35:12,193 --> 00:35:14,237 Only a mother... Oh, there. Yep. 532 00:35:14,320 --> 00:35:15,404 Okay, stop. 533 00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:18,324 But just to pass the time... 534 00:35:18,407 --> 00:35:22,370 It's a personal question, but we are technically off-hours. 535 00:35:22,453 --> 00:35:23,453 Just ask it. 536 00:35:24,372 --> 00:35:25,748 What's your daughter like? 537 00:35:30,211 --> 00:35:31,211 Amazing. 538 00:35:32,630 --> 00:35:34,298 Kind, funny, 539 00:35:34,382 --> 00:35:38,219 likes to go out and look for fairy rings at the park. 540 00:35:38,302 --> 00:35:40,388 Excellent at finding them. 541 00:35:40,471 --> 00:35:41,806 Loves to draw. 542 00:35:42,390 --> 00:35:43,266 Like her mom. 543 00:35:43,349 --> 00:35:46,394 Yeah, nothing in this world beats the feeling of... 544 00:35:46,477 --> 00:35:48,646 Of looking at your child 545 00:35:48,729 --> 00:35:51,482 and knowing you're watching someone grow up better than you. 546 00:35:51,566 --> 00:35:54,485 [Joe] How could you do anything to hurt your child? 547 00:35:54,569 --> 00:35:55,778 All I see is love. 548 00:35:55,862 --> 00:35:56,946 Your turn. 549 00:35:57,572 --> 00:35:59,991 - What's Henry like? - Oh, he's a terrorist. 550 00:36:00,741 --> 00:36:05,580 No, he's... He's adorable, he's sweet. A big fan of Hemingway and Fitzgerald. 551 00:36:05,663 --> 00:36:07,707 No surprise, you've seen him with the bottle. 552 00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,460 I really hope he's better than me. 553 00:36:12,962 --> 00:36:14,213 Why do you look like that? 554 00:36:20,219 --> 00:36:22,889 I had this idea... 555 00:36:24,432 --> 00:36:26,142 of happily ever after. 556 00:36:26,225 --> 00:36:29,020 Perfect family, picket fence. Now I have that. 557 00:36:29,687 --> 00:36:30,887 I want what's best for my son. 558 00:36:30,938 --> 00:36:34,317 I'm just worried that this suburban, cookie-cutter existence isn't... 559 00:36:35,484 --> 00:36:37,820 Isn't it. I know it's nothing compared to your situation. 560 00:36:37,904 --> 00:36:40,114 - I shouldn't be complaining. - No, I get it. 561 00:36:40,198 --> 00:36:43,158 Raising kids is a whole different game once you've gone through the system. 562 00:36:46,204 --> 00:36:48,044 Soon as you told me you didn't come from money, 563 00:36:48,080 --> 00:36:50,124 all of a sudden I could just see it on you. 564 00:36:52,376 --> 00:36:56,547 Yeah, I had been in a dozen foster homes before I hit 18, 565 00:36:57,423 --> 00:37:00,468 and still, even though I knew it made no sense, I... 566 00:37:02,386 --> 00:37:05,097 I never stopped thinking my mom would show up and save me. 567 00:37:06,557 --> 00:37:08,559 She never did, of course, 568 00:37:09,143 --> 00:37:11,812 but sure made me wanna be a better mom though. 569 00:37:13,898 --> 00:37:15,733 I held on to that same hope. 570 00:37:17,485 --> 00:37:18,569 For years. 571 00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:22,698 And got my ass kicked regularly for it. 572 00:37:22,782 --> 00:37:25,117 I think it kept me going. 573 00:37:26,077 --> 00:37:28,871 But she never came back either. 574 00:37:30,289 --> 00:37:34,710 I never talk about this with anyone, not even Love. 575 00:37:36,796 --> 00:37:40,383 Despite her best intentions, she could only understand to a point. 576 00:37:40,466 --> 00:37:42,551 [Joe] But you understand completely. 577 00:37:46,597 --> 00:37:47,597 Um... 578 00:37:48,140 --> 00:37:49,934 We should get back to it. 579 00:37:51,143 --> 00:37:52,561 What happened with Ryan? 580 00:37:54,438 --> 00:37:55,438 I'm sorry. 581 00:37:55,982 --> 00:37:57,984 I'm not okay with what I saw, 582 00:37:58,067 --> 00:38:01,696 and I would like to know how someone who treats you like that 583 00:38:01,779 --> 00:38:03,739 could have custody of your child. 584 00:38:25,970 --> 00:38:27,346 We were both addicts... 585 00:38:28,097 --> 00:38:29,598 when Juliette was a baby. 586 00:38:31,142 --> 00:38:32,727 One night, I... 587 00:38:33,853 --> 00:38:35,563 I sailed through a red light. 588 00:38:36,105 --> 00:38:39,025 And the other driver was very seriously hurt, 589 00:38:39,108 --> 00:38:42,862 and the way that we collided, if Juliette had been on the other side... 590 00:38:42,945 --> 00:38:44,613 [Joe] Reckless endangerment of a child. 591 00:38:44,697 --> 00:38:47,616 That disaster, and the fact that he got clean before I did, 592 00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:49,702 is how Ryan got full custody. 593 00:38:52,121 --> 00:38:55,124 The lies he's told ever since is how he's kept it. 594 00:38:55,207 --> 00:38:56,250 The lies? 595 00:38:56,334 --> 00:38:58,544 Well, you know, he's got money. 596 00:38:58,627 --> 00:39:01,547 Beloved local celeb, a white man. 597 00:39:01,630 --> 00:39:05,217 And I think we can both agree, white men get a million chances in life. 598 00:39:05,301 --> 00:39:10,181 So when he accuses me of child neglect, for not showing up for my visitation, 599 00:39:10,264 --> 00:39:11,724 they believe him. 600 00:39:11,807 --> 00:39:14,518 Even when I swear he gave me the wrong address. 601 00:39:15,227 --> 00:39:18,731 He can have me arrested for destruction of property 602 00:39:18,814 --> 00:39:22,902 for keying his car that I barely scratched 'cause I chickened out. 603 00:39:22,985 --> 00:39:24,570 And my favorite, 604 00:39:25,363 --> 00:39:28,491 verbal and emotional abuse for calling him a dickhead. 605 00:39:30,993 --> 00:39:34,246 Yeah, and he's had this case built against me for years, 606 00:39:34,330 --> 00:39:35,873 and everyone believes him, 607 00:39:35,956 --> 00:39:40,920 everyone takes his word over mine because... who am I? 608 00:39:42,004 --> 00:39:43,047 I'm sorry. 609 00:39:43,672 --> 00:39:47,551 I'm so sorry for what you've been through. 610 00:39:50,679 --> 00:39:53,682 Nobody forced me to get behind the wheel that night. 611 00:39:53,766 --> 00:39:54,766 That's... 612 00:39:55,726 --> 00:39:57,395 That's a choice I live with. 613 00:39:57,478 --> 00:40:00,815 Yeah, but everything else, Ryan manipulating the justice system, 614 00:40:00,898 --> 00:40:02,066 somebody should stop him. 615 00:40:02,149 --> 00:40:05,694 - I volunteer, happily. - Well, I am working on it. 616 00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:09,281 I just met a new lawyer for dinner last night. 617 00:40:09,824 --> 00:40:11,784 [Joe] Lawyer. You weren't on a date. 618 00:40:12,451 --> 00:40:14,870 He thinks joint custody is doable 619 00:40:14,954 --> 00:40:18,416 if I can just show how I'm really doing now 620 00:40:18,499 --> 00:40:19,834 and the judge sees it. 621 00:40:20,668 --> 00:40:26,799 If I was sure Ryan could never find us, I would grab Juliette and run to Paris. 622 00:40:28,008 --> 00:40:31,137 And spend our days drawing outside Sacré-Cœur. 623 00:40:33,722 --> 00:40:35,057 That sounds magical. 624 00:40:35,141 --> 00:40:36,350 For you. 625 00:40:36,434 --> 00:40:39,103 Tragic for me to lose you. 626 00:40:39,186 --> 00:40:43,274 I shouldn't have reduced you to my issues. You're nothing like my mother. 627 00:40:43,357 --> 00:40:45,276 You adore your child and she should be with you. 628 00:40:45,359 --> 00:40:47,736 You're just who you are. 629 00:40:48,529 --> 00:40:51,866 You don't hide or embellish, you own your mistakes 630 00:40:51,949 --> 00:40:55,953 and stand up to the strikes against you. You're so... 631 00:40:58,539 --> 00:41:01,667 Oh! No! Please, no! 632 00:41:03,461 --> 00:41:04,462 It's okay, look. 633 00:41:05,087 --> 00:41:07,173 I think, it's... It's just us. 634 00:41:16,515 --> 00:41:17,892 [dramatic music playing] 635 00:41:56,388 --> 00:41:57,431 Oh, shit. 636 00:41:57,973 --> 00:41:59,350 Love is gonna kill you. 637 00:42:02,061 --> 00:42:03,979 [pop music playing over speakers] 638 00:42:20,204 --> 00:42:22,873 Haven't really been yourself this weekend. 639 00:42:24,333 --> 00:42:26,752 - You really pregnant? - This is a hangover. 640 00:42:28,087 --> 00:42:29,588 I'm not pregnant. 641 00:42:30,172 --> 00:42:31,840 I'm sorry to hear that. 642 00:42:33,842 --> 00:42:34,969 It's fine. 643 00:42:35,052 --> 00:42:36,595 Then what's going on? 644 00:42:36,679 --> 00:42:37,846 I don't know. 645 00:42:40,474 --> 00:42:43,435 I'm just not happy. 646 00:42:45,646 --> 00:42:47,189 And it's not Joe's fault. 647 00:42:47,773 --> 00:42:50,776 He's just not my soul mate. 648 00:42:51,360 --> 00:42:54,989 No one who tries to love you really measures up when you're a twin. 649 00:42:55,072 --> 00:42:58,534 Well, I know from my own twins, you are absolutely right. 650 00:42:58,617 --> 00:43:01,036 But the whole soul-mate thing, 651 00:43:01,620 --> 00:43:02,871 it's mostly bullshit. 652 00:43:03,831 --> 00:43:05,874 You choose your soul mate. 653 00:43:05,958 --> 00:43:07,334 Cary and I, 654 00:43:07,418 --> 00:43:10,004 we had some fundamental problems. 655 00:43:10,087 --> 00:43:12,172 I didn't even like him for a while. 656 00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:17,386 But I decided he was my person, 657 00:43:17,469 --> 00:43:18,887 and I made it work. 658 00:43:19,471 --> 00:43:22,182 Love, it's mostly chemicals. 659 00:43:22,266 --> 00:43:25,144 Dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin. 660 00:43:25,227 --> 00:43:26,437 To activate all three, 661 00:43:26,520 --> 00:43:29,356 exercise, eat some protein, squeeze in eight hugs a day. 662 00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:31,817 - Mm. - When you're happy and healthy, 663 00:43:31,900 --> 00:43:34,236 then you can make real choices. 664 00:43:34,320 --> 00:43:37,823 And that includes choosing your life mate. 665 00:43:37,906 --> 00:43:39,074 That easy, huh? 666 00:43:39,158 --> 00:43:40,659 It is not easy. 667 00:43:42,578 --> 00:43:44,496 But it is so worth it. 668 00:43:46,081 --> 00:43:47,499 [Love] Dear Forty, 669 00:43:48,208 --> 00:43:50,961 you've been my best friend since before we were born. 670 00:43:51,837 --> 00:43:52,963 My other half. 671 00:43:53,964 --> 00:43:56,675 But I can't keep holding back because I miss you. 672 00:43:56,759 --> 00:43:58,761 I can't raise a family with a broken heart. 673 00:43:59,678 --> 00:44:01,347 I have to choose Joe now. 674 00:44:07,019 --> 00:44:08,562 I'll always love you. 675 00:44:10,064 --> 00:44:11,607 But I have to say goodbye. 676 00:44:12,483 --> 00:44:13,776 For real this time. 677 00:44:15,277 --> 00:44:17,029 As much as it hurts. 678 00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:21,158 Goodbye, you. 679 00:44:29,208 --> 00:44:30,626 [knocking on door] 680 00:44:35,214 --> 00:44:36,590 The fuck? What are you doing here? 681 00:44:38,884 --> 00:44:40,094 You called me. 682 00:44:40,678 --> 00:44:42,721 You drunk-dialed me at 4 a.m. 683 00:44:42,805 --> 00:44:45,974 I was worried, so I... So I Ubered. 684 00:44:46,058 --> 00:44:48,602 I'm sorry. I don't remember that happening. 685 00:44:48,686 --> 00:44:50,020 Oh, wow. 686 00:44:50,104 --> 00:44:52,773 It's proof that I'm in your subconscious though. 687 00:44:52,856 --> 00:44:53,856 Okay. 688 00:44:54,942 --> 00:44:57,528 I can drive you home, but I need you to listen. 689 00:44:57,611 --> 00:44:59,196 I care about you a lot. 690 00:44:59,279 --> 00:45:03,575 I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Can I just say something really quickly? 691 00:45:04,243 --> 00:45:05,077 Sure. 692 00:45:05,160 --> 00:45:06,912 My dad is a lot worse than I thought. 693 00:45:06,995 --> 00:45:11,708 I went into his office, and he hired a PI to stalk people. 694 00:45:11,792 --> 00:45:16,755 And he has all this insane conspiracy shit 695 00:45:16,839 --> 00:45:19,091 about Natalie's murder 696 00:45:19,174 --> 00:45:22,928 with these names of people in Madre Linda, 697 00:45:23,011 --> 00:45:25,013 including you and Joe. 698 00:45:25,097 --> 00:45:26,265 [ominous music playing] 699 00:45:26,849 --> 00:45:27,849 What? 700 00:45:41,572 --> 00:45:44,408 Nurse Fiona, I think you'll like this. It's... 701 00:45:51,415 --> 00:45:52,833 Wait for you outside, beautiful. 702 00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:02,342 Hey, kid. 703 00:46:03,177 --> 00:46:04,678 Love that book. 704 00:46:13,812 --> 00:46:16,315 Sorry, today is not a good day. I have to... 705 00:46:16,398 --> 00:46:18,484 He gets mad at you and he hurts you. 706 00:46:19,151 --> 00:46:22,029 He says he's sorry, it'll never happen again, 707 00:46:22,112 --> 00:46:24,490 and he gives you flowers, right? 708 00:46:27,784 --> 00:46:29,661 There are a lot of bad men out there, 709 00:46:29,745 --> 00:46:33,248 and sometimes you can't tell until it's too late. 710 00:46:33,332 --> 00:46:35,292 Go outside and eat with the other boys. 711 00:46:51,433 --> 00:46:56,396 [Joe] I know now, Marienne. I know why "you," and it's no pattern. 712 00:46:57,147 --> 00:46:59,650 But today starts the next phase 713 00:46:59,733 --> 00:47:03,862 of my growth to know you exist, to see you, to love you even, 714 00:47:04,321 --> 00:47:05,864 and to never have you. 715 00:47:05,948 --> 00:47:09,701 Because as long as I love you, you'll be in danger. 716 00:47:11,161 --> 00:47:13,330 Hi. Hi, can we talk? 717 00:47:13,413 --> 00:47:16,375 - We have a lot to do today. - [Joe] You wanna forget what happened. 718 00:47:16,458 --> 00:47:18,585 Go back to business as usual. I can't go back. 719 00:47:18,669 --> 00:47:22,297 It's only a matter of time before I'm making treasure boxes for Love to find. 720 00:47:22,381 --> 00:47:24,758 - Marienne... - I have feelings for you. 721 00:47:24,841 --> 00:47:26,969 I know nothing can happen. 722 00:47:27,052 --> 00:47:30,889 You're married, with the cutest baby on the planet, 723 00:47:30,973 --> 00:47:32,933 and I'd never do anything to split up a family, 724 00:47:33,016 --> 00:47:34,434 and I need you to know that. 725 00:47:36,103 --> 00:47:37,604 Not that you'd ever, 726 00:47:38,188 --> 00:47:39,773 obviously, because... 727 00:47:40,983 --> 00:47:42,526 you love your wife, 728 00:47:42,609 --> 00:47:47,322 and we were just exhausted and caught up in the moment. 729 00:47:47,406 --> 00:47:50,576 So don't worry, I don't... I don't want anything. 730 00:47:50,659 --> 00:47:51,659 I just... 731 00:47:52,244 --> 00:47:56,206 It can go away. It can dissolve into nothing. Okay? 732 00:47:56,832 --> 00:47:57,832 Cool? 733 00:47:58,625 --> 00:47:59,625 Wait. 734 00:48:00,043 --> 00:48:03,338 It's... It's not nothing. 735 00:48:04,047 --> 00:48:05,882 I'd never break up your family. 736 00:48:07,718 --> 00:48:10,095 - I'd never do anything to hurt Henry. - I know. 737 00:48:11,888 --> 00:48:14,641 I'd never get in the way of you getting your family back. 738 00:48:16,226 --> 00:48:18,729 - I would never hurt Juliette. - I know. 739 00:48:27,988 --> 00:48:28,989 [Joe] Oh, no. 740 00:48:30,907 --> 00:48:31,950 We can't do this. 741 00:48:32,534 --> 00:48:33,368 I know. 742 00:48:33,452 --> 00:48:34,703 Shit. 743 00:48:40,125 --> 00:48:41,335 No, you... 744 00:48:41,418 --> 00:48:43,962 - You have to go before this... - I know. We can't. 745 00:48:44,046 --> 00:48:45,881 I came here to quit. 746 00:48:45,964 --> 00:48:48,342 I thought this would make it easier. 747 00:48:48,425 --> 00:48:51,511 You don't have to do that. 748 00:48:52,095 --> 00:48:56,808 But we should talk when we're a bit more clear-headed. 749 00:49:02,689 --> 00:49:05,025 [Joe] I have never felt more clear-headed. 750 00:49:05,108 --> 00:49:07,611 But I do need time to figure out what I'm gonna do about Love. 751 00:49:10,656 --> 00:49:14,701 I won't let her hurt you, Marienne. I'll never let anyone hurt you. 752 00:49:14,785 --> 00:49:17,496 I will stay ahead of her this time. 753 00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:19,498 - You're home early. - Hey. 754 00:49:19,581 --> 00:49:21,958 There you are. Did you not get my texts? 755 00:49:22,876 --> 00:49:23,919 We need to talk. 756 00:49:24,002 --> 00:49:26,064 [Joe] She knows. How the hell could she already know? 757 00:49:26,088 --> 00:49:27,589 - Is everything okay? - No. 758 00:49:27,673 --> 00:49:30,550 Theo told me that Matthew hired a PI to look into people. 759 00:49:30,634 --> 00:49:32,761 He doesn't think Natalie's case is closed. 760 00:49:32,844 --> 00:49:34,554 Okay. So, what does he have? 761 00:49:34,638 --> 00:49:36,473 I don't know, but I may be able to find out. 762 00:49:36,556 --> 00:49:39,059 - How? - We know Theo has a crush on me... 763 00:49:41,269 --> 00:49:43,480 - And you wanna use that? - Sort of. 764 00:49:43,563 --> 00:49:46,650 Like, okay, I'm just gonna say it. You can shoot it down. 765 00:49:46,733 --> 00:49:51,905 But I could... pretend like he had a chance. 766 00:49:51,988 --> 00:49:55,117 Like, 19-year-olds will do anything if they think sex is on the table. 767 00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:57,035 [Joe] Well, this took a turn, 768 00:49:57,119 --> 00:50:01,206 but if Love's focused on this, she'll be too distracted to notice us. 769 00:50:01,289 --> 00:50:05,127 I know, I was... It's crazy, and I'm asking you for a lot of trust, 770 00:50:05,210 --> 00:50:06,753 - but I really... - It's a great idea. 771 00:50:09,840 --> 00:50:10,966 I trust you. 772 00:50:11,049 --> 00:50:12,759 We are a team. 773 00:50:13,301 --> 00:50:14,511 The best team. 774 00:50:20,809 --> 00:50:22,477 [Joe] We are the best team. 775 00:50:22,561 --> 00:50:26,565 Even if we're not soul mates, it's a kind of love. 776 00:50:26,648 --> 00:50:32,028 And it keeps her eyes somewhere else, so the rest I can give to you. 777 00:50:32,112 --> 00:50:35,031 This is great for everyone. 778 00:50:40,537 --> 00:50:41,913 [theme music playing]